Losing strength to cope

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I know how to handle waves and what coping skills to use . I meditate and use grounding techniques. I do deep breathing. I am just so worn down from this long wave I have been in. It has felt as severe is acute with the symptoms. Except it is lasting longer than the acute phase. When I think about it , this wave has been going on for five weeks.

 

I haven't had time to recharge. So I have nothing left to fight this mentally or emotionally. I am spent right now . This pain is so relentless I feel like I am going to lose my mind. How can this last longer than my acute? How can I be worse now than the beggining? I have developed more symptoms than last month.

 

I am really starting to wonder if there is something else wrong with me. The only problem with that is there is so much shit going on with my body there is no way I would be able to separate whatever it could be. There is no way to tell if something is wrong with me. Since everything is already wrong in my body. I am at loss right now. Really feel like I am gonna lose my grip .

 

This truly is hell.

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Remy. As you know, I'm going through the same thing. Nothing I do is working right now and there's no way I could possibly separate the symptoms. They are both physical and mental for sure. They've so severe the last two days all I can do is lay down. Are you getting any sleep?

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You are strong. You are a fighter. You will beat the benzo. Try a meditation on acceptance for your anger towards healing time? Based on your signature, You have had awesome Windows in a relatively short time. A lot of people still don't have Windows. Your windows are a huge sign that even though you are in this wave, you will heal.

 

I don't know if you have tried EFT Tapping, but this has helped many:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IWu3rSEddZI

 

 

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Hi Remy - I know how you feel I also feel really often that I'm losing the ability to cope with the situation or actually my sanity as well. I know for me it seems like this nightmare is never ending and my symptoms will last forever. All we can do is listen to others in this forum who have healed and pray that we heel as well soon. I know it is so hard to just stick it out and it is the same with me. Praying we get better soon.

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Remy. As you know, I'm going through the same thing. Nothing I do is working right now and there's no way I could possibly separate the symptoms. They are both physical and mental for sure. They've so severe the last two days all I can do is lay down. Are you getting any sleep?

 

Last night I only slept around three hours , I slept so I can't complain about sleep to much , I wish I slept more. I get the 4 am adrenaline surge every other night and hardly sleep when that happens.

 

That's all I have been able to do anymore to. All I do as just lay here which would be fine if I wasn't going insane inside my head. The human mind can only take so much right.? Yeah pyhsically and mental ambush .

 

Sorry you are suffering as well busy bee. I will pray for us both tonight to get a long window.

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Hi Remy - I know how you feel I also feel really often that I'm losing the ability to cope with the situation or actually my sanity as well. I know for me it seems like this nightmare is never ending and my symptoms will last forever. All we can do is listen to others in this forum who have healed and pray that we heel as well soon. I know it is so hard to just stick it out and it is the same with me. Praying we get better soon.

 

Thank you Davis , it's people like you on here that give me hope. People that say they feel as shitty I

As i do and make it as far as you have. Without going insane or giving up. I always get worried my mind is going to reach the point where it can't cope with this anymore and I will wake up in the mental hospital months from now in a stupor.

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I've been in a wave of mental symptoms for about 6 months. I chose to taper through it instead of holding. I know what it feels like to be at breaking point and to hang on.

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I know how to handle waves and what coping skills to use . I meditate and use grounding techniques. I do deep breathing. I am just so worn down from this long wave I have been in. It has felt as severe is acute with the symptoms. Except it is lasting longer than the acute phase. When I think about it , this wave has been going on for five weeks.

 

I haven't had time to recharge. So I have nothing left to fight this mentally or emotionally. I am spent right now . This pain is so relentless I feel like I am going to lose my mind. How can this last longer than my acute? How can I be worse now than the beggining? I have developed more symptoms than last month.

 

I am really starting to wonder if there is something else wrong with me. The only problem with that is there is so much shit going on with my body there is no way I would be able to separate whatever it could be. There is no way to tell if something is wrong with me. Since everything is already wrong in my body. I am at loss right now. Really feel like I am gonna lose my grip .

