The cuts are harder but feeling better? Is that normal

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Ok so I don't know if there is anything normal about benzo withdrawal honestly but the last cut I made to .75 was hell but after the 5th day I felt better than I have felt in a long long time, I have had huge windows of feeling so good! I just am so confused about what to do, it has been 12 days since my last cut and I think I will cut to .625 next in a few days. Has anybody else felt that lower they go, the heavier the withdrawal symptoms hit for a few days and then they feel really good? It's just like this weird paradox of ok you're going to have to suffer for about a week and want to die and then feel so much better after, it's just baffling. I feel like my body and brain truly don't want to be on this stuff anymore. I feel worse after I take it every time

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Yes, I get hit way harder with w/d symptoms, but after I recover, I feel better and better, almost my old self again!

 

I just started to split my .375 dose as .125 mid-morning and I will take .25 in the evening. I'll do this though this week and then in April, I will go down to .25 mg (faster than most, but I think I can do it - did it before!)

 

I just won't jump from .25 after only being on it for 7 days like a knucklehead, which is what i did last time, to disastrous results!

 

I'm day 16 at .375 down from .5 and am feeling pretty darn okay, save for the fact I have a horrible, horrible chest cold.

 

But yes, as you go lower, you'll feel the cuts a little worse (but not too bad if you don't make big cuts), but you'll definitely feel the old you coming back as you get lower, for sure! It's pretty exciting!

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Hey, Songbird. 

 

What methodology are you using for your taper?  I noticed in your signature that there is no discernable pattern to it.  Some times you hold for a very long time and sometimes you cut rapidly.  Would it be reasonable get comfortable in a window and then begin a daily microtaper, perhaps using titration?  I used titration at lower doses and it really permits exact and controllable tapering to smooooooothly slide into the end zone.

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Hey, Songbird. 

 

What methodology are you using for your taper?  I noticed in your signature that there is no discernable pattern to it.  Some times you hold for a very long time and sometimes you cut rapidly.  Would it be reasonable get comfortable in a window and then begin a daily microtaper, perhaps using titration?  I used titration at lower doses and it really permits exact and controllable tapering to smooooooothly slide into the end zone.

 

Hi there I actually have been tapering pretty much since the day I was prescribed klonopin so it's kind of just been when I was on summer break or a holiday break at school and I could just relax a bit more but I promised myself that as soon as I finished school I would start getting off of this stuff ASAP because it made me exhausted, I had gained 30 pounds and was really numb emotionally and depressed which is stuff I had never dealt with before even agoraphobic, it was really scary.

 

I hope to be off by the end of June totally and I honestly don't want to deal with mixing up solutions of anything or weighing stuff honestly, no offense to anybody who does that because I know it can work wonderfully for so many people,  but I just want to be off as soon as possible and I can move forward with my life. Honestly the idea of having to cut and measure and mix and use a syringe everyday makes me want to cry it's just not an option for me, I think that whatever taper method you do it's so important to be confident in it and I do feel confident about my cuts and I know it will be much harder than doing a daily taper or liquid titration but just getting off is the most important thing to me and lower I cut the better I feel after the withdrawal symptoms let up so I feel like I am going in the right direction

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Good to hear it.  Whatever works for you is what matters at the end of the day.  All the best to you as you walk your path.

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Same pattern for the most part with me too. My last cut was 10% over the course of 5 days. 2% per day. Spent a week in pretty brutal pain. Then over the course of 2 days, it lifted and has been pretty good. Time to cut again. Maybe 5% this time.

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Ok so I don't know if there is anything normal about benzo withdrawal honestly but the last cut I made to .75 was hell but after the 5th day I felt better than I have felt in a long long time, I have had huge windows of feeling so good! I just am so confused about what to do, it has been 12 days since my last cut and I think I will cut to .625 next in a few days. Has anybody else felt that lower they go, the heavier the withdrawal symptoms hit for a few days and then they feel really good? It's just like this weird paradox of ok you're going to have to suffer for about a week and want to die and then feel so much better after, it's just baffling. I feel like my body and brain truly don't want to be on this stuff anymore. I feel worse after I take it every time

You know I have no rhyme or reason to my Ativan taper. Honestly with the last two cuts I have made, I feel like Pooh, and then I feel a little better. The last two days have been good compared to others, and really should have cut yesterday, but took my dose without one. I also share your sentiments about really wanting off this stuff. It feels like I do feel worse after I dose. I am keeping faith that I am healing as I go, but not sure. Probably will try to cut to 1 mg tonight.

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you asked a question that i am thinking about songbird, i feel worse after my afternoon dose ,so i see that as a good sign that our bodies are healing.