Feeling Discouraged...

[[cr...]]

Today is supposed to be my first day cutting down to 1.5mg from 1.625mg of lorazepam. I just took my last dose for the day and now I'm worried I won't be successful ... I take it in 4 doses: one at 12pm, 6pm, 12am, and one right before bed. The problem is I doubled up and took both at 12am. And now I don't have one for bed...

 

I did this last night to, except I was on a higher dose, so I did manage to fall asleep. I just felt terrible. I pretty much have to go to bed right now if I want to be successful. Otherwise I may end up at like 2mg again >.>

 

Anyway, I doubled up cus I pretty much felt like I was dying. My head felt like it had burning acid inside it, while I was simultaneously being choked. Oh and my chest hurts like crazy. I'm really discouraged. I don't think I can sleep right now. I just feel so sick... and kind of panicky. Does everyone go through this? I don't think I can do this alone. It's too painful... I'm about to lose a month's worth of hard work and kindle if I take another dose tonight.

 

What am I doing wrong? Maybe I should switch to some other benzo. Ativan is straight poison.

 

 

 

[[Wh...]]

Don't beat yourself up. The fact that you are still doing this makes you stronger than most people in the world. You are doing great. Ativan must be hard because it wears off quicker. Maybe you could switch to Valium? I wouldn't worry about kindling. just get through the moment. You can do this!

[[Ce...]]

Today is supposed to be my first day cutting down to 1.5mg from 1.625mg of lorazepam. I just took my last dose for the day and now I'm worried I won't be successful ... I take it in 4 doses: one at 12pm, 6pm, 12am, and one right before bed. The problem is I doubled up and took both at 12am. And now I don't have one for bed...

 

I did this last night to, except I was on a higher dose, so I did manage to fall asleep. I just felt terrible. I pretty much have to go to bed right now if I want to be successful. Otherwise I may end up at like 2mg again >.>

 

Anyway, I doubled up cus I pretty much felt like I was dying. My head felt like it had burning acid inside it, while I was simultaneously being choked. Oh and my chest hurts like crazy. I'm really discouraged. I don't think I can sleep right now. I just feel so sick... and kind of panicky. Does everyone go through this? I don't think I can do this alone. It's too painful... I'm about to lose a month's worth of hard work and kindle if I take another dose tonight >.>

 

What am I doing wrong? Maybe I should switch to some other benzo. Ativan is straight poison.

 

Hi crescentelite,

 

I was reading your sig and to me it looks like you're tapering awfully fast. With the sxs you described it sounds like you're in interdose withdrawal.

 

If you want to get back on track with the taper you're currently at, I would go a night without sleep, get through tomorrow with little sleep and get your meds back on board properly starting tomorrow. Then you need to stabilize, and rethink how you're going to do this. If you are going through interdose w/d, and I really think you are, make your cuts according to how you feel after stabilizing and go at it a bit more gradual.

 

Just to reassure you, everything you described is completely normal in w/d. You've probably had these sxs before?? Rest assured you will be fine. Don't take that extra dose, save it to get back on track....

 

Best wishes~CeCe   

[[cr...]]

Thanks, I think I'll try (emphasis on TRY) to sleep though. I doubt I can make it till 12pm tomorrow without taking another Ativan. But yeah your right I'm going fast, cus I'm in benzo hell either way. I wasn't feeling all that great at 2mg to be honest. I used to be on 3mg.

 

If I can make it through tonight succesfully, I'll stabilize at 1.5mg for 2 or 3 weeks before cutting.

[[Ce...]]

Thanks, I think I'll try (emphasis on TRY) to sleep though. I doubt I can make it till 12pm tomorrow without taking another Ativan. But yeah your right I'm going fast, cus I'm in benzo hell either way. I wasn't feeling all that great at 2mg to be honest. I used to be on 3mg.

 

If I can make it through tonight succesfully, I'll stabilize at 1.5mg for 2 or 3 weeks before cutting.

 

Sounds like a good plan!

 

Good luck and keep us posted, ok? Sleep tight hope you have a nice dream....