update 22 July/2017, 8 days to 12 months

[[He...]]

Hey everybody

 

almost month 12, I feel almost healed.

 

Last week was almost perfect. It was not 100% because Im tired. If I sleep 7 hours I have almost perfect days, like 98%.

 

I still have one or another moments in the day I feel Im not well. Sometimes I still have some intrusives, and things with memory particularly give me this. Ive papssed my acute in my family house. When Im there I observe my thoughts and sometimes similar thoughts from acute can occur. Or I have flashes of being completly sick.

 

Things like this. I have some memories when I go to the places I visit.

 

So What I do is force my slef going to these places and being there, until I feel my self normal again.

 

Last week I didnt have morbid thoughts (ok, one or another, but rare). Im veru happy for this.

 

Im tired and still have a litle brain fog and food sensitivity.

 

I hope this continues until Im fully healed. I dont have a strong wave for 6 months so I hope nothing will appear now. Everything is fading.

 

Im going to wait 1 or 2 months when I feel me 100% before writting my sucess story, but I hope it wil be in the next months.

 

I hope I give some hope for you, I had all these symptoms:

 

Agoraphobia, Agitation, Anxiety, Apathy, Anhedonia (inability to experience pleasure), Crying, Depression, Despair, Dysphoria, Fear (generalized fear), Fear of dying, Fear of losing control and going insane, Fearing symptoms are not withdrawal, Fearing that you will never get better, Fear of life, Fear that symptoms are permanent, Feeling emotional, Feeling frightened, Feeling hopeless, Frustration, Inability to appreciate humour and laugh, Inability to feel emoticons, Inability to feel joy, Inability to feel pleasure, Internal feeling of anxiety with no corresponding, external cause, Irrational fears, Irritability, Lonliness, Low mood, Nervousness, No feelings of fun or laughter, tinnitus, Obsessive thoughts, Overwhelmed feeling, Rapid mood fluctuations, Sensitive feelings, Severe negative looping thoughts, Terror, Hypervigilence about symptoms, Difficulty in distracting oneself, Feeling disconnected, Feeling drugged, Feeling freaked out, Feeling like a zombie, Feeling numb, Feeling scared, Feeling that you're just going crazy, Feeling traumatised, Feeling unreal, Getting worried over small things, Horrid and morbid visions, Images and songs keep repeating in mind, Inability to relax or sit still, Intrusive thoughts, Jumpiness, Loss of sense of identity, Misperceptions, Morbid thoughts, Obsessive and compulsive thinking (OCD), Intrusive toughts, tinnitus, Pacing, Panic attacks, Racing thoughts, Reduced stress tolerance, intrusive memories, Thinking you are mentally ill, Unwarranted feelings of guilt, Vivid dreams, Weird thinking, Weird feeling, Derealisation, Depersonalisation, Distortion of body image, Feeling like legs and arms are not attached to body, Confusion, Delusional thinking, Disorientation, Can't do tasks like make food, Difficulty reading, Difficulty thinking, Impaired cognitive skills, Impaired communication skills, Inability to focus, Inability to function, Inability to learn, Jumbled thoughts, Lack of concentration, Memory and comprehension problems,Inability to think,  Poor judgement, Poor memory, Short-term memory problems, Slow thinking processes, Avoiding friends and people, Inability to occupy oneself, Bloodshot eyes, Blurry vision, Difficulty seeing, Flashes of light in the eyes, Fuzzy eyes, Glassy eyes, Pressure in the inner ear and outer ear, Red burning eyes, Sore eyes, Swollen eyes, Tearing eyes, Uncontrolled eye movement, Buzzing noises, Chest pains, Fast heartbeat, Heart palpitations, Severe pain chest, Tightness in chest, feels twisted, Cranial tightness (felt my head was decompressing), Face spasms, Inner tension, Muscle spasms, Rigidness and jerks, Muscle aches, Muscle cramping, Muscle tension, Muscle weakness (especially in the legs, arms and hands), Tension in neck, Tight achy muscles, Tight jaw and temple, Tight head, Tight muscles in left leg, Tight muscles in neck and shoulders, Gas, Knot in stomach, Loss of appetite and weight loss, Severe pain in stomach, Dry mouth, Severe head pain, Difficulty breathing, Intolerance to music, Sensitive to music, Sensitive to loud noises, Brain nerve pain, "Electric shock" sensations, brain zaps, Anxiety dreams, Frequent awakenings during the night, Horrific nightmares, Hypnagogic hallucinations, Jolts that wake you up, Lack of deep sleep, Poor sleep, Rebound REM sleep, Severe insomnia and tiredness, Weird dreams, Brain fog, Frozen feeling (like I need to get up and do something but can't do the action), Lack of energy, Lack of motivation, Loss of sex drive, Mental and physical exhaustion.

 

I wish you the best, we will heal!

 

 

[[Co...]]

This is wonderful!  I've followed many of your posts over the past few months, and it's been very encouraging to see the great progress in recent weeks. 

 

Thanks for documenting this all so carefully.  I have the same mental/psychological sxs, and it sometimes feels permanent.  It good to see someone with the same situation healing so well.

 

You're almost there! 

[[Kl...]]

Fantastic news! In my first week of month 11. Everyday getting many hours feeling good but still getting daily waves for a couple hours. Hopefully the last problematic sx goes away soon!

[[He...]]

Thank you both

 

I will give more news.

 

Today im in a wave but I think Im with flu