Did I make the right decision to stop these medications?

[[Tr...]]

I woke up this morning feeling very hopeless, and terrible and keep crying. My fiance doesn't 'understand. Nobody does, except everyone on Benzo Buddies here. This is the worst Christmas ever. I can't feel myself, I feel everything surrounding me is not unreal. I tried to organize some stuff in the house, but got very dizzy with headache and fatigue. Is my life over ? I am only 33. 

[[ti...]]

Paxil is a very strong drug.  I hope you feel better, yes its a good thing to be rid of these drugs.  Im 53, you have your life ahead of you.  Today is just a setback

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Why did doctors have to make us suffer like this? This is very cruel. I don't want to blame them,  but this is very horrible experience , humans should not do this to humans. It's a torture.  I have so much goals to do in life, and I want to help people, but now I can't even help myself.

 

 

[[Ex...]]

I'm with you. Today I feel the exact same way you described. I can't even turn my head a little without feeling dizzy. I tried to shop a little yesterday and ended up having to come home where I had a small panic attack. I'm feeling sick today. Dp\dr, extreme dizziness, anxiety, IBS, very weak feeling body, head swimming if I try to sit up, and the list goes on.

 

It's been a horrible hot mess today. It has been so scary, but I keep reminding myself it's all symptoms and to not lose my head.

 

I understand where you are, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's horrible. But just remember you are not alone, I'm hear on the couch today having the same debilitating symptoms. 

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I'm with you. Today I feel the exact same way you described. I can't even turn my head a little without feeling dizzy. I tried to shop a little yesterday and ended up having to come home where I had a small panic attack. I'm feeling sick today. Dp\dr, extreme dizziness, anxiety, IBS, very weak feeling body, head swimming if I try to sit up, and the list goes on.

 

It's been a horrible hot mess today. It has been so scary, but I keep reminding myself it's all symptoms and to not lose my head.

 

I understand where you are, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's horrible. But just remember you are not alone, I'm hear on the couch today having the same debilitating symptoms.

 

Thank you for writing. I tried to remind myself it's withdrawal symptoms too, but it is very hard sometimes.  It has been 6 months that I have been trying so hard to do coping strategies to help with the symptoms. There were better days but the last 1-2 it has not improved. Yesterday, I went to the Christmas party with my fiance at a group of friends of 30 people. I could not feel or connect to anyone, even though I was able to laugh a bit and talk. But inside of me a sense of sadness, people so enjoying and I can't connect with them. It's very sad Christmas. I went to my parents house and I can't enjoy with my niece. My fiance and I book the restaurant for the wedding next October of next year, but I don't know if I will make it. I want to have kids , I want to travel, I want to care for my parents. I want to do a lot but the symptoms have not improved much.

[[Ex...]]

Listen, I understand everything you said. It's hard. I'm 5 months out, and this has been the absolute hardest month yet. I've read on this site how the 5th month was a month of hell, and I didn't think I would have to go through it. I've already been to ER once because I wasn't sure what was going on, they took blood and did EKG and found nothing, except my potassium was low. What I'm going through today, seems so much worse than what I went through  when I first jumped. I don''t recall have anxiety all day, and the dizzy spells are just crazy. I literally can't walk to the restroom without holding on to a wall, my head is swimming most of the day and my gut is just out of control. No one understands, so I try to hide away from everyone, but today everyone is wanting to come to my house for christmas and I just can't do it, I'm so sleepy and dizzy, I just wont be good company.

[[Ma...]]

5 month is crazy.I am in that month now and i feel worst than ever in acute.I feel like I am drunk 24 hours per day.Cannot think, cannot talk and have total brain fog.I am dizzy that I cannit stand and have problems with swllowing..My heart is is beating fast,I have preassure in cheats..And depression and anxiety are crazy...And than Christmas...Of course you feel bad my friend...We are there.We must make this run to the end...

[[Tr...]]

