Get panic attacks from reading negative stories

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Anyone starts to have panic attacks just from reading negative/scary stories? I notice I start to have really bad panic attacks/ heart palps even just reading information about benzo wd on a website.  I also started to panic reading bad news like a boy commit suicide b/c of depressions? Anything rleated to anxiety/depression or psy drugs and it has a negative effect on people life I get panics? I hope when I recover I don't have this.

[[Ch...]]

I avoided seeing or reading anything other than the most bland topics.  TV shows were overstimulating, any sort of stress sent me over the moon with anxiety. 

 

This is all gone now and has been for a long time. 

[[Ge...]]

I don't get panic attacks, but my anxiety goes way up watching things like unsolved murder stories or anything creepy.

[[ho...]]

I kinda get that Tracy . so if I am reading a story and it starts becoming negative i stop reading straight away!!! Just try and read positive stories about it.     

[[Ca...]]

Yes, Tracy, I get that, too.  Makes it very hard to watch any media or read a paper right now.

[[Ma...]]

I still have to be careful about what I watch on tv or FB and any other sources of information. Pretty much anything negative will cause me to have anxiety. Just avoid it at all costs I know its hard....

[[tw...]]

Yes, this is me. Any bad/negative news comes on, i have to change the channel. Can't watch any "heavy" TV programs. Mostly only "kid" shows or movies, or comedies.

[[ho...]]

Yep pretty much me too!

[[ca...]]

For the first few months that I jumped, I would get panicky watching or reading disturbing things.

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Oh my gosh, I am not alone at all  .  I know I should not read too much news but sometimes I get so curious and try to finish reading something like that poor boy in CA committed Suicided  ...just half way of the story I got bad panic attacks and I had to stop. So I prevented myself not to read anything negative, but its hard. My mom called me and told me someone passed away that would trigger too. So I had to tell her I cant' handle bad news anymore for now, please don't tell me anymore. I love her but she is always negative and making worse.

 

TRacy

[[ho...]]

It should get better in time tracy!   

[[Lo...]]

Before benzos, I could watch almost anything. Now, not so much....

[[Tr...]]

It should get better in time tracy!   

 

I hope so. I am starting to see something. I am not sure but I have a positive feeling. I feel I am not scared when the panic attacks come much,  I used to be 100% scared, now maybe 50% scared. Its like 50% less. They still scared me though but I feel I am better at coping with them. I have been having the stupid panic attacks almost every single day for the past few weeks. I think I have lots of symptoms from month 4-now.  But the more panic attacks I have the more practice and I can show my brain nothing to be afraid, so maybe its a good thing that it happens a lot  .

 

 

[[ho...]]

That's a great and positive way to look at it Tracy! It shows you are strong and facing it head on . Well done you!     

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That's a great and positive way to look at it Tracy! It shows you are strong and facing it head on . Well done you!     

 

Thanks. I Feel that these panic attacks and horrible wd symptoms haven't killed me, I am still here. I am starting to see that as much scary when the symptoms hit me, it won't and will never kill me, it just chemically enhance from drugs and my body is healing. Ashton Manual said everyone heals, I am starting to see with my experience that it's true

 

 

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[[Tr...]]

I was reading some posts on "Protracted Withdrawal" Thread and was worry a bit. Many members are not healed by year 5-6. Would it take that long time. It worry me a bit when reading those.  How can we go on for that long suffering like this. Maybe  I need to stop reading those.

[[ho...]]

Yeah I would stop reading them . We are all different and react differently to drugs, So your withdrawal will hopefully be a short one. Just take it a day at a time! 

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Yeah I would stop reading them . We are all different and react differently to drugs, So your withdrawal will hopefully be a short one. Just take it a day at a time! 

 

Thanks, I hope so. And I hope all those members heal soon too. I think we all healed it just take a long time sometimes. We all deserve to heal soon.

 

Tracy

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[[Da...]]

Hi TracyNGLE, I looked at the protracted forum for about 5 minutes and realized that was somewhere I did not want to be. The thing is here you are going to read a lot of horror stories and be exposed to a lot of negative symptoms. At first I was terrified and then I realized that I had to learn to take what people say with a grain of salt. What you are reading is a snippet of what the person feels at the moment and not getting the whole picture on what really may be going on. I am saying if you are going to read and post on here learn that we are all different, and what someone describes here does not mean that will happen to you. If it scares you or makes you feel worse then it is not working for you. You have to kind of separate yourself from the others. It seems like you are making some progress and I'm happy to hear it. There are a lot of drama queens floating around so try not to take it to heart too much.

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Hi Tracey,  You and I jumped at the same time, both didn't taper and both went through tolerance.    Sometimes this whole site frightens me but I'm drawn here looking for good news.  Personally, I really feel and see the improvements from 6 months ago, and now I try to read the 'sigs' of the authors here before reading their contribution.   

 

I'm going on the fact that our journeys are all so very different.  One of my worst symptoms is that my hands feel raw and my nails are lifting - both are very painful.  BUT I read that this can happen in a toxic situation (to chemo patients) and, that if it happens a second time, it is worse, and takes longer to heal.  So, I've had this in 2008 during chemo, and this time it's so much worse and will take longer to heal.  BUT I still come here and hope someone can tell me they've had it and it's all better. 

 

So I'm an example of someone putting stuff out there, that is not totally exclusively from my CT (but exacerbated by the CT).  We have others here who are still tapering; so they can be 'in tolerance' or, if they're doing it well, reasonably comfortable.

