Difficult to do things out of the house

[[Ma...]]

Hi Buddies,

 

I'm about 2 months, 2 weeks off Valium now and I noticed my bizarre eye twitches have gone away.

 

But I have this strange agoraphobia where it is difficult to get out of the house and function. Like when I'm out, my mind resists it's so weird. Does anyone else get this?

[[Da...]]

I have a hard time going out still and I have agoraphobia all the time when I'm at 13 months off. The holidays have been hard on me, I managed to make family events but it is not easy, I don't want to really talk to them about how I feel. I know they don't get it but I'm glad that I have seen them. There is nothing easy about this.

[[Re...]]

Hi Buddies,

 

I'm about 2 months, 2 weeks off Valium now and I noticed my bizarre eye twitches have gone away.

 

But I have this strange agoraphobia where it is difficult to get out of the house and function. Like when I'm out, my mind resists it's so weird. Does anyone else get this?

 

 

I'm surprised this hasn't gotten more responses. From what I have read most bb have difficulty going out of the house due to agoraphobia. I am definitely one of those people who suffer from this, it's always a struggle for me to do anything outside the house . I force myself to get out as much as I can though so I don't develope a real mental disorder .

 

I think the first three months off I hardly left my house at all unless it was absolutely necessary. Which is funny because I was less symptomatic back then.  What do you mean when you say " my mind resists "?

[[Da...]]

I didn't go out much at all for the first two months off. I had to pick my Subutex up every day though and that was a terrible ordeal. The worst part for me is my oversensitivity to sound and my new debilitating symptom, complete lethargy 24/7. I feel the need to lay down all the time otherwise I start to feel really unwell. I feel as if someone has attached lead bricks to my body, as if I am 'dragging' myself everywhere. My head pressure is certainly improving, along with most of my mental faculties though as the last of my paradoxical sxs leave me. I still have a few short term memory issues at three months out, but it's better than it was on Benzos and I am working on it by forcing myself to do puzzles and play memory games on my tablet PC. This is really helpful and helps while away my copious free time if I can't sleep or feel too sick to move. This is kind of torturous though, I am starting to feel 'locked in' like someone who has a working mind in a paralyzed body.

It seems that no sooner is one symptom finally letting go, another replaces it and it's ten times worse. I am not sure if my head pressure improving has something to do with the fact I am not really doing much at all because of the lethargy. It always got worse if I did too much. I've spent most of Christmas either asleep or sprawled on the sofa, even sitting up is quite an ordeal right now. I try to get outside every day though, as I am the kind of person who gets very depressed and frustrated if I don't. Since this complete exhaustion and lethargy hit me I have felt extremely miserable. All the things I took for granted before I felt like this, like walking to the shop or cleaning the house are now huge achievements. I am 'managing' the things I have to do by making sure I have time to 'crash' afterwards. If it were not for S/O (and my cat lol), I would have gone insane. S/O is starting to understand what WD is like. He has a serious spinal condition and subsequent nerve damage, so he has some understanding of what my 'electric shocks', muscle cramps, inner vibrating and nerve pain is like because he gets similar sensations from the damaged nerves in his lower back. I feel bad though because he is having to do a lot of extra stuff because I am too sick to do it, and he could be doing without the extra load with his condition. I am slightly more confident we're going to survive this though, he's one thing Benzos are not going to take away from me. My issues with Opiates, 'research chemicals' and Benzos have caused a lot of misery for both of us, but I am getting more and more confident about my ability to face the future without these drugs.

 

Another reason I am limiting my time around others at the moment is because it's the middle of the winter, and it's cold, flu and Norovirus season, and I know my already sick and weak body can't take any more onslaught right now. If I do go and see anyone, I always ask if anyone has a bug. I think a bout of flu would put me in the hospital in the condition I am in right now. Sounds sad but I feel I must do everything I can to protect my body from any more sickness while it tries to fix this mess. S/O has just announced that he feels like he has a sore throat coming on, ugh!. 

 

I had general and social anxiety even before Benzos. I've never been the most social person, so if WD has caused me any extra I've dealt with it via the same ways as I always have.

 

Matt and I've also noticed my eye/eyelid twitches have almost gone now. This was a really bad one for me post jump. My sxs are certainly 'changing' for want of a better word, just not improving. 

 

When you say it feels as if your brain is 'resisting' do you mean you're struggling to have conversations with others?. I've had this issue all my life and the super high doses of Benzos I was on made it next to impossible because I was so confused and disoriented all the time.

 

I hope you get some improvements soon. I appreciate even the tiniest improvements right now. 

[[Te...]]

Hi. I'm about the same time off- just under 10 weeks. I too have agoraphobia. I'm tapering off gabapentin too, and with each taper, I've kindled (seen a worsening of symptoms with taper). Each fresh bout of anxiety, with shaking and palpitations, brings agoraphobia. I hope it eases up so I can be more active.

Sending healing thoughts.