Am I the only man... crying?

[[ra...]]

Sometimes when I really have enough of this torture (the BAD days) I cry out of my misery. Like yesterday when I had a full day with breathing difficulties. My wife couldn't tolerate my agonising breathing sound so I had to go to my bedroom ALL day, alone, and I cried... Tough for a man... Am I alone?

[[Ma...]]

Hell no ! I'm a 23 year old man and I cry because Benzo Withdrawal is AWFUL. I have a checkered past with Drugs and Alcohol and have come off a lot of Shit, but Benzos have been the worst and the hardest because they have so many different crazy ass symptoms that rise and fall and come and go Randomly. Other drugs you come off of, it's more of the same thing, but not with benzos, everyday you dont know what your gonna get .hang in there

[[Jo...]]

Uhm, no.

 

As Malaaka said.  Coming off these drugs is way, way, worse than alcohol withdrawal.  With alcohol withdrawal, you suffer a couple of days of panic, anxiety, insomnia, choking and gagging, flush your system, get a few hours sleep, some food in you and its over.  Benzos are the gift that keeps on giving.

 

Cigarettes are an absolute walk in the park.  They dont even rate as withdrawal.  Hang in there!

[[Ma...]]

Uhm, no.

 

As Malaaka said.  Coming off these drugs is way, way, worse than alcohol withdrawal.  With alcohol withdrawal, you suffer a couple of days of panic, anxiety, insomnia, choking and gagging, flush your system, get a few hours sleep, some food in you and its over.  Benzos are the gift that keeps on giving.

 

Cigarettes are an absolute walk in the park.  They dont even rate as withdrawal.  Hang in there!

 

 

FOR REAL THO. People say Quitting cigs is hard makes me LAUGH OUT LOUD. Along with any other drug. I've kicked Alcohol(MANY times), Meth, Adderal, and Heroin and BENZOS makes them all a piece of cake to get off of . Lmfao "the gift that keeps on giving" SO TRUE

[[lo...]]

FOR REAL THO. People say Quitting cigs is hard makes me LAUGH OUT LOUD. Along with any other drug. I've kicked Alcohol(MANY times), Meth, Adderal, and Heroin and BENZOS makes them all a piece of cake to get off of . Lmfao "the gift that keeps on giving" SO TRUE

 

That's crazy to hear from someone who has been through them all, and then compare benzos to. I've gone from pretty much no drug experience, or withdrawal, to be thrown into a serious benzo withdrawal. I thought my head was completely fucked forever... but ... I guess it's just the power of the pills.

[[cr...]]

I'm a guy and I cry to. It hurts actually for me to so I try to avoid it at first. It stresses my brain out for some reason as it's coming on. I feel better after a good weep though. 24 years old. Going through benzo withdrawal, there is no shame in crying. Benzo withdrawal is the same thing as torture. Just on the brain. Anyone would cry being subjected to this crazyness day after day. A person can only take so much. Be strong and try to find something to lift your mood afterwards.

[[lo...]]

another 24 year old, good to see ya

 

Related to the OP, yeah I had my stage during the intense acute w/d, before i reinstated, and actually weeks after i reinstated, where it was basically a violent fit of crying probably for about an hour or so a night. It sucked. Now, it's a combination of a very slow taper + I don't give a fuck mode, so the crying has stopped. for now. haha

[[Da...]]

I cry at least daily.... between the pain and inability to control my emotions I'm a basket case.

[[be...]]

Uhm, no.

 

As Malaaka said.  Coming off these drugs is way, way, worse than alcohol withdrawal.  With alcohol withdrawal, you suffer a couple of days of panic, anxiety, insomnia, choking and gagging, flush your system, get a few hours sleep, some food in you and its over.  Benzos are the gift that keeps on giving.

 

Cigarettes are an absolute walk in the park. They dont even rate as withdrawal.  Hang in there!

