I'm sorry but....

[[Tr...]]

I'm starting to really dislike the doctors and pharmaceuticals . I have been suffering so much for the last 9 months , even though I do have good days but they symtoms are so constant . I'm very nice and caring person but I'm starting to lose respect and dislike the doctors . I know that there are good doctors but I and others in benzo buddies have suffered so much . Doctors Need to be more careful when giving out drugs especially like this one.  I know the milk has spilled and I need to be in perspective but I'm a bit angry at them doctors today . Sorry for this negative post . My head hurts so much I can't read. I'm in disconnected every waking second.  Doctors please next time when you prescribe something please be careful . I know it's business and money but these drugs have destroyed and destroying so many lives . There Are more to life than money such as happiness .

 

Tracy

[[He...]]

In my acute, I went to the doc without know what was happening with me. I was diagnosed with major depression.

 

I took zoloft, and my symptoms worsen. I started to develop fobia of any pill and psydocs, that was what made me try natural method, and forget the pills.

 

after 1 month suffering (I was conviced I had a simple mental breakdown), I found BB.

 

six months after acute, I am better...

 

And I hope I will heal from all these last years.

 

 

PILLS? NEVER

[[Vi...]]

Hi Tracy, I'm not dislike doctors, I hate them.,I know hate is a harsh words and I should not use it but they destroyed my life. So I hate them and have no respect toward to them at all.

But I love you guys! my heart filled with love  towards God, my wonderful husband, family and friends, and BB Angeles. Something to worthed to fight.

Hugs

[[er...]]

I agree with all of you..

 

I just received my medical records from my doctor's office, from 2009 - 2015.. (called and going to get the last 1.5 years sent to me..), but they read like a big chemistry experiment!!! 

 

I mean, this guy was putting me on all kinds of shit and suggesting additional things that I refused, but he was mixing medications so much and changing doses, so it is no wonder I was having such a hard time since I began seeing him..

 

I am really thinking of trying to sue him - as my life has been pretty shitty from all the medications.. and he'd arbitrarily lower my clonazepam from 2.0mg to 1.5 and in the next few months the records show that I was complaining of all kinds of (what I know now as) benzo w/d symptoms.. and then he put me on other shit too, and I was so desperate in w/d (that I didn't know was w/d), so I took an anti-psychotic for 4 years.. That drug really turned me into a zombie..

 

As hard as this last year has been, off of benzos, (and the anti-psychotic, risperdal), after reading those records, I realize I'm doing much better now than I was before..

 

I agree, I hate these idiot doctors.. why don't they tell us to eat better, get some exercise, etc...?  (because there's no profit in that!)..

 

Eric

[[Tr...]]

I agree with all of you..

 

I just received my medical records from my doctor's office, from 2009 - 2015.. (called and going to get the last 1.5 years sent to me..), but they read like a big chemistry experiment!!! 

 

I mean, this guy was putting me on all kinds of shit and suggesting additional things that I refused, but he was mixing medications so much and changing doses, so it is no wonder I was having such a hard time since I began seeing him..

 

I am really thinking of trying to sue him - as my life has been pretty shitty from all the medications.. and he'd arbitrarily lower my clonazepam from 2.0mg to 1.5 and in the next few months the records show that I was complaining of all kinds of (what I know now as) benzo w/d symptoms.. and then he put me on other shit too, and I was so desperate in w/d (that I didn't know was w/d), so I took an anti-psychotic for 4 years.. That drug really turned me into a zombie..

 

As hard as this last year has been, off of benzos, (and the anti-psychotic, risperdal), after reading those records, I realize I'm doing much better now than I was before..

 

I agree, I hate these idiot doctors.. why don't they tell us to eat better, get some exercise, etc...?  (because there's no profit in that!)..

 

Eric

 

I assumed they would not make any money from that . Yes, dislike is too nice, I would use the word "hate" ...it's going to take me along time to trust these .....so called doctors again ....they still prescribing these meds everyday to millions of people ....

[[Wi...]]

I dont intend to be the downer in the conversation but hating isnt helping our recovery at all. By hating the Drs. who prescribed us benzos you are only allowing the Drs. to harm you even more then they already have. The Drs. dont suffer by your hateful heart-only you do so why let the Drs. who you hate to begin with have even more control over your life by your choosing to hate them? A person who holds onto hate is only harming themselves-not the subject of their hate. If you are a faithful person never forget that God is Love and by practicing hate you are distancing yourself from God and im sure that isnt your intention. Good luck and GREAT JOB Tracy coming up on your 10th month off the benzo beast! You are winning the fight of your life!

[[Tr...]]

I dont intend to be the downer in the conversation but hating isnt helping our recovery at all. By hating the Drs. who prescribed us benzos you are only allowing the Drs. to harm you even more then they already have. The Drs. dont suffer by your hateful heart-only you do so why let the Drs. who you hate to begin with have even more control over your life by your choosing to hate them? A person who holds onto hate is only harming themselves-not the subject of their hate. If you are a faithful person never forget that God is Love and by practicing hate you are distancing yourself from God and im sure that isnt your intention. Good luck and GREAT JOB Tracy coming up on your 10th month off the benzo beast! You are winning the fight of your life!

