After every good window comes a bad wave?

[[Da...]]

Monday  was a decent day and I thought "wow I'm actually going to feel better!" Yesterday morning was good but holy cow as the day went on I got worse and worse and worse. Back in the day I would feel awful in the morning and as the day went on it would reverse and I'd feel better. Now it's the opposite.

 

I hardly slept at all last night and that just sets me off and freaks me out. I kept waking up gasping for air and I wear a CPAP machine since I have sleep apnea. I nauseous, anxious, tingling and prickling all over and having heart palpitations already. It's only 8am here.

 

Wife is telling me that this kind of sxs pattern is to be expected but it's really disappointing that I saw what felt like healing and now I'm back in hell again.  Maybe I wouldn't feel so bad if I'd slept more than a couple hours but I can't even nap because I get these heart rushes/palpitations that jolt me awake when I try.

 

 

Someone tell me all of this is normal.....please.

[Guest [ba...]]

All very normal, I'm afraid.  For me, when I had a good day, I'd feel like doing more.  More exercise, more chores accomplished, worked harder at work...  Next day would almost always be lousy.  I just figured that I overdid it a bit, and was paying the price. 

 

Air hunger is also very common.  Don't worry - your body will see to it that it gets enough air.  This is just a mental thing that occurs during withdrawal.

 

There will come a day when your good day(s) won't be followed by lousy one(s).  Hold onto that thought.

[[Th...]]

Those windows can be such a tease! I do the exact same and try to soak it in and catch up, maybe leave the house 😱. Than I drain myself and pay for it big time. It's very depressing. Same thing happens some evening when I typically feel best...3 year old is in bed  :laugh:. I make ambiguous plans for the next day only to wake up sick as a dog with intense morning panic.

[[Da...]]

But I didn't do anything Monday - I was dizzy so I laid on the couch.

[[Jo...]]

Seems to be par for the course. 

 

I hadn't had nearly sleepless, or no sleep nights, until I started this process.  Now they are sort of irregular and they really suck. 

 

For me, the lack of sleep didn't much bother me before.  Now its accompanied by anxiety and irrational thinking.  The thinking goes like this:

- Oh jeez, its 4 am.  I haven't slept a wink.  My daughter is going to be up in 2.5 hours and she is going to wake me up.  How can I get to sleep now.

- I have to get up soon to get my son moving - he sleeps real well. 

- I have to meet so and so today, and I haven't slept.  How can I handle it.

- I promised my wife something and now I am going to have to cancel or modify my plans.

and on, and on. 

 

The mind gets overloaded really easy in this state. 

In reality, nearly everything I have to do gets done, and the sleep catches up eventually.  But in the interim, its real miserable,  no question about that. 

 

The other night I had one of these and was out walking the streets at 4 am to burn off energy.  And its not nice and warm and cozy outside.  Its cold, drizzly, amd overcast. 

 

[Guest [Lu...]]

I recently had the same thing with the ole reliable "mornings are horrible" reversing itself.

for a few weeks i just became super fatigued as the day went on, with ramped up symptoms. the afternoons were worse.

And the out of nowhere lousy days after feeling well is indeed frustrating and for me common place, i think common for a great deal of people here.

I feel for ya, and god it sucks, but yeah Ive had similar patterns if thats any consolation. now im back to mornings are awful but it gets a little better in afternoon (then by the evening im exhausted)

ugh, and that ive managed to keep my job through this (so far) is a miracle. Right now im on break typing this at my desk, the world spinning, short of breath. another day of trying not to die in front of coworkers....

 

Hang in there everyone! Those glorious windows are how we're going to feel all the time..someday...i pray...