"fragmentation"

[[er...]]

Hey all,

 

So I was talking to a guy in AA I know who went through harsh benzo w/d about 20 years ago, and he later became a drug counselor, and he told me what I've been going through w/ benzo w/d is called, "fragmentation."

 

I had been explaining what the intense depersonalization felt like and the amnesia I was feeling and the term he applied to it all was "fragmentation." 

 

Has anyone else heard of this as related to benzo w/d?  It's almost like if our lives were a completed jig saw puzzle, and then it got all broken up, and now all of the pieces have to be re-assembled.

 

If this is a "known" kind of phenomena associated with benzo w/d, I'm even more amazed that so many medical professionals (who prescribe benzos) aren't aware of this, or any real symtoms that we've all experienced from being on and getting off of benzos.

 

The more I think of this term, the more it makes sense as an umbrella term to describe what many of us go through in freeing ourselves from these awful drugs.  Kind of like Humpty Dumpty..

 

Eric

[[re...]]

This makes a lot of sense.  Broken up, fragmented lives.  It's exactly how I feel.  Where before things were streamlined in my life, everything seems very broken up.  It's like I can't get in a flow with anything.  There is a whole that I cannot grasp, that seems just out of reach. 

[[Al...]]

Holy sh*t this term just hit me really hard! At the moment I totally feel like I'm fragmenting and reassembling myself all the time, but then some pieces happen to be in a wrong place and I fragment again and start all over again...

edit. it seems like DID, but not as severe... I think?

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I keep coming back to this as a term that makes the most sense to me in withdrawal.  I really appreciate you posting this, eric.

[[Kr...]]

Nice ... thanks Eric.  Even time space senses... yes it has all been fragmented!

[[Ta...]]

I love the term "fragmentation"

That's exactly how I feel at the moment.  I'm just over 10 and a half months out and I feel like I'm so loosely put together at the moment.  I can't wait for my back bone to strengthen and pull the rest of me tight. This feeling of weakness is so draining.

I don't really know where I'm at with regards to healing at the moment.  I'm seemed to have come to a standstill and I'm lost in nowhere  land.  It's very lonely and scary.

Praying for better days soon. I need a window to give me hope.

Take care everyone

Tallow Love

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I keep coming back to this as a term that makes the most sense to me in withdrawal.  I really appreciate you posting this, eric.

 

Hey All,

 

I'm glad you guys like this as much as I do!  I think the term says a lot, succinctly (wow, where did that vocabulary come back from? : )

 

For me, the term also lends a visual to this type of abstract injury, which helps make it work (for me)

 

Eric