Need Advice

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Hello all,

 

I'm not sure if this is the right place for me to set this post down, but here it goes (the shortest version possible):

 

March 2016 - Took a fluoroquinolone antibiotic for a UTI and had a horrible reaction, which resulted in extreme anxiety and panic disorder

May 2016 - After many tests, diagnosed with JUST anxiety and put on Valium

May 2016 - November 2016 - took 2.5 mg to 5 mg Valium when needed, not daily/it was in this time period I noticed my anxiety worsening, but I also was under a lot of stress

November 201 - Dr. convinced me I was UNDERDOSING (No longer my doc), and to take 5 mg daily for the next year (I lasted exactly 5 days on 5 mg before bad depression set in)

Mid November - Early January - Took 2.5 mg a day for about 6 weeks and 1.25 mg about 2 weeks (missed a day here and there in these 8 weeks)

January - Came down with a nasty cold virus and sinus infection (have refused any antibiotics), and was taking 1.25 mg a day of Valium, noticed that anxiety was improving

After cold let up, I was hit with the worst depression I have ever felt...felt like I could not possibly keep going...and I freaked and took 2.5 mg of Valium in the morning and 5 mg in the evening...depression became much much worse

I saw my ex doc that day and he finally admitted that Valium could be causing the depression (had refused this after I called several times through December asking if it could)...told me to just STOP taking the Valium...I asked if it were safe, and he said it was...I have not talked to him since...

I am on my 9th day off Valium and had to take 2.5 mg this morning due to high anxiety...I am hating myself right now for taking it

Last night (8th day), I could feel the anxiety worsening and became very agitated (very uncharacteristic of me)...I slept horrible last night and woke up feeling worse...so I gave in and took the Valium

I have to say that in past 9 days, up until last night, I have felt the best I've felt since before this all started with the FQ AB.

I have just a few questions, and would be forever thankful if someone could give me their advice or insight...

Did taking those 2.5 mg mess anything up? I have no intention on reinstating...

I do still have a bad sinus infection, which I am waiting to see if it subsides before I take an AB...could this be the cause of the anxiety...or was I feeling withdrawal symptoms? I do need to say this sinus infection is pretty horrible...I feel like my head is going to pop from the pressure...

Where do I go from here?

 

Thank you all so much for listening 

 

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I wouldn't take anymore of it all. If you got through 9 days it maybe be catching up a bit to you but I'd persevere with it because I don't think the depression is worth it. Also my sinuses are an absolute mess. I'm not going to say the Valium causes it but it definitely exacerbates the sxs. I never sound like I'm not very sick with a cold or bad allergies. It's the latter but induced mostly by Valium. If you can ride out the anxiety. You don't have a daily, high dose intake history. I'd get rid of it but that's just me. B

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Thanks so much for replying back Barb 

 

I think you are absolutely right that I should not take any more. I am so angry at myself, because I'm pretty sure it was just a panic attack. 5 minutes after taking it, it had already subsided...and the Valium does NOT kick in that fast lol...before Valium my panic attacks consisted of mostly physical symptoms where I felt like I could die at any given moment...the panic attacks I started having while on Valium were a little different, and more frightening...they were mostly mental and it felt more like I could lose my mind at any given moment. That's what scared me so bad...I had one of these panic attacks, and I was home alone getting my two small children ready for the day. I always freak out thinking of something happening to me while they are there (it is my biggest fear, and why I even gave in and took the Valium)...if it would've happened just an hour later after taking them to school, I would've probably been able to handle it better. But despite the type of panic attack, it was still a just a panic attack and I thought I had a handle on them...this one just kinda surprised me

 

Yes, sinus issues are the worst. They have been kicking my butt for nearly three years now, and make my anxiety much worse. I'm in Texas and this weather has my sinuses all confused  ...I go back and forth with these infections

 

Thank you again for your reply  I think today looks like a good day to toss out the Valium. You are right, the depression is NOT worth it. I suffered through some of the worst postpartum depression, and it came nowhere close to what I've experienced with Valium. I just want this poison out of my system so my body can begin to heal.

 

Take care and God bless!!

 

 

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