 

Thank you . I agree with you . I usually never really hate anyone that y I used the word dislike. It's true hating someone will only make it worse for us. It's not easy when symptoms are so intense and we don't think clear. Practicing forgiveness and compassion is what I have learnt , hard In this horrible journey but I guess nothing I can do.

 

Thanks ..,I notice many buddies heal and so much better by 10 months I'm still suffering bad anxiety in a daily basis . So discouraged sometimes .

[[er...]]

I hear what you're saying Windwalker, and you're absolutely right.. I don't really "hate" the doctors, as it doesn't consume me all the time or anything.. but once in a while, I admit, I do get very pissed off at these people.. Truthfully, I want to find someone to sue the shit out of my doctor..

 

Forgiveness is everything, and soon enough I'll get there, but for now, after being emotionless for so long, it feels a little good to be angry, even though I know it's "wrong"..

[[Wi...]]

I definitely hear ya and i know youve had an especially difficult time Trace yet you ARE doing it. You got this!

[[Te...]]

I've come to hate them too. They all tell me to stay off this site, but none of them will bother to educate themselves about benzo tolerance and withdrawal. They just treat me as if I'm crazy when I try to ecucate them. 

 

Hi Tracy, I'm not dislike doctors, I hate them.,I know hate is a harsh words and I should not use it but they destroyed my life. So I hate them and have no respect toward to them at all.

But I love you guys! my heart filled with love  towards God, my wonderful husband, family and friends, and BB Angeles. Something to worthed to fight.

Hugs

[[Na...]]

There are many good doctors, but for every good doctor there seems to be a bad, arrogant, or just lazy doc.

 

I certainly don't view the medical profession in the same light I did before all this.

 

 

 

 

[[Vi...]]

I dont intend to be the downer in the conversation but hating isnt helping our recovery at all. By hating the Drs. who prescribed us benzos you are only allowing the Drs. to harm you even more then they already have. The Drs. dont suffer by your hateful heart-only you do so why let the Drs. who you hate to begin with have even more control over your life by your choosing to hate them? A person who holds onto hate is only harming themselves-not the subject of their hate. If you are a faithful person never forget that God is Love and by practicing hate you are distancing yourself from God and im sure that isnt your intention. Good luck and GREAT JOB Tracy coming up on your 10th month off the benzo beast! You are winning the fight of your life!

Hi, windwalker, i do understand what you saying and im a faithful person but what I'm going trough right now and I know many of us going trough same or similar suffering is very hard to like doctors. Hate or dislike or what ever we call just a words. The point is here we lost respect, trust for them. Maybe not all of them. And yes, we have to focus on recovery right now, not liking doctors or not. I'm over with that a long time ago. My life is all about how to get better and become the same loving kind happy person who I was before. But one day with God help I will go back to my doctor and I will show all my favourite success story here to him and I will tell him to read dose wonderful stories. I want to solve his BIGGEST MYSTERY IN HIS LIFE!!!! That is who I'm to him right now. But one day I will be back, maybe  it will take a lots days or moths of crying afternoon on my couch or on the treadmill, but I will be back with my success story.

Hugs and keep healing all my friends

[[Wi...]]

I totally understand and  agree that there are many many unscrupulous Drs. out there who intentionally get us addicted in order to  keep us coming back to them to refil the medication- solely so they can make money off our pitiful suffering selves . Then they feign ignorance to cover their asses from liability. They should all be force fed boatloads of benzos so they become addicted and experience withdrawal and then be sentenced to prison for crimes against humanity. Many, if not most of these Drs. KNOW the suffering they are causing-they simply dont give a shit because money is their only interest. So im right there with you. My point is that these criminal Drs. have already royally screwed up our lives with suffering and we shoudnt allow them to further screw our lives up by turning us into hateful animals. Ultimately we need to forgive these mother fuc___s and move on with our lives. AFTER withdrawal.

[[Vi...]]

I totally understand and  agree that there are many many unscrupulous Drs. out there who intentionally get us addicted in order to  keep us coming back to them to refil the medication- solely so they can make money off our pitiful suffering selves . Then they feign ignorance to cover their asses from liability. They should all be force fed boatloads of benzos so they become addicted and experience withdrawal and then be sentenced to prison for crimes against humanity. Many, if not most of these Drs. KNOW the suffering they are causing-they simply dont give a shit because money is their only interest. So im right there with you. My point is that these criminal Drs. have already royally screwed up our lives with suffering and we shoudnt allow them to further screw our lives up by turning us into hateful animals. Ultimately we need to forgive these mother fuc___s and move on with our lives. AFTER withdrawal.

Lol My husband is right there with you about  force fed doctors with benzo until they become addicted, than CT them.

Love and keep healing

Vica