Need help setting up successful taper plan

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^{15 years on and off multiple benzos. Last four years on benzos. 6months ago I was on 9mg xanax and 20mg of Valium a day. I got transferred to new psych that tried to get me off all benzos within one month even though I knew I needed to taper. Finally convinced him to go to 5 mg a day after several trips to ER for tests that came back showing nothing wrong. Felt like I was going insane for awhile. I have currently been slow tapering on my own with the limited supply he gives me, but I am having horrible withdrawals with vision, pain in back, confusion, breathing difficulty and belching after I eat. Also lost around 35 pounds during this 6 month period and would like to stop losing weight, but eating is difficult and anxiety around eating. Got transferred to new psych that I see on Monday. I have been taking 2.5 mg of Valium around 5pm daily, but still having bad withdrawals and will run out within the next couple weeks unless new psych offers new prescription. Don't know best route going forward. Do I go up and slow taper, do I stay at 2.5 and just deal with withdrawal symptoms, or something else? I would just like to have a plan I can present to my new psych on Monday and see what they are willing to do? Help please, I just don't know what a good plan looks like? Not having anxiety, just lots of pain in upper right back (with spasms) like someone is stabbing it and still having symptoms with eating. Some days ok, next day hard to get through. And thoughts will help. Feel alone some days on this journey}

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^{15 years on and off multiple benzos. Last four years on benzos. 6months ago I was on 9mg xanax and 20mg of Valium a day. I got transferred to new psych that tried to get me off all benzos within one month even though I knew I needed to taper. Finally convinced him to go to 5 mg a day after several trips to ER for tests that came back showing nothing wrong. Felt like I was going insane for awhile. I have currently been slow tapering on my own with the limited supply he gives me, but I am having horrible withdrawals with vision, pain in back, confusion, breathing difficulty and belching after I eat. Also lost around 35 pounds during this 6 month period and would like to stop losing weight, but eating is difficult and anxiety around eating. Got transferred to new psych that I see on Monday. I have been taking 2.5 mg of Valium around 5pm daily, but still having bad withdrawals and will run out within the next couple weeks unless new psych offers new prescription. Don't know best route going forward. Do I go up and slow taper, do I stay at 2.5 and just deal with withdrawal symptoms, or something else? I would just like to have a plan I can present to my new psych on Monday and see what they are willing to do? Help please, I just don't know what a good plan looks like? Not having anxiety, just lots of pain in upper right back (with spasms) like someone is stabbing it and still having symptoms with eating. Some days ok, next day hard to get through. And thoughts will help. Feel alone some days on this journey}

 

 

If you went from 9mgX and 20mgV to 2.5mgV in 6 months, you need to be congratulated. that in itself is an amazing feat. I would not even think about cutting again until I was stable. Might take a while but keep the faith. You are really amazing to have come so far.

 

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Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for the kind and encouraging words. Your words have uplifted my soul and encouraged me to keep fighting. This has been the hardest and also best six months of my life. Just so glad to know I'm not going insane and that I am not alone

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I've never heard of someone tapering off such a large amount as quickly as you have md you're doing it! You're on this forum reaching out which shows you're fighting, using your brain, and you ARE healing. I don't have advice except keep hanging on and I'm sure some people with more experience here will guide you. You're amazing!!

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Met with new Psych Yesterday. she was very understanding and we started a slow taper plan at 4mg a day and will be reducing by .5mg every month. So hopefully within six to eight months I will be completely free and on a path of more healing and more helping. Thanks for the kind words, encouragement and hope sent this way. It is so refreshing