Panic, Anxiety free!! I bear the wounds of all the battles I avoided

[[Te...]]

“I bear the wounds of all the battles I avoided.”

― Fernando Pessoa

 

Finally I can write my success story!!,    this is me paying back to BB.  one of the best think I ever did.

 

Today I was reading a paper that I wrote to show  my Doctor 3 months ago:

 

Symtoms and body sentations

Left hand tingled , (sometimes , when I’m sitting )

Sound zoom or ring,  Feeling  weird,  ( like with fever or cold , or a drank something toxic)    (most of the day  )

Sharp pain in the chest for days then  stopped

* Episodes of  fast heart beating and hyperventilation ( few but very bad, like something happening in my heart ) 

small  head pains,  mild difficult to breath sometimes 

 

Cant walk for more than 15 minutes without chest pain,  dizzy,  gas, 

Feel  the trachea  , like acid reflux  , gas and bloating

In the morning nausea and vomits feeling, 

Suddenly Nervous,  sweaty hands,  anxiety 

Can't go to a public or private place, feeling tight chest and desperation

Can't talk more than 10 minutes, 

Sound sensibility sometimes

Hard on, while sleeping  (since prozac and ACE Inhibitor )

Depression , most of time sitting or laid down

Adrenaline rush when have some heart pain

H b pressure

 

 

I'm very happy to see that all sx are gone , except the hand tingling. 

 

I can't believe that Feb 14 will be 3 years that the hell stared, some people told me that It will take 5 years to be healed.  It was a incredible journey,  I was hopeless, I got my funeral paid, but I'm alive

and healed,  I can go anywhere, talk to anyone,  (I didn't fly yet ),  I got an extreme  fear to go anywhere,  but not fear in my head but in my body.  I was benzo free since may 2016, but my symptoms continue and got worse, two ER visits. lot of crying.   

 

Thanks  to BenzoBuddies I made it.

 

I will probably make a book of this journey.  my heal was a product of many factors, but the main probably was the BB and the no avoidance.

 

If you avoid total or partial situations you will be in a cycle of panic.

 

50% of all symptoms are created by the anxiety and the panic.  If we get rid of them, the other 50% are bearable. 

 

look  and get help.  DO NOT read symptoms online for more than 5 minutes.

 

took me months and a lot of suffering to really overcome and put in practice all the things I learned from different sources. 

 

baby steps, slow recovery, It's not lineal, It goes up and down, some days are fine other are scary as hell.  some visits to the doctor scare the crap out of me.  but I kept going.

 

for me the withdrawal symptoms trigger panic attacks,  the big questions for me was are those symptoms are product of the withdrawal or are real symptoms and something is wrong with my body? 

 

seems that most of the symptoms were product of the anxiety and withdrawal, few symptoms were real: lack of circulation, stomach issues, blood pressure.  I fixed those problems, now I'm fine.   

 

 

There is HOPE!!!    you will be free of panic and will have a normal life!!!!!!

 

Gracias !!!!

 

Tex

 

 

 

 

 

[[se...]]

Thanks for this, Texas. It's been two years for me and while many things have cleared up or have gotten much better, the very low stamina, fatigue and severe weakness always stays...Sometimes I think, these symptoms will just stay and never get much better, your post gives me hope.

[[ma...]]

Thanks, and good luck with your life .

[[So...]]

Tex, congrats and well-done. I totally agree that one must gently go towards fear. I don't think someone can sit inside and simply wait out the symptoms, hoping for the "perfect day" to re-enter life. I think we must gently push every day - getting out, talking to someone, and in doing so, you build the resilience that is so wonderful post-withdrawal. Facing fear during withdrawal is your down-payment on being able to face anything later. It's hard, and can be scary, but if you do it often enough, you prove to yourself that you can function. You might not be comfortable, but you can function. I believe this "reminds" the brain how to cope, so that one day, when you do feel better, re-entering life will be easy because you've already been doing it to some extent. Baby steps, of course, but those steps are so important. Just my two cents.

[[se...]]

Thanks, So Cal, wise words.

[[Te...]]

Thanks for this, Texas. It's been two years for me and while many things have cleared up or have gotten much better, the very low stamina, fatigue and severe weakness always stays...Sometimes I think, these symptoms will just stay and never get much better, your post gives me hope.

 

Serenety,

Thanks for your words,  there are many things that need to be fine in order to really heal,  the stress in your life,  work, family, relationship,  I guess now I'm good in all those aspects of my life,  I cope better with stress, facing the problems and shifting the mind.  I watch in youtube Louse Hays , positive thinking,  but  the real therapy is called the worst fantasy technique,  It is to scare yourself for 30 minutes, bring all your fears and thoughts,  but It needs to be done many times until the subconscious  find out that nothing will happen even you scare the crap out of you.  It's  long, better find a therapist.

 

Tex

 

 

   

[[Te...]]

Hi everybody,

 

I got flu,  all my symptoms came back, except anxiety and panic attack.  this is the second day and most of  the symptoms are going away.  the sensation of fever and heavy head was the most scary sx, but no anymore.    I got a good remainder of how a felt before, seems like I was in a long long flu.

 

Thanks God, everything is going back to normal.

 

To enjoy life !!!     

 

with love :

Tex