Doctors appointment no help and losing hope!

[[Ma...]]

 

Ok I so feel all alone now and hope is all but gone! I just left the doctor appointment and it was useless. I tried to give a brief description about what I'd been through and am still going through with benzo WD and concerning the Zoloft and he just looked at me like he had no clue and like I was crazy! The only thing we could agree on was more drugs was not the answer and he left it up to me to start reducing the dose of the Zoloft but he recommended dropping to 50mg right off the bat and I don't know if that's so wise to cut 50% out of the gate after 5 weeks at 100mg. So I'm lost and don't now what to do? The burning and pressure in my head is relentless and these horrible evil intrusive thoughts never end and my mind has been so damaged by these drugs I don't see anything but more pain and suffering ahead!

[[Al...]]

I feel for you on the Dr's not getting it, it sucks hard to be looked down on this one.

I, personally, don't even want to see the doctors about this one. I don't know why, I just feel like they underestimate you on everything, and trying to explain this to them would be the same as playing a game of chess with pidgeon.

I know it's not much of a help, but remember you're not alone on this one! I wish I could be more of help, but since I'm a newborn to this myself I don't even have any real suggestions.

 

I would suggest you looking into L-Theanine and Taurine, but thats just my personal preference which I've found useful on my case. I've read that Taurine supports your body's homeostasis and strenghtens and detoxifies your liver, and L-Theanine has been a miracle suppliment for me, it calms me and I can think things through more rationally.. But as I said, that's just my cup of tea and might not suit to everyone.

 

My heart goes out to you, I wish you all the best to endure this storm we all are sailing together. Peace and much love!

[[Ma...]]

Thank you! I just feel so alone and it's funny that these doctors so easily prescribe these meds as if they were wander drugs but then when you have major problems while on them or coming off them they just look at you like your crazy and are not going trough these horrid symptoms! My life has been turned upside down and forever changed since May and these drugs and I feel like recovery is not even possible and my brain is permanently damaged and I'll never come out of this torture and torment alive! The benzo WD is so scary and unbearable that it's like living in your own personal hell without any hope and no one not even the doctors understand! The severe numbness, burning and pressure in my head never leaves and no relief no matter what I do and the confusion DP/DR is so scary and I don't even feel like I'm living in reality anymore or this could even really be happening and then you throw in the horrible evil intrusive thoughts and it makes you feel like your losing your mind and are psychotic! Bad thing now I've got another drug in Zoloft to deal with and this is not the only heath issue I have so I don't know if I'll ever be the same?

[[Al...]]

In a way, it is your personal hell and that's the thing making you feel so lonely (or so I think it does to me).. But you're not! Western medication has taken a wrong turn at some point and is now making people sick instead of curing them. Of course that's not always the case, but with benzos and SSRI's it seems to be. People treated like lab rats prescribed this and that without fully understanding the way the drugs work.

 

Your brain isn't permanently damaged, you will get better with time and patience and will regain your old self back. I know it sounds like a cliché and way easier to be said than done, but try not to think about it too much. Distract yourself on every opportunity you get, even a minor distraction can sometimes work wonders.

 

As of zoloft, I think (do not take this as a recommendation but as a opinion from a stranger) you could drop that 50% off of it, SSRI's in my knowledge need to be in your system for longer than 5 weeks to cause w/d.. I don't know this from personal experience since I've been on SSRI only once in my life for few months way back (my doctor prescribed them to me when my beloved dog died and I was sad about it...). I dropped them off c/t and didnt get any withdrawals as I recall.

 

DP/DR is the worst of the symptoms, along with the cog fog, but rest assured that too will fade away in time!

 

Peace!

[[Ma...]]

That's the thing I've been on Zoloft now for 9 weeks and 5 weeks at 100mg so I don't know what to do? My brain and CNS is so damaged already I'm at a loss and these WD are constant and neve fade or go away and I'm sacred very sacred of what the future holds for me if anything other than pain and more suffering

[[ho...]]

I wouldn't drop so quickly Maize 50% of any drug is a big drop!

[[Al...]]

