Decided - Using Valium for sleep only so I can live normal

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I just don't care anymore cause I cant take living like this day after day with this high dose of Valium I am supposed to take 3 times a day. I'm still on such a high dose to equate to the klonopin 1 mg 3XS/day which is 47mg of Valium. But, like I said in my other post, I woke up feeling great. Then took my morning dose and then my body just went downhill so fast with overbearing fatigue and cant concentrate.

 

When I was on klonopin, I could handle going all day without it until bedtime cause I have insomnia. It never affected me at all during the day like this horrid Valium has. So I am deciding to take my Valium only at night cause I woke up feeling great. And to be bedridden all day due to unbearable fatigue is just no way to live. I'm finally getting my strength back now.

 

But if I handled klonopin just fine at bedtime only, then that is what I will do with Valium, even though I am taking 30mg at bedtime right now. If withdrawal kicks in then I will deal with it then. I've just had it cause I am not used to living like this. Despite my own body suffering, so is my house (meaning cleaning) and going out to get groceries/essentials. And I live by myself, so I have no help from anyone.

 

Sorry if I sounding like a pity case or whatever, but I have just had enough of this way of life. Its absolutely absurd and crazy.

 

-Heather

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I know how u feel, I am barely functioning.  I only take mine at night too.

Why did u switch to valium?  Im tapering directly from the klonopin

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Kind of a long story but I was becoming too tolerant due to other health problems. Went to a detox center that scammed me by switching me to Valium and tapering me in a 7 day time frame and said, Your benzo free now, heres your ride to the airport. Immediately went to my normal P doctor and said he was sorrry that they did that to you, just a scam to get my money and they lied to me. Said I would go home with a three week taper before I went and they did what I originally said.

 

But since I was detoxed off of klonopin now and on Valium my doctor here put me back up to 60mg Valium 3xs/day and cutting 5mg every two weeks. When I hit to the end of 50mg and expecially at 45mg I just became debilitating weak, fatique, shakiness, no concentration during the day. Ive felt that way all day long.

 

I hope I clarified that enough.

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No need to clarify, just curious

Sorry the rehab did that to you. I hope you have better luck with the bedtime dose

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Gosh, Im sorry, I did not mean to sound rude to you. Cause it seems from your response, I did. I'm just tired of living this crazy life of being so fatigued, to the point Im bedridden. I felt great today when I woke up but as soon as I took my morning dose, I became a vegetable. Going on almost three weeks. Just frustrated, thats all. I'm by far, not a rude person. I'm glad you posted. Thank you.

 

-Heather

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No problems

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shouldn't be a problem dosing valium at night only, I dose K at night only which has a shorter half life and feel fine all day next day, altough I feel anxiety is creeping in slowly towards the evening more. good luck with taper

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Heather, I hope your suffering lessens...you must choose what is best for you right now, although with an eye to the future.  I can relate to wanting to take a break from this madness and unrelenting coping with symptoms.

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Heather,

 

I don't blame you and you shouldn't blame yourself or feel guilty about anything. I've been using Valium too as you must already know. It worked well for my first taper there were no issues. For my second taper I started it and again it kicked in great but all of a sudden it turned on me like a snake and I got paradoxical effects. I got tolerant to to it and didn't feel a single thing or relief anymore when taking it. So I stopped it for over a month and tried again and again it worked somewhat in the beginning. If I would take 5 or 10 mg of Valium now I know exactly what would happen because I tried it a 1000 times before and it's always this same scenario. After about 45 minutes of taking it either I feel zero effect or I get a big bang that will last exactly 1 hour. If I get the big bang or rush I can consider myself happy at least I got something out of it right ? If I don't and after that big bang or rush it starts turning on me. Meaning I get extremely fatigued on to the point I have no other option than go to bed and all I want to do is sleep, so there goes my evening because I take it early in the evening and I wake up early in the morning which is not a good thing because that makes the days much longer and harder for me. And to top it all off and here comes the high light after that hour the fear and anxiety and stress returns the same as before I took it and it does literally nothing against it anymore. Nice and cool drug to be on ...   

 

 

So many advantages for tapering off.