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What to expect at 2 mos off?


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Is there a light at the end of this tunnel, relief anywhere in sight? I don't have physical suffering as much as mental torture and high anxiety. I know everyone is different but if anyone got windows at 2-almost 3 months off, I'd love to hear it....I am barely hanging on to my sanity...
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I started to have windows about that time. Hang in there. Don't forget deep breathing and meditation. I used to chant, I'm ok , I'm alright over and over when the thoughts came and it worked. Find Your go to, it's hard but well heal.
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Thank you bernerd1...just had the worst day today; like a giving up day...I just have to find an inner strength...
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Hey hardtocope,

 

Hang in there it's gonna get better. I was preparing for a very long battle, and in my third month things started to improve.  My Vertig left at between 8-12 weeks.  Then I noticed the dr/dp was also getting better in month 3. Then the intrusive thoughts became less and less. I am very grateful because I know that many struggle for longer. 

 

I used high amounts and for over a decade.

 

I am now starting my fifth month benzo free and I am almost 100%!  I exercise a lot, even when I could hardly stand up straight I forced myself to work out.  I also eat really healthy and take tons of supplements.  Have you read the post on Ginko?  It's over 200 pages long but I read them all and have been faithfully taking Ginko. I really think it has helped.

 

Insomnia is my last troublesome symptom.  It's bad, but it helps me to list all the symptoms I had in the first two or three months, just to remind myself that it IS GETTING BETTER! 

 

I pray you will find hope in these posts, and stay strong.  There are huge improvements that happen between 3-6 months. 

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Thank you Irishman72 for the great encouragement. I pray my story would be similar to yours...I just don't think I could bear much more relentless mental torture. I'm glad you are feeling well! Thank you again!
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Im on month 3 soon and I have started to feel some improvements,many of the symptoms has passed.

I can still feel the anxiety but it is not as intense and brutal as it was the 1-2 first months.

It is fading out gradually,so hang in there,it will be better soon!

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Thank you Camela...I so pray-this is unrelenting. I should be stronger but I find I grow weaker each day that I am slammed with these symptoms. I so pray to become stronger in managing them. I'm glad you're getting some relief.
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I know its so bad Hardtocope, but you're gonna feel so damn good when its over. You WILL get better!! You're doing a GREAT job, just hang on a little longer.  :therethere:
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Thank you Meems71...I wish I was as positive as you...just seems my symptoms get worse and worse lately; really hard to stay calm through it all...I worry I'll be the one who doesn't make it through...I just pray for strength through this...thank you again!
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I went off of subutex a long acting opiate and benzos at the same time back in 09 I wanted to check into rehab at 26 days of of everything lol. I didn't think I was gonna make it, I jumped off in sept by middle ish of Nov I still had bad anxiety but it was ok. I started to volunteer at my kids school. I had to leave some days cuz it got too much with ax but it gradually faded and I started to get waves. It probably took a good 4 months before I felt pretty ok still lots of ups and downs. I don't know what symptoms were from what drug which is probably good. This is my first time going off of just benzos I don't think it can possibly be as bad as 09. It was the worst thing and I am pretty sure it gave me a form of PTSD. I got better stayed off of everything for 3 years.  I don't even really remember why I got back on them in 2013 STUPIDITY I guess..I did get better though. I know I will again and so will YOU!! Yet I still worry I won't lol its crazy making.

 

The summer of 2010 was AWESOME though I can tell you that.. :D

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Thank you Meems71...I guess it's because we trust our doctors who, instead of prescribing therapeutic things, throw wretched meds our way that kill us. I'm glad you made it through that. I would never have dreamed I'd be in this spot. I've gone through withdrawal before too but it was years ago off xanax. I was so naieve and didn't know better; didn't even consider them "drugs"...just friendly rx from the friendly neighborhood doctor-wrong. That w/d was nothing compared to this one; lasted a month then I was back at work...This time, I didn't even know Klonopin was a benzo...thought it was like an ssri..by the time I knew, it was too late...and now, I'm paying for it...Thank you again for your kindness and shared experience.
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This is gonna be one of if not the hardest thing you will ever go through, both physically and mentally. When its over in time it will fade into a distant memory. Maybe that's why I went back on it, I forgot the pain like childbirth  :laugh: Well I'm doing good so far and I won't be going through this EVER again that I can tell you.
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Hi hardtocope

 

I think we're close to the same timeline. Tomorrow is 6 weeks off for me. I think this is a bit of a rollercoaster ride and everyone is different.

 

The last couple of days have been horrible for me. I am dealing with my dad dying. . yesterday I was ready to reinstate because I felt desperate. But today my sister called and said lets go do something. I was scared to go (the anticipatory anxiety is awful) but I did it was ok. Are you having good days? good moments?

 

Those moments are what I hang on to

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Thank you calmthoughts...I'm sorry about your dad. I just have my mother living and my son who is 14. I can't do anything for him...she has to do everything for us...I don't get out much but I'm such a wreck, it wouldn't do any good. The symptoms lately seem to have gotten worse for me...today, I couldn't calm down no matter what...and I've self-neglected-hard to get dressed...I have the depersonalization...it's just horrific. Thank you for reaching out...I sincerely appreciate it.
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You will come through this because of your positive attitude...I guess I tend to see the negative which will make it so much harder for me...Thank you again for your kind support.
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if were having this conversation yesterday I wouldn't sound positive at all. This is the hardest thing I've been through in so many ways but I have to have hope. As I said my dad is dying from leukemia and he told me yesterday that life is short. Every minute is a gift. This is scary. But somehow we have to have hope. Thinking about you and me and everyone else trying to work through this
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Thank you calmthoughts...you and your dad are so right....I pray you get to enjoy those moments with him as I'm sure he is grateful for you as well....blessings to you
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Great thread and will be following! Coming up on 1.5 months and having okish windows on and off constantly. Hopefully we all heal QUICKLY!
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I pray so too BeatBenzos...I really doubt my recovery b/c of how bad I feel but I so pray to come through..
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