I Can't Take It Anymore

[[iw...]]

It has been over a year since I stopped taking Clonazepam, and the tinnitus is driving me insane.  My head is "screaming" today.  I feel like I'm back at the beginning.  I can't take it anymore!  I am so afraid this will never go away.  Everybody keeps telling me that it will since it was caused by benzo withdrawal, but I'm losing hope.  How long will this take?  Did anybody else go through this?  Please help me.

[[Je...]]

I know I am not in a good place to answer. At 14 months I am in a big wave. But I can say not to lose hope. I have talked to many who have recovered or improved and they say it is coming so when I feel like giving up, i just get a bunch of blankets and lay down. Praying for you buddy!

[[be...]]

 

I can't get over just how much all of us are suffering even after 10 12 14 months of being completely off of this crap. No substance should be affecting our brains and bodies like this. Even the hard core drugs would be out of people's bodies by now. How completely irresponsible these drug pushers are and they do it in the name of medicine. I am not that old but I am so unwilling now to listen to doctors. I am ranting here but this is ridiculous. This bad experience has completely changed me. I will never trust doctors again.

 

I am so sorry that you guys are suffering like this. I am sorry for me as well. 

[[Ma...]]

It has been over a year since I stopped taking Clonazepam, and the tinnitus is driving me insane.  My head is "screaming" today.  I feel like I'm back at the beginning.  I can't take it anymore!  I am so afraid this will never go away.  Everybody keeps telling me that it will since it was caused by benzo withdrawal, but I'm losing hope.  How long will this take?  Did anybody else go through this?  Please help me.

 

7 month out I have horrIble tinnitus as well.Heathrow helps is massage of neck and much water.

[[He...]]

It has been over a year since I stopped taking Clonazepam, and the tinnitus is driving me insane.  My head is "screaming" today.  I feel like I'm back at the beginning.  I can't take it anymore!  I am so afraid this will never go away.  Everybody keeps telling me that it will since it was caused by benzo withdrawal, but I'm losing hope.  How long will this take?  Did anybody else go through this?  Please help me.

 

I have occasionally, 7 months after.

 

cranial massage + electric shocks help me a lot, water, and a ph balancer (acid blood in the brain is bad)

 

 

[[co...]]

I had a pretty nice window at 7 months that lasted until month 12, when I got hit with a wave so bad I was bedridden for 3 months. Then a slow climb for a few months and since month 18 doing really well. I'm at month 27 and I'm approaching 90 % healed. My last real remaining symptom is tinnitus and occasional light insomnia. The tinnitus is raging, so I can relate. I've heard it's the last symptom to go. Nothing I've tried so far eases it but it has become slightly more bearable except at night. I've been playing music at bed time to drown it out. I found this song that plays on a loop for ten hours.

[[iw...]]

27 months!  I can't imagine 15 or more months of this hell!  Every day I think about ending my life because I can't live like this, and I'm just getting more upset when I read about others still suffering.  I need to hear from people who have had tinnitus similar to mine and healed.

[[pu...]]

Even the hard core drugs would be out of people's bodies by now.

 

 

This is the single fact that makes me beyond furious.

 

I saw a few doctors who told me "ok, getting off this is going to be worse than heroin" and I'm like, I've never done heroin! What does that even mean!

 

NOW I KNOW!!! Year and a half later and I'm in shambles.

 

Makes me think to myself, man, instead of taking klonopin for anxiety I should've just shot heroin for a while!!

 

I'm joking, but not!

[[Je...]]

I have felt that desperation. I keep fighting becauae I refuse to let these chemicals that harmed me win. I refuse to let the uneducated scientists and doctors who do not believe this is possible to win. I am determined to get well and want to help otherd avoid this. You will get well. We all will. It is hell. I pray you lift yourself out of the desperation. When i get overwhelmed,  i grab a heavy blanket and lay down. I may not even sleep but i try to distract or think of any other thing. You can do it!

27 months!  I can't imagine 15 or more months of this hell!  Every day I think about ending my life because I can't live like this, and I'm just getting more upset when I read about others still suffering.  I need to hear from people who have had tinnitus similar to mine and healed.

[[co...]]

27 months!  I can't imagine 15 or more months of this hell!  Every day I think about ending my life because I can't live like this, and I'm just getting more upset when I read about others still suffering.  I need to hear from people who have had tinnitus similar to mine and healed.

Yes, 27 months, but I've been feeling pretty good since 18 months and have most of my life back.

[[in...]]

I'M SO GLAD I SAW UR POST!!!  I HAD THE SAME EXACT THING AND GAVE UP AND AGREED TO TRY A NEW MED WHICH RESET ME BACK TO SQUARE ONE AND WORSE!!!  LISTEN TO ME CAREFULLY...ONE YEAR IS STILL EARLY AND YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY NOT AN ISOLATED OR HOPELESS CASE. WHAT YOU ARE EXPERIENCING IS PERFECTLY NORMAL AND VERY COMMON. THE HUMAN BRAIN TAKES UP TO SEVEN YEARS TO HEAL WITH THE MAJORITY OF HEALING TAKING PLACE IN THE FIRST 3 YEARS.

 

AGAIN, WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING IS COMPLETELY NORMAL. IN FACT IT'S NOT UNUSUAL TO SEE NO IMPROVEMENT FOR UP TO A YEAR AND IN A SPACE OF A COUPLE DAYS UR BRAIN UNEXPECTEDLY TAKES GIANT LEAPS FORWARD AND SYMPTOMS SUBSIDE.

 

YOUR BRAIN IS REGENERATING GABA RECEPTORS AND RE ESTABISHING A VERY VERY COMPLEX AND VAST NETWORK OF NEURO PATHWAYS. ITS A LONG AND TEDIOUS PROCESS AND YOU WILL ABSOLUTELY HAVE REOCCURRENCES OF SYMPTOMS AND UNPREDICTABLE/UNEXPECTED SYMTOMS FOR A COUPLE YEARS. 

 

BUT YOU WILL ALSO HAVE STRETCHES OF TIME WHERE THINGS ARE GREATLY IMPROVED.

 

PLEASE REMEMBER YOUR BRAIN IS DOING SOME SERIOUSLY HARD AND INCREDIBLY INTRICATE WORK RIGHT NOW AND PLEASE DON'T MAKE THE MISTAKE I MADE BY GIVING UP AND TAKING SOMETHING TO HELP ETC. YOUR BRAIN IS ENORMOUSLY VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW AND JUST THE SMALLEST DOSE OF THE WRONG MED OR CHEMICAL CAN ABSOLUTELY DESTROY YOU FOR 6 TO 10 MONTHS.

 

YOUR BRAIN IS DOING EXACTLY WHAT IT SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW AND YOU ARE EXACTLY WHERE YOU SHOULD BE IN THE HEALING PROCESS.  FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON'T MESS WITH IT. I DID AND IT COST ME 4 YEARS OF MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING I OWNED.

 

HERE ARE A COUPLE GREAT EXAMPLES OF THE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE WHO ENDURED A LONG HEALING PROCESS. DR. JENNIFER LEIGH AND DR. REG PEART. GOOGLE THEM

 

YOU'RE GOING TO BE OK I PROMISE.