Do you feel like your thinking process is not yours any more before sleeping?

[[Ma...]]

I started to sleep in last few days not good but better, but when I lie in night I feel like somebody is taking over my brain and it is not my thoughts anymore. Is somebody feels like this?

[[jo...]]

I feel that way when I do get to sleep and My benzo brain wakes up life long memories from My past but twist them around , its like being in a different twilight zone episode each night . psych drugs can play with Your thinking process 24/7 especially in WD.

[[Ma...]]

I feel that way when I do get to sleep and My benzo brain wakes up life long memories from My past but twist them around , its like being in a different twilight zone episode each night . psych drugs can play with Your thinking process 24/7 especially in WD.

Thank you for your answer.How long are you out?I  am 6 months out and had nice 19 days window  and than back like in acute. Brain fog that was away for monthes is back as well like agitation.Crazy.

[[al...]]

I sometimes notice that while waiting for sleep I have directed "daydreams" that start to go off path on their own. I guess that they start to turn into uncontrolled dreams as light sleep begins to slip in.

 

Another possible explanation for the situation that you described is that while in bed with nothing else to think about, you are trying to reconnect with yourself. Perhaps you have lost your sense of self during this whole withdrawal thing and do not recognize the person that you are communicating with in your head.

[[Ma...]]

I sometimes notice that while waiting for sleep I have directed "daydreams" that start to go off path on their own. I guess that they start to turn into uncontrolled dreams as light sleep begins to slip in.

 

Another possible explanation for the situation that you described is that while in bed with nothing else to think about, you are trying to reconnect with yourself. Perhaps you have lost your sense of self during this whole withdrawal thing and do not recognize the person that you are communicating with in your head.

That has sence.I lost myself.How to find myself?I feel good for weeks than wave hits and then back again. :-/

[[al...]]

I sometimes notice that while waiting for sleep I have directed "daydreams" that start to go off path on their own. I guess that they start to turn into uncontrolled dreams as light sleep begins to slip in.

 

Another possible explanation for the situation that you described is that while in bed with nothing else to think about, you are trying to reconnect with yourself. Perhaps you have lost your sense of self during this whole withdrawal thing and do not recognize the person that you are communicating with in your head.

That has sence.I lost myself.How to finf myself?I feel good for weeks than wave hits and then back again. :-/

 

I suspect that you will get to know yourself more and more as you heal. In the meantime I would suggest trying to live in the moment as much as possible rather than spending all of your time thinking about the past or waiting for the future to come. Feel who you are in this moment and acknowledge how you feel (both good and bad). Like and accept yourself no matter what you discover. I would think that it is also okay to feel sorry for yourself as long as the self that you are feeling sorry for is the real you and not just an image of how you think that you should be. The real you is still deep inside. Reach in and connect with it.

[[Al...]]

I notice sometimes when taking an ambien (if its working) that my headspace will start to rearrange itself and I might even hear a faint voice, like my subconscious is taking control. It's quite relieving - until you have to deal with getting off of Ambien.

[[Ma...]]

I notice sometimes when taking an ambien (if its working) that my headspace will start to rearrange itself and I might even hear a faint voice, like my subconscious is taking control. It's quite relieving - until you have to deal with getting off of Ambien.

 

yes i noticed that too but I do not zake no meducals anymore and it is really hard to relax in evening.

[[al...]]

When I used to take Ambien I would sometimes take it a little while before bedtime because I found the initial buzz that it gave me to be appealing. If I stayed out of bed too long, the buzz would begin to change and everything would seem to fade over into a dull unappealing yellowish light and the world would start to feel more and more crappy. It is a pretty potent drug because I would get that effect on just one half of a 10 mg. tablet. Such a small thing had the power to change the whole world for me. That of course was before tolerance set in.