Impending DOOM!!!!

[[Ta...]]

Back to waking with impending doom the past 5 mornings!!!!!

I'm celebrating my 12 month anniversary of freedom this week and I still feel

so unwell.

Why does this come back so cruel and ruin our lives so much???  OMG I'm finding it

so hard to stay strong and stop crying. This is the worse type of body torture ever.

Just needed to vent and feel close to you guys. (my angels)

Love and hugs to you all.

Tallow Love

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[[co...]]

Hey Tallow. I had the impending doom symptom for months but it dropped away. I'm 27 months out and probably 90% healed and everything, I mean like 40 different horrible sure-I-was-dying symptoms, just vanished. All I have left is tinnitus and occasional light insomnia. Hang in there, yours will vanish too.

[[be...]]

Back to waking with impending doom the past 5 mornings!!!!!

I'm celebrating my 12 month anniversary of freedom this week and I still feel

so unwell.

Why does this come back so cruel and ruin our lives so much???  OMG I'm finding it

so hard to stay strong and stop crying. This is the worse type of body torture ever.

Just needed to vent and feel close to you guys. (my angels)

Love and hugs to you all.

Tallow Love

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One year is fantastic Tallow. What a milestone! I am just behind you and I am looking forward to finally hitting my one year. Hugs and Healing being sent your way. 

[[be...]]

Hey Tallow. I had the impending doom symptom for months but it dropped away. I'm 27 months out and probably 90% healed and everything, I mean like 40 different horrible sure-I-was-dying symptoms, just vanished. All I have left is tinnitus and occasional light insomnia. Hang in there, yours will vanish too.

 

Thanks so much for sticking around and encouraging us youngins! 

[[Ta...]]

Thanks confused1 for your reply of hope.  At the moment it's very hard to believe that this will all go away but when we read wonderful messages like yours it helps so much. From the bottom of my heart thanks for sticking around and guiding us through this nightmare.  :smitten:

When I'm through this horrible mess I'm going to make sure I come back on here and shout it from the roof that healing does happen.  I just have to get there yet.

 

Hi beebop2.

Hugs and healing being sent back to you.  Well done on be close to the big one year.  I was hoping to be feeling much better at the one year mark.  I have 3 days to go and who knows this may have lifted by Thursday.  I have everything crossed!!!!  :smitten:

[[be...]]

 

ONE MORE DAY NOW!

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You're gorgeous beebop2. 

It's like waiting for a birthday.  I wonder if I'll get any presents??

Do you know what I would love - to wake and be out of this horrible WAVE!!!

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[[Ma...]]

Back to waking with impending doom the past 5 mornings!!!!!

I'm celebrating my 12 month anniversary of freedom this week and I still feel

so unwell.

Why does this come back so cruel and ruin our lives so much???  OMG I'm finding it

so hard to stay strong and stop crying. This is the worse type of body torture ever.

Just needed to vent and feel close to you guys. (my angels)

Love and hugs to you all.

Tallow Love

:smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

 

How would you explain this doom feeling?I am sometimes getting that before sleeping.I am saying it is terror feeling.I cannot explain that different.I am sorry.I am 7 month out short time users and feelng horrible.

[[be...]]

You're gorgeous beebop2. 

It's like waiting for a birthday.  I wonder if I'll get any presents??

Do you know what I would love - to wake and be out of this horrible WAVE!!!

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I'm hoping that you wake up healed but in case you don't. I am praying that you wake up with a HUGE window. 

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Hi Masha.

I only seem to get the impending doom when I'm in a horrible wave. All I can say is thank god they do go away when things improve.  My impending doom hits me severely in the mornings on waking and as the days goes on it lessens a bit. It's so hard to work along side it.  When it disappears the healing journey is so much easier.

I suppose my impending doom feels like a heavy blanket over me with a suffocating vibe to it.  It's a very scary feeling and frightening.  It's a bit like panic mode being switched on for no reason.  I must admit it's not as severe as it was in acute - thank goodness.  If I ever had to go back to the acute impending doom I don't know if I could survive. It was absolutely brutal.

Stay strong darl as it will all go away - It always does!!!

I'm 6 days in now with impending doom and I just want it to go away. I look an absolute wreck from crying so much.

I'm one year tomorrow and I want to wake up with it gone!!!!

Just remember to hold on to hope and believe in a healthy future.

We still have a fair way to go but we are going to make it.

Our lives maybe very small at the moment but with more time they will be so big and we won't even have time to look back and think about this gutsy journey.

Stay in touch

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Hi beebop.

I have one more sleep darl.  Look out tomorrow!!!! At the moment I think I'll just settle for the morning impending doom to be gone!!!  Thanks for your love and support.

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[[Ma...]]

Hey Tallow - so we are both 1 year free, right? Congrats!!!! Congrats!!!!

 

I am suffering at the moment, too, not from wd, but other shit and I can relate to your feelings - but I tell myself its temporary and things will ease up again. Can you celebrate a little bit like I wrote in my success story? You deserve it - no matter what.

 

You need to write a success story, too. Promise!!!!

 

For me, it helped to celebrate, although I could make it 2 days after the real "date" because of the bad condition. But I wanted to stop to cry and to give myself a gift - it helped! Even the pain is better today.. (read the post, I don't want to rewrite all here:_)

Perhaps the celebrating can ease your pain and fear a little bit. I really hope so.

 

You will get out of that hole again, Tallow! We have always come out of the weirdest shit and so it will be this time. You don't give up now. You will celebrate because you deserve it. If you cant, make a plan and a celebration date with yourself.

 

Chin up, buddy! IT! WILL! GET!!! BETTER!.

 

Marigold

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Hi Marigold1.

Thanks so much for your beautiful words.

I will write a success story eventually but just not yet. I still have a fair way to go.

I did have a special day for my anniversary. I actually woke without the impending doom and my day was so much easier.

I had a night off cooking and we got takeaways for dinner.

I'm so looking forward to the 2 year mark now.

Keep pushing forward sweet friend testing the boundaries.

Remember to do something nice for yourself each day.

I cut the roses today with the music full blast - it felt good.

Wishing you better days.

Tallow

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Hi Marigold1.

Thanks so much for your beautiful words.

I will write a success story eventually but just not yet. I still have a fair way to go.

I did have a special day for my anniversary. I actually woke without the impending doom and my day was so much easier.

I had a night off cooking and we got takeaways for dinner.

I'm so looking forward to the 2 year mark now.

Keep pushing forward sweet friend testing the boundaries.

Remember to do something nice for yourself each day.

I cut the roses today with the music full blast - it felt good.

Wishing you better days.

Tallow

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Hey darling,

I am happy you could do something nice and I really hope the impeding doom will vanish soon. Sucks..

And don't forget: Succes stories are not to be written when we feel 100% healed. The way we go is long, and every step forward is a success - thats why I wrote mine no matter how I feel right now.

Hug!

Marigold