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I can barely convey my thoughts clearly right now, so I'm going to try to be concise.  My Clonazepam was discontinued on 3/13/17 (4 mg day), but I would blackout during therapeutic dose and end up chewing through the entire script within 2 weeks (hence psychiatrist discontinuing me).  I still need to update my signature to give my full background.  Anyway, I have been in withdrawal for a solid 30 days, but today I went out to eat with my family (incredibly difficult) and ended up having a glass of white zinfandel. Within moments, my paranoia/delusions/racing thoughts I've been debilitated by, somewhat went away. I knew it was a bad idea to do, but being in a crowded restaurant with my family - oh man! That was around 9 hours ago, I now feel exactly as terrible as I did before the wine. My question: How much did that set me back, recovery-wise? When the withdrawal first started, I would have never even considered leaving the house.  As terrible of a mental state I'm currently in, It has improved (pre-wine and right now, I guess). I've been through benzo withdrawal before and can't believe I'm back in this position, 10x worse.  It's embarrassing - I once posted a success story on here in 2015 and can't even remember my old username, nor do I want to try to find it because I'm hating myself right now. I'm 28 and my memory is completely shot, in the sense that I can't remember what set me back in the past, or what it felt like to be healed.  Thanks everyone and try to stay strong - this is a nightmare to go through.  All I know is that once I did make it to the other side of this in 2015, after posting the success story, I never dealt with my baseline anxiety and threw myself into college and working - well, 2017 and here I am again :(.
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You should be fine.  It's best to avoid excessive drinking, caffeine use, etc.  while recovering.  But one drink isn't really going to set you back.  It even says so in the Ashton manual.  I wouldn't worry about it at all.
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I just want to mention,  that my panic attacks started when I started drinking heavily for fun.  I Wasn't alcohol addict,  but I go on periods (My long holidays) where I indulge in drinking.

 

In addition to the above,  I drink lots of coffee (Espresso containing high amount of caffeine) day and night,  while drinking little water to have my body with minimum water retention.

 

That caused low blood sugar, which lead to up/ down blood pressure leading to continuous panic/anxiety attacks along with Agraphobia.

 

I am not saying something new,  us,  people with history of panics / anxiety / mental issues,  better not drink alcohol and caffeine at all.

 

Why take risk?

 

Risk = Chance

 

Wishing all the best.

 

 

 

 

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I wouldn't worry about 1 glass of wine. I had occasional glasses of wine during my withdrawal process and I'm healed now.
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Thank you all for your replies.  I don't feel any worse than I did before the wine.  I had about 10 minutes of what felt like "relief" but I went back to the exact mental state I was in prior to the wine.  It's so confusing, because I know this isn't baseline anxiety.  I'm functioning more than I was before, if you can call it that.  I have around 36 days into this.  You're right about the caffeine, it actually feels more damaging to me than the wine.  I initially feel calm/good after having a cup of coffee, only to feel hours of increased aggravation.  I'm also recovering from Adderall (70 mg/day prescribed) , and I slipped today.  My friend gave me two of his, so I took a total of 60 mg.  I keep thinking that there's some sort of way around this, but I guess there isn't is there? Lol.  Now I'm left feeling ashamed of myself, though my focus has improved.  Has anyone else taken a stimulant medication during this with success? Perhaps if I hadn't taken these illicitly, I'd feel a little better about it.  Sorry, change of topic, but I just wanted to thank you all for the replies.  I haven't been able to focus on one thing long enough to come on here and socialize.  This is so horrible.
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Honestly, I think that's awesome you had some temporary relief.  I wouldn't worry about it too much.  My psychiatrist told me to drink wine to take the edge off when I was going down on klonopin, so there's that.  :laugh:

 

The worst feeling is drinking some alcohol and then NOT feeling any more relaxed or any better.  This has been my situation many times.  The alcohol is not a reliable symptom reliever so I think you are very lucky it worked for you when it did, and I wish you happy glasses of wine in your future, but obviously, don't overdo it.

 

I would more concerned about the adderall, but just once day's slip shouldn't mess things up too bad.

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One on a special occassion one should be ok.  I had a mimosa on Easter, which is a small glass of champagn mixed with orange juice and was ok. Once when I was having severe post withdrawal symptoms, I self medicated with alcohol, and was starting to have another problem, replacing one addiction with another.  I must say that since March 1 on Easter is the only drink I had. It's hard because my husband drinks wine.  I asked him to hide the bottles, and he puts it in a plastic glass so I don't see it which sets off a craving. 

If you are out with friends, also you can ask for rhine wine and soda, or just soda water with a twist and it may stem he craving to drink to join the gang.

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