Happy New Year to all on BB

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Happy New year to everybody here on BB  .

You are all amazing who are going thru this

horrible w/d and keep on pushing yourself thru it EVERY day 

 

Don't give up.But this is a story that will come to an end. Even though it feels totally dark and endless sometimes.

I had learn a lot this year and that is: Don't rush to become benzo free! Listen to your body and inner voice. Don't listen to the devil benzo talking.

 

I am not afraid of my w/d even though every taper is pure hell sometimes. I will start to slow down my pace and it will almost take me a year to be free. I hope it will be in November 2017.

 

But what is a year with slow pace than a year with so much terror and horrible sxs when it is possible to avoid them by do the taper slow and steady?

My fear is gone, I am in charge and I am not afraid anymore. I have accept this and I am gonna be kind to myself 

 

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Dear Sundance

I am so glad you are able to do a slow taper. I thank you for your words of encouragement to all on this forum.

You are not the only one to post about the benefits of a slow taper. There are many of us, however, who were unaware of the Ashton method when we started our journey, and only learned of it when we joined BB. Some of us had been rapidly tapered by our doctors already. Some of us, like me, believe that although slow taper would have been better, the rapid taper was necessary to alleviate other medical conditions. We may be wrong, but it's done and we are living with our decisions. We find it difficult to be reminded and sometimes scolded, even with the best of intentions, that what we've done is wrong and to be told that we could have minimized our withdrawal sx by a much slower taper. It heightens our anxiety about this miserable process, and we won't reinstate to do a slower taper. We've come too far to go back, even in our misery.

I wish you all the best on your journey. I look forward to hearing about your progress and return to health!

May your new year be filled with joy and hope!

[[Fe...]]

Heee! I want to wish you a very good newyear as well!

How wonderful to hear you are slowly tapering and have an end in sight. It's inspiring to hear you are not afraid of the w/d (anymore).

This will be a hard year for a lot of us, but also a new year with new possibilitys. 

I wish you and all BB's a lot of strength and courage!

[[be...]]

"HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL"

 

 

This is something I wrote and I just wanted to share it here.

 

"I am just doing one second at a time, really that is all any of us can do, I can not worry about the next hour, because I have not finished this hour, and looking backward to yesterday can sometimes take me to the pits of hell, and sometimes to a most wonderful memory of Love and hope, I can not look too far down the road, as it is still far away into another day. No I will just embrace this moment in time and try to handle it the best I can. Don't ever forget how important you are, you are not your taper, you are not just waiting to recover, you are all flesh and blood with hearts that are willing to give up some things to get better, Our Journey is long and sometimes very hard. But we will Prevail, tomorrow may be better, so hang on to your Rainbow and live the best you can, We Are All So Worth It".~~  Begood

 

 

""Note to self: I don't have to take this day all at once, but rather, one step, one breath, one moment at a time. I am only one person. Things will get done when they get done".~~A.U

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Dear Sundance

I am so glad you are able to do a slow taper. I thank you for your words of encouragement to all on this forum.

You are not the only one to post about the benefits of a slow taper. There are many of us, however, who were unaware of the Ashton method when we started our journey, and only learned of it when we joined BB. Some of us had been rapidly tapered by our doctors already. Some of us, like me, believe that although slow taper would have been better, the rapid taper was necessary to alleviate other medical conditions. We may be wrong, but it's done and we are living with our decisions. We find it difficult to be reminded and sometimes scolded, even with the best of intentions, that what we've done is wrong and to be told that we could have minimized our withdrawal sx by a much slower taper. It heightens our anxiety about this miserable process, and we won't reinstate to do a slower taper. We've come too far to go back, even in our misery.

I wish you all the best on your journey. I look forward to hearing about your progress and return to health!

May your new year be filled with joy and hope!

Thank you for your respond. Yes I have been there did CT, crazy cuts and it was my doctor who told me to do it. I found this page and forum and it have been a blessing for me. First to know that all my sxs I had wasn't in my head. They where and are real. My doc told me to stop feel so much and put so much focus on things that not could be so hard or terrifying. I was a mess. I had relapse after relapse and start to become suicidal I thought this was a never ending story.

 

But to all amazing people here I found away with a really strong will power and power in my soul and spirit I had made it more than 50 % cuts. And I feel better each day even though I have bad sxs when I cut I had come to an end to accept this. To listen to my body instead of crazy docs with little knowledge what we are going thru every day.

Never give up on hope 

[[He...]]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 

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"HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL"

 

 

This is something I wrote and I just wanted to share it here.

 

"I am just doing one second at a time, really that is all any of us can do, I can not worry about the next hour, because I have not finished this hour, and looking backward to yesterday can sometimes take me to the pits of hell, and sometimes to a most wonderful memory of Love and hope, I can not look too far down the road, as it is still far away into another day. No I will just embrace this moment in time and try to handle it the best I can. Don't ever forget how important you are, you are not your taper, you are not just waiting to recover, you are all flesh and blood with hearts that are willing to give up some things to get better, Our Journey is long and sometimes very hard. But we will Prevail, tomorrow may be better, so hang on to your Rainbow and live the best you can, We Are All So Worth It".~~  Begood

 

 

""Note to self: I don't have to take this day all at once, but rather, one step, one breath, one moment at a time. I am only one person. Things will get done when they get done".~~A.U

 

Very nice and beautiful words. I have learned to be in the moment. Like my dog 

He is here and now. No worries about yesterday o tomorrow. I have learned that life is fragile 

Today I feel almost like ME. And I enjoy this moment. I feel good and love to do things without sxs bothering me. I feel free today 

So I keep hang on on this journey thru hell and days with relief. The waves are smaller. I don't feel like I  drowning any more. I will hold my head high and come out even stronger than ever. I know that...

