Toxic Mornings

[[ld...]]

 

    I'm sure there are many out there with the toxic wake-up. This is a symptom I've had during the end of my taper and I am 9 months out now. It never fails, every night I wake up at 2:00 AM to 3:00 AM and then the jittery anxious feelings begin, the restless feeling, the feeling of dread, the obsessive looping thoughts. When I get up and start for work it all starts fading away and by afternoon and evening I feel much better. At night when I turn in for sleep it is no problem going to sleep, I sleep good on the average of 5 to 6 hours per night. As I stated above being 9 months out dealing with these early morning toxic wake-ups is getting old and tiresome. I just wish it would soon go away. Anyone else going through withdrawal have this? Or if there are those that have recovered and had this symptom fade away? How long did it take for this symptom leave? Appreciate any feed back. Thanks!

 

                  ldm27

[[Ke...]]

I feel worst first thing in the morning aswell , it sucks !

[[Ca...]]

I still have it although I am not sweating when I wake up any more.  I don't work so it takes most of the day and early evening for the anxiety to tamp down.  Not much to distract me.  My first thought upon awakening is -- OK..here we go.....

 

I also have racing heart rate when I wake up and take a low dose of attenelol which I would like to get off of.

[[Je...]]

I go through the same thing pretty much.  Less anxiety but the same issues with sleep and then waking up and feeling like crap all morning until about 12.  It is so frustrating.  I can't work except a little in the afternoon and it is really debilitating.  I just want you to know you are not alone.  I am 10 months out...hopefully we will be well soon.

[[ro...]]

Yes, same here, I often wake at 3-4 am and feel good...may read a bit and go back to sleep...and wake at the time I get up feeling anxious etc, sometimes sweating if I've recently tapered dose and get up knowing it will get better for the most part as the day goes on. But mornings and mid-afternoons are rough. I had been taking a beta blocker for high bp before I became tolerant to Diaz which I take with dinner...it does help. Ugh :-)

[[so...]]

I've had the 4am toxic cortisol wake up call every morning since I jumped almost 24 months ago without fail.  Heart racing, head pulsating, intrusive thoughts, dread, fear---a real freak show.

 

I'm told it all leaves when we heal and is the last thing to go.

 

We are in the majority on this one.

 

Sofa

[[wa...]]

HI - just jumped really but have this sx more now than during taper --  the toxic feeling used to lift around 2 now there most of the day

[[be...]]

I also have the early morning awakening with a feeling of dread along with uncomfortable surges of adrenaline at 5 and 1/2 months out.

[[Be...]]

Waking up is the worst! I'm in acute right now and it's so hard to get out of bed. Sorry I don't have advice other than to say it will go away. It did for me after 8 months but as you can see I made a boo boo recently. NEVER AGAIN!

[[Av...]]

I am 10 months out and I have the same symptoms. Initially it was terrible. I would wake up around 4 or 5 with the worse anxiety and depression. If I tried to go back to sleep it only got worse with the craziest dreams. Sometimes it would take hours for me to even get out of bed. As the evening progressed it would lift and I would feel "normal."

 

Now the anxiety is no where near as high and the depression is easing up. It is not as bad first thing in the morning and it lifts earlier during the day. It's more nagging and frustrating at this point. It really makes you wonder if it will ever end. I just remind myself of how much better it has gotten and try to distract myself with other things. I also find myself feeling better when I move around earlier so I force myself to wake up and watch TV or surf the internet. I believe we are healing slowly but surely. It's good to know I am not alone in these symptoms because it reminds me that others have lived THROUGH it and I will too! Best wishes!

[[pe...]]

Hey Idm27..

 

As the posts here indicate morning dread and/or anxiety is really, really common, a central feature of withdrawal.

 

I am ten months out, and it is still with me as severe as ever.

 

Really, really frustrating...

 

But you are not alone....

[[sa...]]

no one here had the toxic morning leave.how long for us to be

torture like this.and how about anyone who consider healed about

this symptoms.

[[si...]]

I am 14 months, and anytime I wake up my symptoms spike. It feels very toxic and raw.

It is slowly getting better and hoping for more healing as time goes on.

[[Bh...]]

I have been waking after a few hours of sleep lately too...I'm not sure if I'm causing the anxiety or what. But it truly sucks!! Such broken sleep and then obviously this flares my symptoms. Headaches usually go hand in hand with the interupted sleep. When will this hell end?

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Bump.

Tracking this thread.....

[[Va...]]

I wake up feeling very sick and poisoned every morning. Like poison is running trough my veins, in my muscles and skin. That is what I call toxic mornings. No mental symptoms in particular, but physical sickness.

[[sl...]]

I think I have the worst case of this, 14 months out.  Along with the feeling that starts between

2-4am, I get jolts and spasmning that constantly wake me every time I doze off  (I sleep 2-5 broken hours).  My nausea has been through the roof and my chest hurts so badly now that I'm wearing a heart monitor.  If these symptoms would go away, I would considered myself healed.  I can handle a regular case of insomnia and all the rest.  This crap is just too agonizing and I'm ready to go apeshit. 

[[ld...]]

 

  Hey everybody! Right on!

                          Thanks for all the responses and feedback. I can see that this is a major symptom for many of us here and that I am not alone. Wow!!! If this one would go away I would be pretty much recovered.

 

                  Thanks everybody!!!     

 

 

                                          ldm27

[[so...]]

Buddies,

 

This is all caused by cortisol levels in the early morning that begin to rise in all humans as a normal part of the waking cycle.  Our cortisol levels are higher than normal, which is why it feels "toxic."  Also, instead of gradually rising slowly and evening out to gently wake us up for the day, ours has a tendency to rise quickly, shoot up and peak high.  The symptoms that quickly dogpile on top of us when this happens is the fear we add to this stressful wakeup about facing another day of this sh*t. 

 

Here's the physical domino effect that happens inside us:

 

This early morning toxic awakening causes our blood sugar to destabilize.  Our glutamate neurotransmitters send signals to the pancreas to produce more insulin, then the adrenals get signals to produce more adrenaline to accommodate the extra insulin.  Adrenaline makes our hearts beat faster.  We wake up with anxiety and panic. 

 

When I get shot out of bed like this every morning, I eat a hardboiled egg and a handful of raw almonds--PROTEIN.  It takes an hour, but everything settles down.

 

Sofa

[[ld...]]

Hey sofa

 

      You are very knowledgeable. Good info and well said. Thanks my friend!

 

          ldm27

[[wa...]]

My cortisol levels were normal.  There is more to the body than what we know.  I write it off to my body trying to heal from the chronic chemical assault I was giving it for years.  Does the drug get into deep tissues of body organs, fat, muscle and affect more hormones than just cortisol?  No one knows for sure.  I get up and do the first thing to push to the rest of the day.  Theoretically, protein is probably a good idea if you can stomach it first thing.  Sometimes I can't.  WBB