Oh I'm sorry, my mistake! Maybe go down 20% for a week or so, then see how you're feeling? If I was you, I'd taper down from it asap to avoid any more problems it may cause. But that's just me...

[[ho...]]

Yep about 20 % for a for a couple of weeks each cut. Your body will tell you if you are going too fast.   

[[Da...]]

I'm going to the Dr on Wednesday because I've got to the point of not being able to move and feeling like an electric beehive 24/7. I have NO idea what I'm going to say. I'm lucky when it comes to psychological WD sxs, I missed a good whack of them. I think I'm going to say something along the lines of 'I feel like I have an electric current running through my body and I am extremely lethargic, do you think it's the result of stopping a massive dose of Benzos too fast?' or something like that lol. I also intend to refuse all meds, and reinstating is out of the question because I had paradoxical side effects like massive panic attacks, no thanks. I am hoping for the opposite, and to get Benzos and all GABA affecting meds put down as an allergy.

 

I don't have any experience with Zoloft, but it's not something that you should rush, or feel rushed into.

[[Ma...]]

Yeah I honestly don't know what's the point to go to my psych doctor anymore after today other than to get the prescription I need to taper off the Zoloft. I have refused any and all other suggestions for upping the dose and adding any other drugs since my first month follow up after Detox! I'm done with psych drugs period they may help some in the short term but the long term damage is to severe and great to be taking anymore chances on any of these drugs! I get so many opinions about what to do as far as the benzo WD and the fact that my symptoms are severe and I'm still in acute after 11 weeks and what to do with the Zoloft. I can tell you also I will not reinstate on any other Benzo as I can't see ever putting the drug that destroyed my brain and my life back in my body especially when for most people reinstating only makes things worse and then there's kindling and each WD being more severe than the last and I can say I can't handle worse! As far as the Zoloft or AD they can be just as bad and after lexapro lay summer and now Zoloft again I'm done with them too! I've been told to leave the Zoloft alone and not destabilize my CNS any further and I've been told to slowly taper off now and let my brain heal so I'm not sure what to do? The safest and slowest way I can go is to reduce my dose by 12.5 % every two weeks so from 100mg to 87.5 to 75 and so on which would take about 4 months to get off or I can do a little faster and go 25% and do 75, 50 then to 25 every two weeks then off which would be about 8 weeks of tapering so I don't know what to do?

[[ke...]]

I wouldn't drop so quickly Maize 50% of any drug is a big drop!

 

I agree. Doubtful that Zoloft is your problem. You may wish to hang tight before making any other med changes.

[[Ma...]]

Yeah as far as the Zoloft I'm sacred either way with that cause I just don't know what its doing and I do believe most of my symptoms are still acute benzo WD especially one of the worst which is the burning numbness and head pressure that is so dibilatating I can't hardly function! I do know the Zoloft has not helped eleviate any of my symptoms if not added new ones! I tried to tell the doctors in the hospital it want help but of course they blamed my symptoms on underlying issues and not Xanax WD which was wrong so i probably should have never been put back on a AD to begin with now what to do with it after almost 10 weeks of use? I do know the longer you take these drugs and the higher the dose the harder it is to come off of and it's complicated with the severe benzo WD on top of having a harsh WD to lexapro in the summer!

[[ho...]]

Maize I think your plan of reducing your Zoloft is a good one! Take it slow , don't rush it.   

[[Ma...]]

Yeah it's all just so scary and the benzo WD is more than I can handle I just don't want to make things worse but I don't know if it's not making some things worse by taking it in the first place so I'm just up in the air with it and don't know what to do? I got my new scrip today so I have plenty of it to do what I need to do.

[[ho...]]

Yeah I know what u mean it can be really confusing when u r going through withdrawal and don't know what to do.

[[Ma...]]

Yeah I'm stuck and I guess all I can do is either stay on it or slowly taper off and I just wish I would have never taking any of these drugs cause all this over panic attacks! They were pretty severe and the first panic attack I ever had felt like I was dying and having a heart attack but honestly I would take that over what I'm going through now!