Crushing fatigue at 9 months

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I'm at 9 months free of 2 year Ativan use. I suffered severely in tolerance for the last year of use not knowing Ativan was the cause and was bedridden for 6 months with chronic fatigue, insomnia and gripping terror 24/7. Once ceasing, I went into severe withdrawal for the first few months (ending up in hospital for a month) but then began seeing small improvements. At 3 months I was able to return to work for a few hours a day and by month 5 I was able to socialise a little. At around 7 months I hit a wall and although fatigue had been a problem previously it's returned with vengeance! My horrific mental symptoms are minimal (thank god!) but i am no longer able to work, go anywhere or able to cook, clean or doing anything that requires moving- I'm stuck on the couch, agitated and suffering insomnia, I literally can't move my body! I'm so frustrated as mentally I want to do all these things but my body won't co-operate. Has anyone else heard of or Experian ed this themselves this far out? I'm scared I've now got chronic fatigue and after fighting so hard for so long I won't ever be able to enjoy my life with the same amount of energy (or any energy at all!) I used to have?

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Your very early still.. Its all from not being able to relax. Your body literally cant relax and rest. It will improve but very slowly with no rhyme rythym or reason.

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I'm at 9 months free of 2 year Ativan use. I suffered severely in tolerance for the last year of use not knowing Ativan was the cause and was bedridden for 6 months with chronic fatigue, insomnia and gripping terror 24/7. Once ceasing, I went into severe withdrawal for the first few months (ending up in hospital for a month) but then began seeing small improvements. At 3 months I was able to return to work for a few hours a day and by month 5 I was able to socialise a little. At around 7 months I hit a wall and although fatigue had been a problem previously it's returned with vengeance! My horrific mental symptoms are minimal (thank god!) but i am no longer able to work, go anywhere or able to cook, clean or doing anything that requires moving- I'm stuck on the couch, agitated and suffering insomnia, I literally can't move my body! I'm so frustrated as mentally I want to do all these things but my body won't co-operate. Has anyone else heard of or Experian ed this themselves this far out? I'm scared I've now got chronic fatigue and after fighting so hard for so long I won't ever be able to enjoy my life with the same amount of energy (or any energy at all!) I used to have?

 

I am only 4 and a half months out so ignore me, but I felt I had to contribute to this thread because in this sentence, you just described my life now. I don't have insomnia anymore, in fact it's the total opposite, more like hypersomnia. I'm stuck in a state of complete lethargy. I almost got myself a dog back in September 2016 thanks to people's ignorance, telling me I would not have any WD sxs. If I had done this, I would have had to break my cardinal rule that once a dependent creature comes into my care, it stays there for the entire duration of it's lifespan, as I can't even look after myself. I can't even dress myself most days. It takes me two hours (longer now) to manage the 15 minute walk up to the pharmacy on Tuesdays and Fridays. I am bedridden, my life now is wake up, make myself a drink, go back to bed till lunchtime, stagger into the kitchen and make myself eat lunch, back to bed, force myself up again to make our dinner, back to bed, watch videos/TV shows on my tablet, that's my existence. I can't bend my legs as my knee joints are very painful and my right hip and shoulder are extremely painful (I've got severe right sided sxs), so rather than walk I 'shuffle'. It's so bad I'm wearing my shoes out in like two weeks with just the pharmacy trips because I can't lift my feet up.  I'm in the process of trying to sort out regular transport for Tuesdays and Fridays because I really don't enjoy feeling so unwell out of the house and my right leg gives out on me. It went a week or so ago and I fell into a wall and gashed my side. I don't feel safe walking anymore.

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Thanks for your replys, I would have given anything to have fatigue as my main symptom going back whilst in tolerance and the first few months after jumping when I was in a permanent state of terror and thought I was losing my mind with hallucinations etc. but now that my brain is healing I'm so frustrated that my body is letting me down...we all just want to live again at full capacity with happiness and contentment...hopefully we all get there...much love ❤️

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My fatigue has gone down so drastically over a year, I can now walk comfortably without needing to support myself or struggling to see where I'm going. I feel more human. You will get there.

Nony