what are your last sx?? anyone pls shed some light

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Those of you who feel mostly recovered, or anyone who can answer this..whats the last sx to go? early on I kept saying everything was sx. Now 8 mo out, I am super anxious over little things and big things, like i might have an attack multiple times thru day. also super depressed. I attempt simple chores and freaks me out that i feel zero satisfaction. Go through motions. mornings worst. sleep worse and no appetite.

 

So it keeps coming to mind that Im done with wd and Im just messed up or I am not dealing w life situations/decisions/feelings and need therapy. I read self help, tried some therapy but didnt realize the depth of benzo wd and convinced myself i was crazy then. leary of therapy like you will find psych conditions that arent like hypocondriac

I have always been pretty sensitive, hate the winters, "put up" w others expectations, perfectionist etc but still had a job, friends, went skiing, painted etc meaning i still had a life and looked forward to things. )

Id like some reassurance that it is a phase so when I feel this way (almost every minute) that its like a flu, itll go away. 

 

In spring n summer I started feeling positive and motivated! I was having moments of purpose, looking forward to possibilities, I have never struggled like this mentally ever before! Gets me to think that acute time was really a breakdown and it could happen again

Are these the last sx? can it be explained chemically? seriously think sometimes i have something perm wrong in my brain and its just surfacing more now that im older and i should have a brain scan or something. :P

 

PS...I have a life going back and forthe to FL which isnt typical snowbird. Its not stable feeling but the younger me would wing it just fine. Im 50  and in menopause. I did go through chronic stress leading to taking klon during which i got back w old bf and made family cottage into rental and started going north and south. Also had 2 car accidents during, one of which is still an open case and have a deposition this month im OBSESSing on.

bf tells me how lucky we are and we will be saving money and the moving/living arrangements will get easier.