Head pressure and pain unbearable! DP/DR confusion intrusive thoughts! Help

[[Ma...]]

I have now been off Xanax from a CT Detox for 10 weeks and I just had something happen that scares me so badly I had to get up and post this! My symptoms are completely miserable and very scary! The worst is this unrelenting pressure, pain, burning, tingling and numbness in my head especially in my forehead and it runs to to the middle to the right side down into my ears and my neck to the point I can't hardly function or get off the couch! That comes with severe confusion, DP/DR to the point I don't know where I am or what day it is, I can't hardly recognize myself in the mirror and everytime I stand up I get extremely dizzy and confused and have to remind myself of what I'm doing! Then there's this horrible cloud of evil intrusive thoughts like I can't control my brain and it just goes to a dark place and craziness all the time but it just got so bad I was laying on the couch and grabbed my head and just say straight up and screamed my brain brain and I know I did it but it scares me and it was like I did it but it was like what the heck did that just happen then being confused about it! The pressure is so bad I can't hardly hold my head up! I'm struggling with what to do with this Zoloft as I can't tell what it's doing or if it's making it worse? But this is scary!

[[rm...]]

Maybe the Zoloft makes it worse?  I wouldn't take an sari during Benzo withdrawals,  but that's just me,  and I'm definitely not a doctor.  It just seems to me like it would be too many meds at once. 

[[Ma...]]

Yeah I was pretty much forced into it by the hospital when I went in to detox for Xanax and it was because when I tried to explain my symptoms and that they were from benzos and the damage they had done they looked at me like I was crazy and blamed it on my OCD and anxiety or underlying issues which that just shows how much these doctors know about the drugs they are prescribing! Bad thing is my symptoms form the acute benzo WD are so severe I can't tell what the Zoloft is doing to my brain and now I've been on it for 10 weeks and 5 weeks at 100mg and I can't tell it's helping at all and if I taper off now there is bound to be WD from that so I'm at a loss and don't know what to do?

[[rm...]]

I would stay on the Zoloft then,  just till the Benzo withdrawals are over.  I'll google the safety of taking Benzos and Zoloft together. 

[[be...]]

Yeah I was pretty much forced into it by the hospital when I went in to detox for Xanax and it was because when I tried to explain my symptoms and that they were from benzos and the damage they had done they looked at me like I was crazy and blamed it on my OCD and anxiety or underlying issues which that just shows how much these doctors know about the drugs they are prescribing! Bad thing is my symptoms form the acute benzo WD are so severe I can't tell what the Zoloft is doing to my brain and now I've been on it for 10 weeks and 5 weeks at 100mg and I can't tell it's helping at all and if I taper off now there is bound to be WD from that so I'm at a loss and don't know what to do?

 

have you given anymore consideration to tapering the Zoloft?

[[Ma...]]

Yes and I'm still thinking about it! I've been on it now 10 weeks and 5 weeks at 100mg so I know there is bound to be WD to that too. I get two different options and don't know what to do? The benzo WD is still so severe and I'm still in acute after 11 weeks with no relief or improvement of symptoms at all! The worst is the constant never ending burning, numbness and pressure in my head that is unbearable at times to the point all I can do is lie on the floor and cry or set on the couch and rock back and forth! And the last two mournings especially a horrible wave of evil intrusive thoughts has hit me just as bad as they were in the hospital when I was CT off Xanax! I laid here all night feeling like the walls were caving in on me and couldn't breath no sleep at all! So I really don't know what the Zoloft is even doing to my brain and some say slowly taper off it and others say it could make matters much worse with my CNS already being in such a chaotic state so I feel like I'm stuck and don't know what to do? The doctor the other day wasn't much help either and gave me my scrip and basically left it up to me to taper on my own if I wanted to so I feel I'm on my own on this one and really don't know what to do?

[[rm...]]

Is there another doctor you can go to?  I know you don't want to,  I'm the same.  I'll literally die before I go to a doctor lol.  And I'm withdrawing pretty hard.  Last time I totally quit Benzos,  I was medically tapered in a psych ward.  I don't know.  I wish I had an answer for you.  You're not alone and you're not crazy.

[[Ma...]]

No my insurance will only pay for certain doctors and there were only two places I could go in my area and I was seeing one before I went into the hospital and now I'm seeing the other so not much choice there

[[rm...]]

Ya,  it's pretty much the same here.  I tried to find an addiction specialist here and there is only 1, and I've already been to him,  so I know that he sucks.  Do you feel any better today?

[[Ma...]]

Yeah it sucks when your insurance will only pay for certain places and none of them can really help you at all!

 

Not feeling much better today though. I only got a few hours of sleep again last night and the symptoms are still the same and very intense! The head pressure and physical symptoms in my brain are still off the charts and I can't hardly stand up without being completely confused, dizzy, and nauseated feel like I'm gonna throw up and pass out! I have to say the burning numbness and immense pressure in my head is the worst though and not getting any better at all!

 

On top of that just this evil dark cloud of horrible thoughts and high anxiety and fear is no joke either it's just pure torture and misery 24/7 with no end in sight!

[[rm...]]

Ya,  same here.  I wonder if Valium withdrawal is longer than other Benzo withdrawals?  I'm really trying to hang in there and not go to a Dr to reinstate.  This is my 15th day Benzo free.  And,  again,  I feel really shitty.  You're not alone lol.

[[Ma...]]

Yeah I'm 11 weeks off and this is pure misery!

[[rm...]]

I wish I could give you more comfort.  It sucks bad,  but I don't think it would be worth it to go back.  I've kindled a million times,  and it just does not work.

[[Ma...]]

I'm not no way! Xanax destroyed my life. I'm setting here now in the floor just rocking back and forth with this horrible intense and painful pressure in my head! It is relentless less and all I can do is set here and cry!