Really need help

[[da...]]

I am almost 6 months out and feel horrible. It is almost 7am here and it has been another night of no sleep. My worst symptoms are severe anxiety, insomnia, sweating, cold sensations all over my body and rapid heartbeat. I am desperate to make this stop. I fear I am dying. I have scripts for trazodone for sleep but I am afraid to take it. Same goes for zoloft. There are moments when I want to go to a mental hospital but they will only put me on drugs which I am scared of. I could reinstate but that may do nothing. So what do I do? Has anyone else been here? How do we survive?

[[Sh...]]

Hi David,

 

I hear your misery and suffering.  I'm so sorry you find yourself between this rock and hard place.  All of us here are somewhere on the suffering spectrum of this hellish experience.  I've been exactly where you are right now, with the same symptoms and level of misery.  Terrorized by withdrawal, my blood pressure sky high, my heart racing, all physiological and psychological processes on high alert. 

 

The good news is that there is nothing seriously wrong, no fatal conditions, no underlying terminal illness, no undiagnosed rare mystery disease.  The good news is that we heal from this egregious insult.  The good news is that time will heal.  The bad news is that time alone will heal. 

 

There are no magic bullets, no healing potions to really move the process along. Although there may be some adjunct medications that will help get you over the hump, time is the true medicine.  Moment to moment, day to day you will survive.  Try to accept that this will take some time.  Hunker down and distract yourself as much as possible.  Be as kind and forgiving to yourself as you can.  Reduce as much of your stress as life allows.  And gradually the symptoms will abate. You will heal and get your life back and put all this behind you.

 

That's how it happened for me.  And that is how it will happen for you.  There is hope at the end of all this.  Hang on to that hope and you will come out on the other side.

 

Sending you all the positive thoughts and vibes I can muster for healing and the strength to hang on for the journey.

 

She

[[ha...]]

I don't know if the trazedone will help you but I've tried something called olanzepine (very similar to trazedone I think), and I've been able to get 7-8 hours of sleep all through my withdrawals; 7 months completely off now. The olanzepine is an anti-psychotic but don't let the name scare you... they are relatively easy to come off of and they even slow down the racing thoughts that can be so difficult to deal with. You will experience a drug hangover when you wake but compared with 'no sleep', it's worth it in my opinion. As the other member commented, time is the ultimate healer and if we give ourselves enough time and care, we will come out of this strong and healthy again. I hope this helps you my friend.

 

Hawk-eye

 

[[bo...]]

I was on Clonazepam too and had an awful and traumatic two month taper. I hear you and I understand. I've been taking Mirtazepine/ Remeron for sleep after speaking to a helpline who said it might help. It has. The suffering is so intense at times I need respite. I met a guy today who told me he had every symptom in the book and it took him about a year and a half to heal. We will heal. Others have so we will. Take care of yourself.

 

Bo

[[Fl...]]

I am taking trazodone. I also took it for 2 years 10 years ago for sleep. It really helps me. When I stoped taking last time I had no withdrawal symptoms. The only thing to be causes about is not taking it with other serotonin drugs. Like other antidepressents or saint johns wort.