 

I beg to differ. I had a bitch of a time trying to get off them. Nicotine is considered one of the the most additive drugs.  My K taper was a walk in the park for me, compared to the ciggies.....

 

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/the-5-most-addictive-drugs-in-the-world-a6924746.html

[[Ca...]]

I was an emotional mess with the opiate c/t, i could hardly have a conversation for months, without losing it...

Then i became emotionally numb... it must be bad now as my teenager often mentions it of late... but he knows why and talks to our child psychologist, which saves the day...

 

I hope crying returns to some degree, cos God knows, there are times when it would be most appropriate...

 

[[Ca...]]

Uhm, no.

 

As Malaaka said.  Coming off these drugs is way, way, worse than alcohol withdrawal.  With alcohol withdrawal, you suffer a couple of days of panic, anxiety, insomnia, choking and gagging, flush your system, get a few hours sleep, some food in you and its over.  Benzos are the gift that keeps on giving.

 

Cigarettes are an absolute walk in the park. They dont even rate as withdrawal.  Hang in there!

 

I beg to differ. I had a bitch of a time trying to get off them. Nicotine is considered the most additive drug.  My K taper was a walk in the park for me, compared to the ciggies.....

Again we so different... I was a shocking smoker... then just gave up a week before xmas... no prob so far...

-prob helps that i cant smoke in bed.. !!

 

Wall done Bets, cos if it was hard for me, i couldnt have done it...

 

[[be...]]

Crying is normal but I disagree at least for me. The taper might not be a walk in the park but so far as much as I want to giving up cigs is borderline impossible. I keep trying but I find it much more difficult than the benzos. At least for now. You did great though Bets. I know it was very difficult for you too. B

[[Lo...]]

Tears:

 

 

[Guest [Lu...]]

Ive taken breaks from work to crawl out to my car where ive broken down a few times this past year. its been impossible to get through this without breaking down. trying to keep my job through this while suffering for sooooo long has been awful.

[[bi...]]

I used to hardly ever cry before this taper. I cry several times a week sometimes uncontrollably. At work sometimes I need to shut the door because I just have a breakdown from the absolute torture the insomnia and depression and anxiety. Hopelessness is enough to make me feel sorry for myself on most days. I am 6'4 280 lbs and have never cried so much in my life. You are not alone my friend. This is a cruel and unforgiving journey we are on. I wish I could give you some advice but I'm fortunately I am unable to even give myself any. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that one day I'll be a bad memory I will be back to my old self again. My wife and daughter have become so accustomed to me crying they no longer receptive to it. I just go in the bedroom and cry alone. Please hang in there. What helps me is reading the success stories and knowing one day that will be me. Feel free to message me directly if you ever need to talk or vent to someone who is going through the same thing you are. We have to be strong. Together!

[[Ca...]]

Luke,

I dont know how you do it...

To hold a job and taper as you have...

You will be bullet proof when this is over!!!

Let out what needs to come out, -i wish i could at times now...

I hate being emotionally numb, -its not me.

I know its from the meds, but i just feel grey...

I try to hang on to my soh, but even thats flat...

But ballance will return for all of us, in time...

Strength to all...

[[Th...]]

My husband cries and he is not in Benzo withdrawl. It hurts to hold it in. They say there are stress hormones in tears so it's a good thing to cry. While I do get bad headaches when I'm crying for hours, it feels a bit better when I get it out. I hate the taboo that men should be so strong they don't even cry. I think it's a shame that there is taboo of men crying.

[Guest [Lu...]]

Luke,

I dont know how you do it...

To hold a job and taper as you have...

You will be bullet proof when this is over!!!

Let out what needs to come out, -i wish i could at times now...

I hate being emotionally numb, -its not me.

I know its from the meds, but i just feel grey...

I try to hang on to my soh, but even thats flat...

But ballance will return for all of us, in time...

Strength to all...

