Over 11 weeks off! What is happening to me?

[[Ma...]]

What is happening to me? I feel like I'm losing my mind! I'm laying here on the couch and it's just this dull irritated DP/DR confused brain fog evil cloud over my head with numbness and intense pressure in my forehead and down into my ears and into the back of my neck!

 

I feel like I'm losing all since of reality and I'm I'm having a complete psychotic breakdown! The physical symptoms and pressure in my head and ears is unbearable and the confusion brain fog and evil in my head is getting crazy! I feel like I've lost me and the old me just isn't there anymore and it's been taking over by some other crazy person!

 

The pressure and physical are bad but this numb confused evil cloud emotionally is scaring me and I haven't had much sleep in the last few days and it's scary and I don't know what to do and if the Zoloft isn't making this worse?

[[An...]]

You are so early on in this journey. I was a mess for the first 5 or so months after I got off xanax and valium. I am only just starting to feel a bit normal after almost 7 months. You can't really expect to escape this torment for awhile and since you know it is "normal" to feel this way (just look at the others here), maybe you can try to accept that "this, too, shall pass". Very slowly, but it will pass and improve with TIME ONLY. Maybe it was not the best decision to start another drug (zoloft), but can you wean off it before you are on too long? I think the best thing is to not put any drugs into your body that you don't absolutely need at this point. Just let the brain get back to "normal". I don't think it would be much worse with the wd since you are already having so much torment and that is on the zoloft. Maybe some of it would ease if you were off the ad. Can you wean yourself slowly off before you are totally hooked on another drug and then have to spend months going off that after the horrible wd from the xanax? Just an idea, as often said here, I am no doctor, just an opinion. Just don't expect to be better for awhile and you will be better off mentally. It is a slow process, very slow.

[[Ch...]]

What is happening to me? I feel like I'm losing my mind! I'm laying here on the couch and it's just this dull irritated DP/DR confused brain fog evil cloud over my head with numbness and intense pressure in my forehead and down into my ears and into the back of my neck!

 

I feel like I'm losing all since of reality and I'm I'm having a complete psychotic breakdown! The physical symptoms and pressure in my head and ears is unbearable and the confusion brain fog and evil in my head is getting crazy! I feel like I've lost me and the old me just isn't there anymore and it's been taking over by some other crazy person!

 

The pressure and physical are bad but this numb confused evil cloud emotionally is scaring me and I haven't had much sleep in the last few days and it's scary and I don't know what to do and if the Zoloft isn't making this worse?

 

I think that's a really good question, Maize.  The start-up of SSRI/AD meds is muddy as far as helping/hurting benzodiazepine related issues, and they have issues of their own separate from benzodiazepines. 

 

Have you looked here: http://survivingantidepressants.org?  This is a great forum for information.  I would check it out and see what they had to say about the Zoloft.

 

Speaking only for myself, I took Celexa for about three days.  Each day got progressively worse until I called my doctor in complete freak out mode.  Walking circles around my yard in out-of-my-mind anxiety and crying on the phone, something I've never done before or since.  The doctor told me stop taking it immediately.  I did and things got better very quickly.

 

That was just me, but that's really all the experience I can offer.

 

I'm sure the BZD symptoms are the majority of what you're feeling, but the Zoloft could be an issue, too. 

[[Ma...]]

This is just pure torture and misery! The severe pressure burning and numbness in my head has been there since I went into Detox and has just gotten worse! Lately the emotional symptoms have gotten extremely bad as well and over the last few days I haven't got much sleep and it just feels like I'm in my own personal world of torment with all this pressure and burning in my head the DP/DR and horrible evil in my brain even with people in the same room I feel all alone and like I'm not even in reality anymore!

 

As far as the Zoloft I've been on it over 10 weeks now and 6 weeks at 100mg and I do think it's not helping me being that I'm still in acute benzo WD and it could be making things worse! I never really wanted to be on it to begin with and now I have to worry about another drug messing with my brain and I do worry about having major WD to that too!

 

All I have is 100mg tablets and I've been told that maybe trying to reduce 10% every two weeks and try to slowly seem off it over the next few months but it's hard to cut the 100mg tablets to get it to that amount so I don't know what to do? It wouldn't be easier to do it with 50mg tablets but I don't go back till the end of the month so what do I do?

[[Ma...]]

I'm actually on that forum too and the most consistent advice I get is to maybe try and slowly taper at about a 10% clip every few weeks or maybe try and hold at 100mg till my benzo WD calms down but that could be a really long time! I've been on the Zoloft 10 weeks and 100mg 6 weeks so I'm worried about WD to that to as o already had a bad WD from a AD in the summer with lexapro and I only took that 6 1/2 weeks. My brain is so fried!

[[er...]]

Hey man,  I've said it to you before and you keep freaking out about the Zoloft, just do a rapid taper and get off of it in like 2 weeks.. I'm sure you won't notice it much more than the benzo w/d, then at least you'll know what's what..

[[An...]]

Call your doctor and get him to phone in a script for the lesser dosage if they make it in lesser dosages. If not, ask him about breaking it into smaller pieces. Some meds you can do that with, some you can't. I am sure they make a lower dosage of Zoloft so just ask the doc. Who says you have to wait till the next appt? You could also consult the pharmacist about breaking it or about what other doses there are and then go from there. You have to take some action and just stop freaking out about the same thing over and over. Don't worry about the wd from the zoloft. I guarantee you won't even notice it with all the other shit you are experiencing with the wd from benzos. Better to wean off now than later when it is more and more embedded into your bloodstream. GET OFF NOW and just don't take any other drugs. Ride it out. You are asking the same thing over and over and the fact is that this takes a long time to improve. Why would you think it's going to be easy after reading this  board? It is a hellish ride and if you are on this forum daily you know that. We can't expect quick results cause they don't usually come or we would not be here. You will get better if you just calm down and realize it is all wd related and will pass. It is not forever. Also, don't try to find a new med to relieve symptoms. There is no answer there, just more pain and anquish when you acquire new symptoms from the new drug. THE BRAIN MUST HEAL ITSELF. Try to relax and distract yourself anyway you can.

[[Ma...]]

I'm so sorry and I'm so scared! The pressure numbness and burning in my head is unbearable and after almost 3 months it hasn't got any better just worse! I can't sleep anymore and today I haven't even been able to get out of my bed the symptoms have been so bad and I can't even take care of myself or my kids because the torment and suffering is relentless and unbearable and I can't breath!

 

Today I really feel like I'm dying! I can't breath the pressure is so intense that I can't function and the horrible evil thoughts that go through my mind are very scary and on the verge of psychotic! I'm losing my mind and I don't have any quality of life and many other health concerns in top of all this! I'm losing hope and the DP/DR is so bad I don't even notice myself in the mirror anymore and feel like this is not real and losing touch with all reality! I've just laid in bed all day lifeless in nothing less than pure misery!

[[An...]]

Where is your husband through all this? Can you get yourself checked into some sort of either rehab facility or hospital where they can help you? It sounds like this is getting out of control for just you to handle.

[[Ma...]]

Well I was I husband once but just went through a divorce last spring which is what brought some of this back on and I'm a single dad with 3 kids two of witch I have full custody of. I have my mom and dad I've had to move in with them after the divorce and this nightmare but they both work and my kids have school so I'm here alone a lot of the time and yeah this is torture and torment beyond anything else I've ever faced in my life and it's not even the only health issue I have to deal with so overwhelming and out of hand is an understatement!