Help :(

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I don't know if I can do this.. the thought of feeling awful every day scares me so much... I've already spent the last 5 months feeling crappy from withdrawals... I'm scared I'm going to become psychotic or something 😭 6 year use seems impossible to beat... I feel so negative and depressed right now. I'm 24 and want my mom.. my husband works all day in the military and he leaves for two months in two weeks and I don't know what I'm going to do.. someone offer me encouragement please

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My first advice would be to hold, hold, and hold. Going from 3mg ativan to 8mg Valium is huge. If you are gong to end up all alone for a while, I would not taper at all....

 

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Good Grief.  3mg of Ativan in the most conservative comparisons is at least equivalent to 15 mg of diazepam, probably closer to 25-30.  No wonder you are in constant withdrawal.  You need to find someone who is good at treating addictions to help get you stable and then design a reduction schedule that will help you comfortably taper.  How did you arrive at 8mg diazepam as equivalent to 3mg of Ativan???

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My previous dr messed it up. It's not really that I'm feeling bad, I'm just scared I think. I ended up falling asleep, but my alarm accidentally went off so I'm awake now.

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I'm mad that my previous Dr didn't know what she was doing and I just got a new one.. he's so much better, I'm just so defeated because I already started this process once and got to 2&1-2mg of ativan by myself then the dr told me I'm going to slow and to go to 2 and all hell broke loose. Then I was told to go back to 3 so I did because my brain was fried at that point and had no idea what to do to feel better... valium made me feel normal again even at the wrong dose.. I'm just scared it's gonna get bad again. My husband and I were fighting a lot and I was in the ER because I thought I was dying.. I had no idea what was wrong with me... now I know I was in withdrawal since last November.

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But the Valium definitely stabilized me. The Ativan wasn't doing anything. Aside from jitters and GI issues, I'm ok. Well my heart rate, but the dr thinks I might have an arrhythmia so I'm getting that checked out but he said it's probably just tachycardia and is putting me on a beta blocker

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You're going to be ok I promise, is there anyway you could have somebody come out and stay with you, or that you could stay with, being alone during this makes it so much harder. Either way you have all of us here and if you ever want to talk to somebody we are always here, I work from home too so if you ever need to call somebody and talk I'm here, also try Dr Jennifer Leigh, she offers one on one coaching either through Skype or FaceTime, you can visit her website, I think chatting with her yesterday is what made me feel so much better, she reciv red after 18 years of continuous benzo usage and alcohol addiction and has the most positive attitude ever.

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You're going to be ok I promise, is there anyway you could have somebody come out and stay with you, or that you could stay with, being alone during this makes it so much harder. Either way you have all of us here and if you ever want to talk to somebody we are always here, I work from home too so if you ever need to call somebody and talk I'm here, also try Dr Jennifer Leigh, she offers one on one coaching either through Skype or FaceTime, you can visit her website, I think chatting with her yesterday is what made me feel so much better, she reciv red after 18 years of continuous benzo usage and alcohol addiction and has the most positive attitude ever.

 

My family lives 12 hours away.. it's hard for anyone to stay with me.. and I can go stay there but not long because I need medication refills.. it's frustrating. Plus money.. it's expensive to travel.

 

Thanks for being here, I appreciate it. You're welcome to PM me.

 

How do I do the skype thing if I need it?

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You can visit her website and pay for a session https://benzowithdrawalhelp.com

 

She is really great, and I'm sorry I know it's expensive to travel, can you get the prescription transferred to another pharmacy closer to where your family lives at all?

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My family lives 12 hours away.. it's hard for anyone to stay with me.. and I can go stay there but not long because I need medication refills.. it's frustrating. Plus money.. it's expensive to travel.

 

You may want to consider moving in with your family for a while and finding a doctor over in that area. You are really going to need all the support you can get.

 

Another option would be for a family member to move in with you for a time being.

 

Just throwing out ideas because being alone while having this benzo illness is not a good place to be at..

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I have my husband.. I'm just alone most of the time because he's in the military. Like work days are 5am-6pm.. so it feels lonely.

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Hi OK, yes you are going to be OK <3

I am on Propranolol, a beta blocker, for social phobia.  I could not give a speech either loud or long enough to even be considered a speech before I had propranolol.  My heart randomly pulsates at times too - it really helps calm it down and I feel so much better that I would expect to after taking that tiny little beta blocker!

 

<3

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You can't worry about things that might happen. Its not a problem until it's a problem. Take it day to day and don't think about the long-term.

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I have my husband.. I'm just alone most of the time because he's in the military. Like work days are 5am-6pm.. so it feels lonely.

 

Ah, ok. I recall reading your earlier post about your husband going away for 2 months in 2 weeks, so I was thinking about the possibility of you living with your family during that time until he's back. Please disregard my earlier post if you have your living arrangements figured out. Sorry.

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I have my husband.. I'm just alone most of the time because he's in the military. Like work days are 5am-6pm.. so it feels lonely.

 

Ah, ok. I recall reading your earlier post about your husband going away for 2 months in 2 weeks, so I was thinking about the possibility of you living with your family during that time until he's back. Please disregard my earlier post if you have your living arrangements figured out. Sorry.

 

Oh, yes he is. I thought you meant like permanatly. I'm going to stay with them during that time he's gone. That was my fault, sorry.

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I have my husband.. I'm just alone most of the time because he's in the military. Like work days are 5am-6pm.. so it feels lonely.

 

Ah, ok. I recall reading your earlier post about your husband going away for 2 months in 2 weeks, so I was thinking about the possibility of you living with your family during that time until he's back. Please disregard my earlier post if you have your living arrangements figured out. Sorry.

 

Oh, yes he is. I thought you meant like permanatly. I'm going to stay with them during that time he's gone. That was my fault, sorry.

 

Oh, good to hear that is the case . Thanks for the clarification . In that case you have a pretty good chance of riding it out with 8mg Valium and a beta blocker on board. Just be easy on your nervous system.