Use of Benzo while withradwing

[[Da...]]

Tomorrow I have a meeting with a customer of my company and am of course scared to death.

 

I know it's not good, but after dumping all my Valium, I bought a couple of xanax tablets for just in case.

 

I am really thinking of taking one pill of 0,5 mg only for tomorrow.

 

Anyone been in the situation in which you have the urge to take a benzo for just the most difficult situation?

 

 

[Guest [ba...]]

Don't.

[[pi...]]

Breathe, but avoid benzos for a client meeting. You are simply opening a door for this to happen over and over and this is indeed a slippery slope.

 

pianogirl

[[Da...]]

Thanks for the reply's. I really don't want to use them and told my manager that I'm really not comfortable to have this meeting.

 

I really like to know if it affects my withdrawal speed and if one wouldn't really harm me.

 

I am almost 3 months out and never used a benzo since and not planning on taking it often.

I just am not ready yet for the challenge I have tomorrow.

 

It is just for the hardest periods in my withdrawing period till when I'm healed and only when I know it will be to much to handle right now.

 

 

[[pi...]]

Thanks for the reply's. I really don't want to use them and told my manager that I'm really not comfortable to have this meeting.

 

I really like to know if it affects my withdrawal speed and if one wouldn't really harm me.

 

I am almost 3 months out and never used a benzo since and not planning on taking it often.

I just am not ready yet for the challenge I have tomorrow.

 

 

 

It is just for the hardest periods in my withdrawing period till when I'm healed and only when I know it will be to much to handle right now.

 

 

I just personally would not do it, would not reach for a "crutch". I would rather find alternative ways to deal with stress, and I did.  I prepared for and performed in a recital during my recovery period.  I found concentrating during practice helped me disregard the withdrawal anxiety I felt. I also learned deep belly breathing techniques where you breathe in slowly for a count of 3, hold for a count of 3 and slowly exhale for a count of 6. See you anxiety leave with each exhale.

 

It wasn't easy because everyone has performance anxiety to some degree, even concert pianists with 50 years of experience. 

 

I sat through recitals, festivals, competitions during recovery. At times I was dizzy, boaty like with all the usual withdrawal suspects with me.  Once I made it through the event, I gave myself a pat on the back. It helped me see that I could face anything.

 

Whether a  "dose" would derail your recovery is something I can't answer.  I've heard from some that sometimes the rescue dose does not work. Everyone is different.

 

pianogirl

 

 

 

[[Da...]]

Thank you pianogirl for the informative reply.

 

I will try to do some breath excersizes and think about other ways if stress relief  !

[Guest [ba...]]

Good for you (for not taking any).  Reaching for pills when the going gets tough is a tough habit to break, but if you do it enough, you will replace that 'bad' habit with a good one (bravery).  Bravery will carry you much further in life than a pill will.

[[Be...]]

I did this about 2 months in for my sisters wedding and i opened the gate to pure hell. The next week was absolutely crippling.

 

Avoid at all costs. From my experience and from everything ive read kindling is a bad idea

[[ca...]]

Xanax is the worst thing you can get on. It has a very short half life and it stronger than most other Benzos even at supposed low doses. I sympathise with what you are having to deal with. If you have to use a benzo (which I don't recommend) I would get the lowest dose of Valium I could get and only use it as a very last resort.

[[ma...]]

I agree with you Carme, Xanax is the worst Dont take any....you Will make it

[[Pe...]]

I've had similar situations at work where I've had high profile meetings and I've been so close to re-dosing just for the meeting. When I say close I mean holding the pill in my hand and staring at it. However I didn't give in. I think once you give in one it'll make it easier and easier to accept doing it again in less stressful situations = full relapse.

[[ed...]]

If you decide to take Xanax, don't take .5mg; that's equivalent to 10mg valium.

If you have a chip in your pocket, then that might give you the confidence to

arrive, and not take the chip.

Also, you could get a reverse effect from the changes to neurons from kindling.

[[be...]]

FYI  That .5 mg will put the hurt on you for about 3 days and set back the healing, Ive seen it. breath deep and baby step the meeting

[[Na...]]

I agree with the others in not taking it.

But maybe take a different approach to the meeting, and look at it as a challenge to you. Go into it without taking the benzo and see how well you do. You may come out surprising yourself and it could work as a stepping stone to become even stronger in future meetings. A confidence builder so to speak.

[[Da...]]

I woke up Wednesday morning and was really sweating and nervous. I was terrified for the meeting and was in a weak state.

 

Took the 0,5 mg Xanax 

 

The meeting went really good and was confident that moment and couple of hours afterwards felt so great, but really feeling worse this last 2 days than before taking the Xanax.

Also loosing the feeling I had Wednesday felt bad. Was missing that confidence and calm relaxing state.

 

Probably not worth it, but I had no clue how to overcome the anxious feeling.

I felt I had no choice and feel bad of using the Xanax.

 

Would have my child this weekend, but am feeling I can't take care of him after this shitty week and told my ex girlfriend and mother of my child that I had a flu.

 

So am a bit down and feel guilty of not taking care of my child and be there for him. As if I don't want to see him and am a bad father. :'(

 

Sorry for the whining. Tomorrow might be a better day.

 

Hang in there fellow buddies. Tides will change someday.

[[Fi...]]

I woke up Wednesday morning and was really sweating and nervous. I was terrified for the meeting and was in a weak state.

 

Took the 0,5 mg Xanax 

 

The meeting went really good and was confident that moment and couple of hours afterwards felt so great, but really feeling worse this last 2 days than before taking the Xanax.

Also loosing the feeling I had Wednesday felt bad. Was missing that confidence and calm relaxing state.

 

Probably not worth it, but I had no clue how to overcome the anxious feeling.

I felt I had no choice and feel bad of using the Xanax...

 

 

Remember, it is the same "you" that was confident and easy-in-yourself in that meeting (pill or no pill) that is there now. What I mean is that 99% of that confidence and ease was YOU and you have proven that "your mental machinery" can do it.

 

Your 'mental machinery' can also do it without the pill - but that's a skill that must be relearned in easy stages for you to feel confident about it.

 

That's the lesson I would take from your experience if I were you - and dump the rest of it! 

 

 

[[ma...]]

Forgott IT now, dont look back