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Hi Buddies.

8 weeks ago I had an epidural injection into my lower back for a torn ligament.  I never knew that cortersone acts on gaba receptors.

I believe that is why I'm in the state I'm in now.  Before this wave and in the past 13 months life was manageable with the odd wave here and there. 

This wave is in the pits of hell and I can't get any comfort in to my body at all. It's like constant 24/7 doom.  I just don't know what to do with myself. I think about dying all the time.

Does this mean I've kind of reinstated and I'm back to square one.

Have the past 13 months been a waste.

Can someone please give me a bit of an idea with regards to my situation.

This is pure hell and I can't do it much longer.

I'm devastated.

Tallow love

:smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

 

Posted

Hello Tallow,

 

I'm very sorry you're feeling so badly.  It sounds like you have suffered a setback from the steroid injection, but this is not a permanent situation.  It doesn't mean the last 13 months were wasted - not at all.  It's temporary and things will improve in time. I hope that starts happening soon.

 

Feeling depressed and out of control of one's life is not uncommon during benzo withdrawal. Hopelessness and extreme negativity are themselves benzo withdrawal symptoms. So is the belief "I'm never going to heal." Many of us feel that way at times. But we're really not ourselves during withdrawal, and please understand that these feelings and symptoms are temporary and they WILL go away in time. Benzo withdrawal is a waiting game, and it takes time for one's brain and CNS to return to normal.  Time itself is the healer.

 

However, if you are really feeling suicidal, you must get in-person, on the ground help immediately.  As an international internet forum, we are not equipped to handle this kind of situation when it gets to this point.  Please have a friend or relative come and stay with you, call a helpline, or get professional help if you continue to have these feelings.  Your welfare is important to us. Also, our members, though very caring, are sensitive to suicide references, an that's why it's against the rules to discuss the subject of suicide here. Here's a link to our Suicide and Self Harm Pages, where you'll find valuable resources:

 

 

Suicide and Self-harm Resources

 

 

megan918

Administrator

 

Posted

Hi Tallow,

 

I'm sorry you are not feeling well. I am still currently in a wave for 3 weeks. Two hours ago I went for one hour walk, I started to feel a little better. I hope it will stay with me.  I plan to do one hour walk everyday to see if it helps.  Try to go for walk with a friend, I find walking outside help. We get to get in touch with the 'earthy' atmosphere.  I notice the wave gets really bad with me in the morning and during the day, as the evening gets by, it gets a little easier. I had to work during the days, and that's when the wave hits me, with all the symptoms at once, it was very difficult to work.  That chest pain, dizziness, and headache very constant drove me into total despair everyday for the last 3 weeks. The total disconnected feelings with people and myself was no help and horrible. Many times I wanted to give up but then I had to hold on the face that I have endured 10 months. So you already did 13 months and I don't think its a waste. even though we feel like it in wd. Right now I am writing to you I am feeling a little better.  I just hope the wave lifts for all of us on here soon. I hope you have someone to talk to.  Please hang on.

 

Tracy

Posted

Thanks Megan and Trace.

I know I have to stay strong because I have no other option.

Megan I just read your success story again and would you say that when you were in acute you suffered with the impending doom and fear in the body.

Would the healing that has already occurred be still with me.

Do you think I'm back to acute or the beginning again or is this just an horrific wave because of the injection.

The thing I'm concerned about now is the cortersone out of my system yet.  It's been over eight weeks so I suppose it would be.

Two nights ago I had a strange feeling come over me instantly when I laid down to sleep and I had peace in my body for the whole night and half the next day. Would that be classed as a bit of healing going on.

I can't sleep at the moment due to the fear in my body (up and down all night doing circles)  and I'm just wondering if I should get a sleeping tablet to get me through this wave.

Trace I went with my husband to the beach and we walked the dogs.  I didn't feel any different but it got me out of the house and distracted a bit. I've just had a lay down and I was able to lie there for the hour without getting overwhelmed. It's come back on now so I have to keep moving.

I'm praying so hard to god and anyone I can think of.

I would love to wake tomorrow with this hold not as strong and impending.

Love

Tallow

:smitten: :smitten: :smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

Posted

Hi Tallow love, I'm so sorry you going trough a very hard time. I belive the injection can set you back a little but it should go out of your system soon. It will improve and you will feel better soon.

 

I know how you feel bc I got a progesterone cream right after 2 months when I stoped Clonazepam and I felt afoul on it so I stoped. It trough me back to acute for awhile. I learned after progesterone act on gaba reseptors too and acting like a benzo.

I'm so sorry again for your pain. It is not fair what we have to go trough.

Sending a big hug and pray for you and hoping you will feel better soon.

One day it will be all over and a sun will shine and we will be happy and healthy again! I belive!

Please hang on we love you!

Vica :smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

Posted

Hi Buddies.

8 weeks ago I had an epidural injection into my lower back for a torn ligament.  I never knew that cortersone acts on gaba receptors.

I believe that is why I'm in the state I'm in now.  Before this wave and in the past 13 months life was manageable with the odd wave here and there. 

This wave is in the pits of hell and I can't get any comfort in to my body at all. It's like constant 24/7 doom.  I just don't know what to do with myself. I think about dying all the time.

Does this mean I've kind of reinstated and I'm back to square one.

Have the past 13 months been a waste.

Can someone please give me a bit of an idea with regards to my situation.

This is pure hell and I can't do it much longer.

I'm devastated.

Tallow love

:smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

I had cortisone shots before WD i was crawling up the wall and couldn't get out of my head for about 3 days,thing was i had benzos  and took extra.I didn't know what it was.

I hope it's going away some for you  and your getting a break from that horrible feeling

 

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