8 months out and back to non functioning

[[Vi...]]

Hi BB, I need some incourigment. I was so hopefull last week I had 2 days of 60-70% better day, and now I'm in my bed not functioning. High anxiety, pain in my stomach and head( burnng thingling) my hole body is num, inner vibration is bad I feel like shaking non stop, mussels twitching, depression is bad. Crying a lot.  Could not sleep at all.  I'm on remeron 3 mg but is not helping me. I feel like I'm not getting better and really thinking I need some medication. ( not benzo!) we planing to go south for 1 week vacation but I'm so scared to go like this. Fear off dying all the time. Praying to god  this will end soon.

[[da...]]

I am sorry you are suffering.  I am right there with you. I wish I could say something to magically make it better. I need some magic too. All I can say is that you must live moment to moment. The past has shown that Windows do occur so they should come again. Hold on until it comes.

[[Vi...]]

Thank you David your incouriging words. I'm trying so hard to get better and think positive but is so hard with this physical and mental pain.

Sorry to hear you having a hard time too. God help us and give us strength to push forward.

[[Tr...]]

Hi Vica,

 

I am sorry you are suffering. Please hang in there and I will do the same. I woke up this morning feeling somewhat "ok" and then I did some chores in the house and starting doing some meditation. However, now my head hurts bad. I took a motrin, hopefully it get better. 

 

I know this is so hard but we gotta hang onto it. Please keep hoping and I do the same. I am waking up every morning with a hope that it will go away or improve better.  I think there is a someone HIGHER in this universe but I seem not to connect to HIM much.  I am learning about myself through meditation and it has helped. 

 

Hope you feel better.

 

Tracy

[[sq...]]

There must be a dark cloud making its way through the BB world.  There has been a slide in my healing (ok, it's a large wave) over the past few days as well and in a really nonproductive move I am beating myself up about it!  Was it the vacuuming that stirred up allergies? going to a loud concert? dealing with some stresses on the homefront? Who knows - probably all these things plus the complete unpredictability of this healing process. This just has to be chalked up to benzo healing and all the strategies mentioned here might help minimize the impact ie meditation, hydration, exercise, rest, journaling etc.  It is a lonely, frustrating and incredibly uncomfortable process but all of us are fighters and will keep fighting until healed! Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

[[Vi...]]

Hi dear Tracy, sorry to hear you not having a good day either. This head pain is afoul for many of us. I took 2 Tylenol today and nothing. Dos not help me at all. It never did even in the pass. Is feels like bad nerve pain inside of my head and my scalp. It use to easy up a little during night but now even night is terrible pain. Saw neurologist had MRI nothing show. Now they sending me to other MRI for my neck. I know I have  sevire arthritis in my neck spine but so many people has and don't have this terrible pain. Feeling so hopeless and very sad. My prayers is not getting answered either. Anxiety was getting better for awhile and now back to high anxiety all day and night.

I took yesterday and before yesterday magnesium. I'm now thinking maybe the magnesium causing this extra pain. I won't take it anymore. What a nightmare. Struggling to survive.

We have to hang in there Tracy no other way. Thinking of you all the time and prayers going to you.

[[be...]]

I hear Ya on the black cloud, WTH. I had some good days in a row and now am in a wave that is killing me. At 5 months and a week??? doubts fill my mind and forgetting the good. Will it come back? Hangin tuff but?????

[[Vi...]]

Thanks squirrley for you incourigment. YOu said you went to the concert, that's sounds fun. Hopefully your symptoms will improve soon. What  kind of symtoms you having?  I'm meditating eating healthy, exercise (walk 2 times a day) drinking lots of water, for 8 months now and nothing... no improvement not much. Feeling so hopeless.

Praying for all BB here every day for healing.

[[Vi...]]

Hi Bernard, I know how you feel. When I'm feeling abit better I'm optimistic and I feel strong I can get through this. But right now I just want to take us much us medication is possible to easy my pain. I don't even remember the feeling how I felt when I felt 60-70% better. I never got real window yet but had a few better days. I call it partial window. Now I just have pain and feeling so depressed.

Thank you again to getting back to me, prayers going to you too for fast recovery.