 

I do like thinking that i've accidentally poisoned myself, and with time and rest and relaxation I will eventually be close to my normal self, or at least a new normal, almost as good.    My difficulty is traversing through the financial turmoil and other unexpected areas, when I'm not fully equiped to handle the day to day affairs as I used to.  I AM getting there, but OMG, I pray daily for a path to be delivered to me that will make this voyage a little easier.  I empathise with Davis who's trying to keep his business in tact;  I'm trying not to have to sell my car and my house.  Not that selling either of them would be the end of the world;  my rational mind knows that, but my emotional mind is going to find it very hard to part with the two things that give me shelter from the storm. 

 

On a brighter note,  my hands are not so sore today, so I took the Xmas tree down.  I am doing my very best to count the blessings because I know 'like attracts like'.    I steer clear of things that make me panic, but, I'd never thought about it too much until I read everyone talking about it here.  I DO steer clear of negative or upsetting conversations, tv programs etc., and my family are being so much kinder which is lovely.  Maybe we're just little love angels, demanding the cotton-wooled existence that we're entitled to have...... until we heal.    I'm handling yukky stuff a whole lot better.  I even wiped up 'cat vomit' this morning  even though my husband offered to do it.  I'm usually phobic about things like that so I just have to be healing xxx 

[[El...]]

Ohhhh yes i Get that big time, now I just avoid anything if it starts to look like horror....I think some people are a bit tooo, you know

[[Tr...]]

Hi TracyNGLE, I looked at the protracted forum for about 5 minutes and realized that was somewhere I did not want to be. The thing is here you are going to read a lot of horror stories and be exposed to a lot of negative symptoms. At first I was terrified and then I realized that I had to learn to take what people say with a grain of salt. What you are reading is a snippet of what the person feels at the moment and not getting the whole picture on what really may be going on. I am saying if you are going to read and post on here learn that we are all different, and what someone describes here does not mean that will happen to you. If it scares you or makes you feel worse then it is not working for you. You have to kind of separate yourself from the others. It seems like you are making some progress and I'm happy to hear it. There are a lot of drama queens floating around so try not to take it to heart too much.

 

Hi Davis,

 

I used to freak more a lot when reading those stories but now I just worry a little bit. And like you said, I tried to reassurance myself that we all are different and we heal differently. I also agree that even though I have a lot of symptom but they come and go. There are lots of moments/days that I feel a lot better so I think it is the same with those stories or us posting a symptom. We only post anything when we worry about it and the readers don't get the whole picture. I also notice and learn that nothing is permanent, symptoms as much as distress and debilitating, they are not permanent, they always pass,  so thank you for the reminder  .

 

Tracy

[[Tr...]]

Hi Tracey,  You and I jumped at the same time, both didn't taper and both went through tolerance.    Sometimes this whole site frightens me but I'm drawn here looking for good news.  Personally, I really feel and see the improvements from 6 months ago, and now I try to read the 'sigs' of the authors here before reading their contribution.   

 

I'm going on the fact that our journeys are all so very different.  One of my worst symptoms is that my hands feel raw and my nails are lifting - both are very painful.  BUT I read that this can happen in a toxic situation (to chemo patients) and, that if it happens a second time, it is worse, and takes longer to heal.  So, I've had this in 2008 during chemo, and this time it's so much worse and will take longer to heal.  BUT I still come here and hope someone can tell me they've had it and it's all better. 

 

So I'm an example of someone putting stuff out there, that is not totally exclusively from my CT (but exacerbated by the CT).  We have others here who are still tapering; so they can be 'in tolerance' or, if they're doing it well, reasonably comfortable.

 

I do like thinking that i've accidentally poisoned myself, and with time and rest and relaxation I will eventually be close to my normal self, or at least a new normal, almost as good.    My difficulty is traversing through the financial turmoil and other unexpected areas, when I'm not fully equiped to handle the day to day affairs as I used to.  I AM getting there, but OMG, I pray daily for a path to be delivered to me that will make this voyage a little easier.  I empathise with Davis who's trying to keep his business in tact;  I'm trying not to have to sell my car and my house.  Not that selling either of them would be the end of the world;  my rational mind knows that, but my emotional mind is going to find it very hard to part with the two things that give me shelter from the storm. 

 

On a brighter note,  my hands are not so sore today, so I took the Xmas tree down.  I am doing my very best to count the blessings because I know 'like attracts like'.    I steer clear of things that make me panic, but, I'd never thought about it too much until I read everyone talking about it here.  I DO steer clear of negative or upsetting conversations, tv programs etc., and my family are being so much kinder which is lovely.  Maybe we're just little love angels, demanding the cotton-wooled existence that we're entitled to have...... until we heal.    I'm handling yukky stuff a whole lot better.  I even wiped up 'cat vomit' this morning  even though my husband offered to do it.  I'm usually phobic about things like that so I just have to be healing xxx 

 

I think Benzo Buddies is a great support system, even though we don't know each other in real life. But we understand and care and help each other because we know exactly we it feel like to going through this. So it does help me a lot . Yes, I am learning to think differently when reading the stories. If I am well then I will read more, but if I am not to tell I will stay away a little bit until I cope better.

 

I need to get my Christmas tree down too. I don't know when that will be, maybe next weekend . I like to put it up but hate getting it down. I love Christmas and can't will till another one this year in Dec .

 

I am feeling Ok today, still having the dizziness but at manageable so far. My day has been the same better and worse better and worse from the symptoms. It's like my 'new normal' that I am getting used to now , for now, until I heal.