I am Me always, truly

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Nice to meet everyone. I am a firm believer in the laws of this Universe. Honestly I have never lost myself so hard and found myself through a withdrawal like this. I am joining because I have no support, I had to withdraw in an abusive household and I really would like some support from someone who understands this is no joke. I was on .5mg 3x daily and towards the end I was on 1mg 4x daily. I got off September 26th. I would end up taking 6 even and they still didn't help. The people closest to me disappeared. I feel as if it was time I got off, worst timing ever though as everyone around me is falling apart and projecting their anger onto me. However, I have been better than I have ever been. I am tackling beliefs and patterns and even making it a point to find work, it's so hard but I AM NOT GIVING UP! I noticed the days I stay in and don't have anywhere to go, the worse the process is. It started off taking a a week to plan a walmart trip for candles now I am working! I meditate everyday and need to do yoga. My diet has changed to an only raw veggie diet and the days I cheat, oh I definitely pay for it with my body and mood. I have hives from almost everything including shampoo and deodorant and am on all natural everything. I light sage and sniff scented oils to keep my moods in check as well as go to the gym for massages. I have no one in my life as everyone has dubbed me insane and left. I do not know who I am at all and everyday I keep up by going through the motions gaining back control and a sense of self a little everyday. Lemon balm and skullcap work a lot a lot, they make me feel sane and my heart normal BUT I AM NOT SURE THEY ARE SAFE. I usually take these only when going through what I call a seizure. And so life goes on. SMILE GUYS, LOVE YOU ALL.

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Welcome to the forum!  We're glad to have you as a new member.  Congratulations on getting off benzos.  Many of us, myself included, have gone through this alone and gone on to heal. 

 

You'll find plenty of information and support here.  Our members have gone through all aspects of withdrawal, and you're likely to find  people who understand what you're going through and can tell you what has worked for them.  For those who are currently tapering, we suggest reducing no faster than 5-10% every 10-14 days, and some taper even slower than that.  One exception: very short-term users of a few weeks or less may be able to taper faster than that. 

 

Having some withdrawal symptoms is normal, especially near the end of a taper and for a month or so after discontinuing the medication.  The most common symptoms are anxiety and insomnia, but these and other symptoms are temporary and will go away in time.

 

Here are a few links you may find useful:

 

Post Withdrawal Support Board

 

The Ashton Manual is an authoritative source on what to expect in withdrawal and recovery.  Dr. Ashton is an expert in the field.  She describes and explains withdrawal symptoms in Chapter III, and there is also a section with withdrawal/taper schedules.

 

Please take the time to Create a Signature.  This will allow others to see where you are in the process so they can better support you.

 

Again, welcome!

 

 

 

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Hi Purplejax!

 

So glad you're on this forum.  WOW, I'm really impressed with all the great things you are doing for yourself to get by and to keep moving forward!  Yeah, it sucks when there's no one in your life who understands what you're going through.  Luckily, here, we all do.  And, strange as it may sound, it's one of the things that REALLY made me grow as a person because I had to finally let go of needing others to understand (a big one for me) and had to finally learn to believe in myself when others thought I was wallowing in self-pity and playing the victim.  (Hah! I really have to laugh at that.)  Anyway, I'm not totally healed, but feel I've finally turned a corner and can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  It's SO encouraging!  I'm glad you decided to get off the drug when you did and I'm sorry others did not support you.  Know you will heal.  You ARE healing!!  The fact that you're here shows you're strong and smart.  This forum is awesome with tons of support and helpful information you can search on.  I'm not always on the forum, but I'll look for new posts from you when I am.

[[Pu...]]

Nobody really understands, it's pointless to waste that much needed energy in trying to explain something to someone who is not yet ready to comprehend such things. It is unbelievable how great of a task everyday is. You got this I got this. This has totally made me grow as well. As difficult as everyday is, I am now the best version of me possible. The light and blue sky are always always there, it's up to us to push away the clouds to see it Again thank you so much, your reply means a lot to me.