Depersonalization/Derealization

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Hi!  I am now in my 5th week in being totally off all my psych meds (Gabapentin, Seroquel, Zoplicone and Remeron), Remeron being the last one.  Ever since the 3rd week my symptoms have been getting worse day by day.  I am suffering from chronic insomnia (no sleep most days and nights), burning, tingling, numbness, vibrations throughout body and head, adrenaline surges, myoclonic jerks, heart palpitations, depersonalization/derealisation and the list goes on.  I was also addicted to benzos for 26 years approximately 27 years ago but have been off them since 1990. 

 

Is it normal for me 2 feel much worse at this stage in my w/d process?  I feel this will never end and nothing helps with the horrendous symptoms I experience on a 24/7 basis.  I am terrified that I have done some permanent damage 2 my brain and that I will end up in a psych ward for the rest of my life.  I am alone and would greatly appreciate any support and reassurance that what I am experiencing will eventually get better. 

 

Have others on the site suffered 2 the extent that I am suffering.  I would really like 2 hear from you so that I might have some hope that I too will recover.  Thank you.

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There is end in sight! You will make it through! Look at it like your brain is trying to rebalance all of your neuro-transmitters. Some people get relief from supplements while the brain is trying to reboot. L-theanine has greatly helped my depression & adrenaline/cortisol surges. I've also ordered tyrosine for the DP/DR cog fog, it boosts dopamine levels. If you can handle a few days of a 'rev' up then supplements might really help you through your journey. Hope this helps!

 

Tae

[[Hu...]]

Oh my God yes. My brain was so messed up that I lost my faith in God. It's like dying but still being alive I know. You will not die and when you get through this part you will feel that you can do anything and nothing can hurt you. keep fighting it and I guarantee you will be one of the survivors on this forum. And yes I am now praying for you.

[[Pe...]]

I was constantly dissociated for the first 8 months, to the point where months went by and I had no idea what Id been doing. I have so few memories from this period, except that I was a total space cadet. It's real tough... Though I'm at 13 months now and significantly less dissociated.

 

This road feels like forever. But you aren't alone. Sending hugs.

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I suffered every w/d symptom that you listed, and then some.  The fear that I would end my days rocking in a straightjacket in a locked ward was also present - and in fact I did spend a week in a psychiatric ward.  But it wasn't the end of my world and now I am living my life pretty normally.  You will come through this.