 

thanks so much cantfly. its a running theme in my benzo buddie whining haha my suffering at my job. i used every single vacation and sick day up over this in 2016, and then took some days with no pay, the really bad days when i felt like i was spiraling into unconsciousness, i just couldnt go or stay at work. i left early a few times with excuses. blah. its by far the hardest thing ive ever gone through in my life is holding a job through this. its like being on a bad acid trip and having to maintain your composure.

 

i can deal with the mental ups and down actually, as moribid as it gets, but the physical symptoms, the 24/7 vertigo, off balance whacked out agoraphobic symptoms just make it a nightmare at work. my supervisor thank god is seriously cool and i had to break down and kinda tell her the situation to a point. she is on xanax and has had some trouble herself. she doesnt fully understand the severity of my withdrawal but she is sympathetic. but its a balancing act.

 

my wonderful mom is the only person who will ever really know what im going through, shes been amazingly supportive, and says im a helluva trooper for getting through work, i CANNOT lose my job. id be annihilated, i have to pay the bills.

 

hell im at lunch at work right now and all tripped out feeling as i type this....

 

yeah ive broken down, for sure, tears. a year and a half ago i was in the gym doing sets with 225lbs and now im a shaking, trembling mess desperately trying to get through.

 

but for any "dude" out there (or anyone, male or female) who may feel like youre being weak for breaking down or crying, hell no. to shed emotion or grief or frustration in any way is a good thing in that its a release. we are all human, and sometimes a break down is actually a pure venting of all the struggle thats involved with this. we are not weak for it, we are stronger because after the tears fall we pull ourselves together and carry on.

 

as you suggested, cantfly, on the other side of this crazy ride, ill have an appreciation for life unlike anything ive ever experienced, and i sure as hell will be better equipped to deal with my anxiety, because tolerance withdrawal has been 1000 times worse than anything ive ever gone through, makes a panic attack a walk in the park, this has been like living with a 15 month long severe panic attack 24/7.

 

push through, hang in there, shed those tears as much as you need, laugh when you can, endure, let it ride through you, taper down and get there.

 

bless all of you

[[no...]]

25yr old male and definitely cried to myself being in benzo hell. Best thing that helped was just talking to someone... at the time it happened to be my mother. Right now, my sxs's are stable and mood is stable, although very emotionally blunted. I do remember how bad my last cut was with depression, but I was able to snap out after a couple days. Good luck, and we are here for you my man!

 

P.S. "Manliness" is not built around the lack of emotions exhibited, but rather how we digest and utilize those emotions. -some wise person once said

[[...]]

i've definitely had bouts of ugly crying in front of my mom and my wife. It's something that needs to happen sometimes, so don't beat yourself up over it. If I can recommend, try and find a good therapist to talk to. Therapy (like crying) is another thing men have a stigma against but, imo, they should not. Your wife, friends and family don't want to hear about your problems all the time and they are not trained to help people deal with them. A therapist is.

[Guest [Fl...]]

In answer to your original question: nope, you're not. Also kudos on keeping your job also, I lost mine trying to get off this crap.

[[ed...]]

I've also found myself sobbing uncontrollably at times during this taper. Some days it was honestly all I could do to pour out all those horrible, pent-up thoughts and emotions. Without fail, it always made me feel better. It's probably been a month since I've cried, but I assume there will be more tears to come. I just go into the bathroom and put a towel in my mouth so my wife doesn't have to hear me in anguish. I've always been the rock of the house and it bothers me to have her hear/see me in this state.

[[li...]]

I'm not a guy, but I think this experience could make anyone cry. My boyfriend and I cried together on many occasions because I was suffering so badly.  There's no shame in crying. Anyone who can get through this is one tough nug.

[[lp...]]

For me, I think crying is part of the healing process...for me this stuff has emotionally blunted me, and when the tears come listening to a moving song or just because I think "hey man, this part of the healing process, cool"  I've been through the ringer with booze and your brain ain't right for sometime after, trust me...but getting off is easier in a lot of ways staying off can be the hard part.