Here with Hope!

[[So...]]

So I did my cut down to .75 mg about a week ago now and I have the most amazing news, I had my first big window that I have had thus far, it lasted about 16 hours and didn't end until about 5pm today. It was what I needed to truly believe that healing happens. It was beautiful, things were crystal clear, colors were beautiful and I felt like I finally saw the world out of my fog for the first time since ny last mini window which only lasted a few hours honestly and I am just here to say it gets better. I am now feeling bad again and feeling the cut which a lot of people told me was far too big, but I trust my body and myself and I am happy as a clam

 

I actually felt emotions, real emotions and felt so connected to my fiancé, my family, I listened to music, walked my dog, made breakfast while singing and laughed at goofy movies all day long. It was just what I needed, a taste of what life after benzos feels like. This journey is unexplainable to anybody else who hasn't gone through it, it is hell on earth and two days ago even yesterday morning I truly felt like giving up and increasing my dose. I almost took a Xanax to just feel some relief, but I am SO glad I didn't.

 

Just wanted to stop in and spread the love and positivity, I literally cried with happiness and relief to just have that window of feeling like my old self pre benzos, and I can't wait to get that back all the time, sending love and light to you all!

[[Lo...]]

That's amazing to hear. Congrats on feeling like yourself again

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I was just yesterday reading one of your other most recent posts and it seemed you were in a dark place, feeling like you aren't healing, and discouraged. I don't get long windows, but when I do they are glorious, just glorious. I live reading of others windows, especially when they are having a rough time. Congratulations on the window!  Here's to opening the windows and riding the waves! Shall we heal!! No, we shall heal!

[[pn...]]

It is wonderful to hear that you are doing ok. Here's hoping that you keep having windows to encourage you on this journey.

[[tw...]]

Yay!!! I'm so glad you held on! Aren't those windows WONDERFUL? 

 

Just keep going, take it slow, don't rush it (you may want to, once you get more and more of those windows! I definitely did! But don't over do it, like I did...)

 

Thanks for checking in - I was wondering about you. Remember - any time you feel bad, go back and read your posts, so you can see your windows!

 

 

[[be...]]

So I did my cut down to .75 mg about a week ago now and I have the most amazing news, I had my first big window that I have had thus far, it lasted about 16 hours and didn't end until about 5pm today. It was what I needed to truly believe that healing happens. It was beautiful, things were crystal clear, colors were beautiful and I felt like I finally saw the world out of my fog for the first time since ny last mini window which only lasted a few hours honestly and I am just here to say it gets better. I am now feeling bad again and feeling the cut which a lot of people told me was far too big, but I trust my body and myself and I am happy as a clam

 

I actually felt emotions, real emotions and felt so connected to my fiancé, my family, I listened to music, walked my dog, made breakfast while singing and laughed at goofy movies all day long. It was just what I needed, a taste of what life after benzos feels like. This journey is unexplainable to anybody else who hasn't gone through it, it is hell on earth and two days ago even yesterday morning I truly felt like giving up and increasing my dose. I almost took a Xanax to just feel some relief, but I am SO glad I didn't.

 

Just wanted to stop in and spread the love and positivity, I literally cried with happiness and relief to just have that window of feeling like my old self pre benzos, and I can't wait to get that back all the time, sending love and light to you all!

 

I had a window like that which was pretty amazing as well. So I get your joy. I hope more windows for the both of us! If I didn't not believe they would come,  I would not be here.