 

 

Where there is a strong will, there are endless possibilities 

[[be...]]

"HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL"

 

 

This is something I wrote and I just wanted to share it here.

 

"I am just doing one second at a time, really that is all any of us can do, I can not worry about the next hour, because I have not finished this hour, and looking backward to yesterday can sometimes take me to the pits of hell, and sometimes to a most wonderful memory of Love and hope, I can not look too far down the road, as it is still far away into another day. No I will just embrace this moment in time and try to handle it the best I can. Don't ever forget how important you are, you are not your taper, you are not just waiting to recover, you are all flesh and blood with hearts that are willing to give up some things to get better, Our Journey is long and sometimes very hard. But we will Prevail, tomorrow may be better, so hang on to your Rainbow and live the best you can, We Are All So Worth It".~~  Begood

 

 

""Note to self: I don't have to take this day all at once, but rather, one step, one breath, one moment at a time. I am only one person. Things will get done when they get done".~~A.U

 

Very nice and beautiful words. I have learned to be in the moment. Like my dog 

He is here and now. No worries about yesterday o tomorrow. I have learned that life is fragile 

Today I feel almost like ME. And I enjoy this moment. I feel good and love to do things without sxs bothering me. I feel free today 

So I keep hang on on this journey thru hell and days with relief. The waves are smaller. I don't feel like I  drowning any more. I will hold my head high and come out even stronger than ever. I know that...

 

 

Where there is a strong will, there are endless possibilities 

Fantastic so happy for you.

[Guest [su...]]

Heee! I want to wish you a very good newyear as well!

How wonderful to hear you are slowly tapering and have an end in sight. It's inspiring to hear you are not afraid of the w/d (anymore).

This will be a hard year for a lot of us, but also a new year with new possibilitys. 

I wish you and all BB's a lot of strength and courage!

It took time and a very stubborn woman to decide enough is enough. I have been really sick. I had up to 50 symptoms at the same time and really bad DP/DR. I was suicidal and I am afraid of dying. It was when I was to ER 5 times in one week I start to think what is this?

 

I thought I had so many illness. I did CT scan, EKG but they said you are fine. Healthy. Even the docs didn't understand my symptoms I couldn't walk, talk or think clear. My mind was out of order  . I start to get scared of going out. I have agoraphobia and I had really bad hypochondria.

 

My doc at ER said I was in bad stress due to really high BP and pulse. I told him I had go CT of Valium. But he said no way you get so sick as you say of quit Valium. I had w/d symptoms and the worst abstinence! The docs are scary. They have no clue at all. And today I know so much about this little devil benzo!  I thought I was psychotic and that I was crazy. Got dark morbid thoughts and become afraid of hurt my dog or my husband. This was benzo talking.

 

I start to go in CBT and he told me that severe anxiety often bring our worst fear up and get these OCD thoughts. I start to use meditation and learn to relax. My thoughts stopped coming when I started to not put notice on them. When I said no! And cut the benzo chains and was open my door and walk out from the benzo prison.

 

I do have really bad days but they pass by and I know they will be better. If I looked back on the woman I was in September after my last relapse.. She was a mess. She is gone and here I am standing on my both feet and live day by day

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Happy New Year Dear Sun and all of you brave wonderful ppl at BB !

I'm so thankful to be a part of this forum.

Never give up   :smitten:color]

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Happy new year. All of you are very brave. Many of you are going through really hard times. In my case I had a really bad C/T from Ritalin and my Doc tried to rapid taper me of xanax at the same time (grr)

 

I had terrible symptoms, but thankfully things have gotten bearable, and I'm mostly able to function.

 

Not even close to 100% , but hoping to get there one day!

 

Keep up the good fight! Your posts and encouraging words help a lot.

 

[[sa...]]

I posted Merry Christmas a week ago ( along with some inspirational words ) and got moved to another section of BB's by benzos R cruel moderator. Sometimes I think some of them are kind of control freaks.

 

No worries, Happy New Years to all!

 

 

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Best wishes for a very Healthy and Happy New Year to all🙏

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Happy New year to everybody here on BB  .

You are all amazing who are going thru this

horrible w/d and keep on pushing yourself thru it EVERY day 

 

Don't give up.But this is a story that will come to an end. Even though it feels totally dark and endless sometimes.

I had learn a lot this year and that is: Don't rush to become benzo free! Listen to your body and inner voice. Don't listen to the devil benzo talking.

 

I am not afraid of my w/d even though every taper is pure hell sometimes. I will start to slow down my pace and it will almost take me a year to be free. I hope it will be in November 2017.

 

But what is a year with slow pace than a year with so much terror and horrible sxs when it is possible to avoid them by do the taper slow and steady?

My fear is gone, I am in charge and I am not afraid anymore. I have accept this and I am gonna be kind to myself 

 

Great attitude you have - glad to hear you are no longer afraid as i'm sure that fear fuels the symptoms etc.. i have faith that you will get there XOX