5 months off and losing hope fast!

[[Ma...]]

I don't understand why are my symptoms getting even worse? Right now my head feels like it's gonna burst and like it's on fire with all the pain and pressure and I actually have a pounding migraine on top of it. The emotional symptoms are really getting and again SU/HM ideation and intrusive thoughts and the anxiety is getting so bad I think I'm having minor panic attacks which hasn't happened till now.

 

Is this benzo WD? Is this the Zoloft? Is this sinus infection making it worse? I just don't understand I haven't even done anything with the Zoloft in over 6 weeks now what's happening to me?

 

I know everyone gets tired of me talking about it but tonight it's so bad it's got me on my knees face in the floor crying and screaming out in pain. This is bad and I'm losing hope. How could this be after 5 months?

[[Re...]]

It looks like you're history shows a theme of intolerance to some CNS affective medications.  It looks by your signature you did a quick detox of Xanax?  That might as well be CT.  Did you do it over 7days and then they kicked you to the curb??  No doubt your CNS is still readjusting and rebuilding itself back toward homeostasis.  As I am sure you know, there are so many interlinked elements that are trying to readjust in your body.  So any one of them can have a cascade affect on the others as they change in themselves and relative to the other components in your body that govern how you "feel".  This is why we have waves of good and bad experiences as our bodies adjust, find homeostasis, readjust and lose homeostatis, readjust and find homeostasis, and so on and so on until you heal.  I know it sucks, but you can get through it day by day.  If you did the fast detox then you may already know that you can have a higher chance of protracted withdrawal symptoms several months past your cessation date.  Hang in there!!!!!

[[Ma...]]

I'm really trying to hold on but after 5 months and no improvement and to have my symptoms still be so bad that it brings me to my knees and puts me in the floor crying out in pain and scared I just wander if this is ever gonna get better or if healing is just not gonna happen for me?