This is not pain , this is punishment!!!!

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Hi there , night time and still awake not that i can't sleep but of the horrible pain.....6 months out and my knees feel as they are broken,my back is like its hit by a truck,my shoulders are beiing pulled inside out,diapragm under ribcage feels like theres a knife in it,afwull jelly legs,extreme fatique,hips feel like im 90 years old,tingling limbs feels like i am a fucking mutant!!!!.....this shit is breaking me fucks up my life and isn't getting any better, im tired hearing give it more time ,you will heal........no this fucking shit  is forever i just know it.........i can't enjoy anything anymore especially morning when getting up feels like a train ran over me the physical issues are just unbearable,there are 3 ways out in my opinion deal with it or stop living or take a hugh ammount of benzo for the rest of my life.

I am very very very very tired of this bullshit and in a lot of pain!!!!!!!

Sorry guys i  can't take it no more :'( :'(

 

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alprazolam (xanax) for 4 years, went from 1mg in last 2 years to 7 mg

before sleeping at night; the last year i've been drinking a lot of alcohol

because the alprazolam didn't work anymore;

since 8 months ive been tapering [xanax] and 3 weeks ago i stopped drinking.

Since one week ive completly stopped [xanax], its a real hell;

...symptoms are really getting worse (sweating,tremor,my legs have no

strenght anymore, strange feeling in all of my limbs, panic attacks,

insomnia, headache, dizziness ...

and a real intense nerve pain in hand and feet, pain in my hips)

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You don't say how you tapered in 8 months, but stopping alcohol adds to withdrawal,

and should be tapered.  I hate to say this, but a touch of alcohol might help you

get through the crisis, but going near alcohol can be a dangerous choice.

You are 1 week off xanax, in the time window for restarting (in a very small amount).

 

It will not be forever, but it will likely seem forever.

I might say go to a doctor, but many doctors don't know what to do.

I think you are in the low countries, and there are some good doctors who know.

I am not any expert; be careful in your choices.

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Hi there , night time and still awake not that i can't sleep but of the horrible pain.....6 months out and my knees feel as they are broken,my back is like its hit by a truck,my shoulders are beiing pulled inside out,diapragm under ribcage feels like theres a knife in it,afwull jelly legs,extreme fatique,hips feel like im 90 years old,tingling limbs feels like i am a fucking mutant!!!!.....this shit is breaking me fucks up my life and isn't getting any better, im tired hearing give it more time ,you will heal........no this fucking shit  is forever i just know it.........i can't enjoy anything anymore especially morning when getting up feels like a train ran over me the physical issues are just unbearable,there are 3 ways out in my opinion deal with it or stop living or take a hugh ammount of benzo for the rest of my life.

I am very very very very tired of this bullshit and in a lot of pain!!!!!!!

Sorry guys i  can't take it no more :'( :'(

 

I'm so sorry you are going through. I'm right there with you. It does feel like this is permanent, but I know its not, because I've had huge windows where all was well, and I felt great, so I know this is not forever, but I understand how you feel. I almost lost it yesterday, just felt so overwhelmed with it all - the symptoms just seemed relentless. But I caught myself, and got my head back on right. It's hard, it really is, but we will make it through this, just wait and see.

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Read Parker's Page.

 

The link is in my sig.

 

It puts me right every time I lose sight of what is truly happening - healing. 

 

 

(Thanks Parker!  )