5 month is crazy.I am in that month now and i feel worst than ever in acute.I feel like I am drunk 24 hours per day.Cannot think, cannot talk and have total brain fog.I am dizzy that I cannit stand and have problems with swllowing..My heart is is beating fast,I have preassure in cheats..And depression and anxiety are crazy...And than Christmas...Of course you feel bad my friend...We are there.We must make this run to the end...

 

I agree, I felt the same. Month 5 was horrible for me too. I am in month 6 and it's not any better. I heard on here that month 5-6 are worse. I am hoping we get some relief soon.

[[Ex...]]

5 month is crazy.I am in that month now and i feel worst than ever in acute.I feel like I am drunk 24 hours per day.Cannot think, cannot talk and have total brain fog.I am dizzy that I cannit stand and have problems with swllowing..My heart is is beating fast,I have preassure in cheats..And depression and anxiety are crazy...And than Christmas...Of course you feel bad my friend...We are there.We must make this run to the end...

 

Masha, you just explained everything I'm going through right now! I thought acute withdrawal was rough, this 5th month is just brutal. I'm just doing my best to hang on in there. We can do it guys, I know we can.

[[Tr...]]

5 month is crazy.I am in that month now and i feel worst than ever in acute.I feel like I am drunk 24 hours per day.Cannot think, cannot talk and have total brain fog.I am dizzy that I cannit stand and have problems with swllowing..My heart is is beating fast,I have preassure in cheats..And depression and anxiety are crazy...And than Christmas...Of course you feel bad my friend...We are there.We must make this run to the end...

 

Masha, you just explained everything I'm going through right now! I thought acute withdrawal was rough, this 5th month is just brutal. I'm just doing my best to hang on in there. We can do it guys, I know we can.

 

Thanks everyone. We can do this. I have enough of crying, I need to continue this. Hang in there. This really bad big time but I guess we gotta keep going.

[[ed...]]

Maybe a doctor gave us benzos for sleep, or muscle spasms, or

tinnitus, or anxiety, or a list of issues they had no real help for.

 

But when benzos give us problems, then we are mental cases,

deserving of all the disregard which that idea might imply.

 

Of course sensible people don't understand these mental people.

Doctors don't understand because the pharmacopeia does not

understand, because some testing information is censored and hidden.

 

You made the wrong decision to stop the meds in the common ways, which

is far too fast to stay healthy, because the right information fails to reach

you and the doctors. Doctors who see no need to learn more.

 

So now we fight to maintain basic function, in a life of crushing pain and disability;

but we are just mental people now, who took the advice of a doctor.

 

Several types of detachment are the core of my crushing disability,

also causing secondary anguish and dysfunction through each day.

My new doctor offered me benzos and ad's recently.

We did not part friends.

[[re...]]

I think we all made the right decision to rid our minds and bodies of benzos, but, yes, this withdrawal is a special form of misery.  I count this as my worst holiday ever.  I am still in acute and its debilitating and horrendous and I want to check my self into a rehab for 90 days just to get on my feet.  I don't know what else to do.

 

In the end, we must count our blessings for the small gifts in our lives.  Number one, that we have a place like this to come to when everything else seems so dark.

[[Mi...]]

I woke up this morning feeling very hopeless, and terrible and keep crying. My fiance doesn't 'understand. Nobody does, except everyone on Benzo Buddies here. This is the worst Christmas ever. I can't feel myself, I feel everything surrounding me is not unreal. I tried to organize some stuff in the house, but got very dizzy with headache and fatigue. Is my life over ? I am only 33.

 

Yes, getting rid of this poison is the right decision. I know it might not seem like that right now, but when you're healed you'll see that it was the right decision. I wanted to go back to benzo's for 2 years during my recovery. But I knew going back to the poision is a temporary solution, a quick fix. Getting healed and rid of this poision is the real solution, it takes a long time, but you're only 33 and have the rest of your life ahead of you. Invest the time to get healed now and live the rest of your life free and happy.

[[ca...]]

If you look at my timeline you will notice that I am over 2 years out. A year from now (next Christmas) you will feel much better. Getting off of this is the right decision! The mistake we made was being convinced that this medication was going to help us. I'm feeling much better now. I do have moments that I feel the effects of withdrawal still. I will never ever do this again! Be patient! If you have made it this far, you have weathered the worst of it. You'll make it and you feel so much better!

[[Ma...]]

I think it may be wise if you're having problems. I had something called "Activation Syndrome" in 2012 from Zoloft. It happened when I went from 50mg to a 100mg. None of the doctors that I saw suspected the Zoloft so they left me on it for three months before my pharmacist figured it out and advised me to go off it (I was better in 2 days) .

 

If you think Benzo withdrawal is bad, you haven't experienced activation syndrome. You know I don't say that lightly.

 

So my point is, I think it is good to go off psychotropics with your doctors supervision so you are a "blank slate" and you can see what your base symptoms are and go from there. You may need to go back on something safe if needed.

 

 

[[fi...]]

I jumped from both Klonopin (very low dose) and Paxil (5 mg.) the same day (due to the Cervical Dystonia that the Paxil produced).  I am finally starting to get some consistent sleep and feel that I am improving as the months progress (although I still have a hard time taking naps).  I am 15 months off, by the way.

[[Kl...]]

5 month is crazy.I am in that month now and i feel worst than ever in acute.I feel like I am drunk 24 hours per day.Cannot think, cannot talk and have total brain fog.I am dizzy that I cannit stand and have problems with swllowing..My heart is is beating fast,I have preassure in cheats..And depression and anxiety are crazy...And than Christmas...Of course you feel bad my friend...We are there.We must make this run to the end...

5 months seems to be the worst month... I'm in it too.. Feeling drunk right around sums it up.. I got on a plane this way.. That was interesting.. Good to know I'm not alone. Xoxox

[[mo...]]

I am 31. What I went through when I stopped was complete and utter sadness. I come from a large family the most of them don't know except for my immediate family. My brothers don't get it. My mother seems to be the only one that knows I went through hell. To answer your question. You did the best thing for yourself to stop taking these medications. I know it's hard to understand but you will get better. I felt for the first 2-3 weeks. That I would be like this for the rest of my life and I wouldn't get any better. It really sucks. I just got engaged. I would always look forward to going out. Restaurants Parties, Company Events, Concerts. ETC ETC ETC... And Since October 25th to I would say December 10-11th. I felt like shit. I'm feeling better now. And I understand that when I get a "wave" I keep saying to myself. This is temporary. This will end this doesn't last forever. I hope this message reaches you and you will fight the good fight.

 

Hang tough

 

 

Best,

 

Moose.

[[Tr...]]

I am 31. What I went through when I stopped was complete and utter sadness. I come from a large family the most of them don't know except for my immediate family. My brothers don't get it. My mother seems to be the only one that knows I went through hell. To answer your question. You did the best thing for yourself to stop taking these medications. I know it's hard to understand but you will get better. I felt for the first 2-3 weeks. That I would be like this for the rest of my life and I wouldn't get any better. It really sucks. I just got engaged. I would always look forward to going out. Restaurants Parties, Company Events, Concerts. ETC ETC ETC... And Since October 25th to I would say December 10-11th. I felt like shit. I'm feeling better now. And I understand that when I get a "wave" I keep saying to myself. This is temporary. This will end this doesn't last forever. I hope this message reaches you and you will fight the good fight.

 

Hang tough

 

 

Best,

 

Moose.

 

Thank you and congratulations on your engagement 😃. I am also engaged and will get marry next year . We already book our restaurant for Oct next year , 2017. I really hope I will recover by next year , oct 2017 . That would be nice. Your message helped a lot. I'm doing a bit better today still with bad headache and mild dp/ dr. Dizziness still present . But I'm feeling positive today , hope it be like this and Better.

 

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