 

This truly is hell.

 

Hello Remy!

I'm so sorry you are struggling sweetheart!!

I want you to know that I too have been where you are hunny!! I know it's sooo horrid and debilitating to say the least. The relentless mental and physical anguish...it's almost unreal. I want you to know that you are much stronger than you realize, and that you WILL get thru this mess sweetheart!! I know it hurts but I promise you it WILL get better!!

 

If you are able to listen to this  https://m.youtube.com/results?q=the%20honest%20guys%20the%20sanctuary&sm=1 this is what helps me get thru the worst days. Not that you will (I sure hope and pray that you don't), I've had waves to lastfor tthree solid months at a time. Please stay strong and know that you aren't walking your journey alone. Please be gentle with yourself my friend and KNOW in your heart that you WILL make it thru this!! Because you REALLY will sweetie! BIG

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Oh wow, yeah.  I can relate to the "nothing left" feeling.  Where you've used just about every resource you have to get through and feel like giving up.  From your signature it looks like you're in your 4th month?  I only ask because I started going downhill then too.  I'd had some symptoms fade, and then other symptoms start up (more painful) around that time and for the next couple of months.  I think this was around the time I did give up.  Tried to just accept whatever came my way, but didn't care about what I ate, what I did, what I wore, and basically anything else.  Cried a lot, just felt overall despair.  My depression and anxiety really ramped up around this time, those two things were a lot worse then than they were in acute.  I don't understand it anymore than you.

 

All of that major pain and despair has gone. I have lingering pain, a lot of muscle fatigue, apathy, some disassociation and some other physical stuff but it's nothing like it was.  And while I'm not happy with where I'm at right now, it's a HUNDRED times better than it was.

 

So I know it'll pass for you.  I don't know when, but I can't see it lasting for many months more if it's already been a nasty 5 weeks with no relief.  When they say this isn't a linear healing process, they're not kidding.  I hope you start to feel a little relief soon. 

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I am going through the exact same....

 

I'm so scared right now ...

 

I'm TIRED of feeling bad.... and now my doctors here have written me off

 

At work, about to cry

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Yeah I am at the point where my mind is saying " I don't even fucking care anymore " . I do cry a lot from all of this pain. I have never felt so much pain emotionally or pychsicallly for such a long period of time. If I didn't have a four year old to take care of everyday I would just give up .

 

It literally feels like my mind is tearing me apart from the inside out . It slowly builds though out the day and peaks then calms then peaks again then calms . It is the most relentless pain I have ever faced.

 

I am starting feel I can't manage my life anymore.

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That is exactly how my day goes..... Peak in am... Calm around noon... Revs back up in late afternoon and then calm again in pm... Don't ever want to go

to sleep because I don't want to start the cycle over....

 

ONE DAY.... We will wake up and say, YES!!!! I feel good.... 

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That is exactly how my day goes..... Peak in am... Calm around noon... Revs back up in late afternoon and then calm again in pm... Don't ever want to go

to sleep because I don't want to start the cycle over....

 

ONE DAY.... We will wake up and say, YES!!!! I feel good.... 

 

Mine is more random and sporadic. I wish thats how mine went so i was prepared for it. I get it at all times of the day.

 

I cant wait wait to wake up and say this is all over. I might explode in a fit of happiness.

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You are strong. You are a fighter. You will beat the benzo. Try a meditation on acceptance for your anger towards healing time? Based on your signature, You have had awesome Windows in a relatively short time. A lot of people still don't have Windows. Your windows are a huge sign that even though you are in this wave, you will heal.

 

I don't know if you have tried EFT Tapping, but this has helped many:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IWu3rSEddZI

 

Thank you WTG, you are awesome !!!!!!!!! I gave that eft a shot today and it did help with my anger. Which is A big problem for me right now. I am almost 100% positive the anger is linked with the extreme waves of depression i am getting. It could also just be a chemical thing who really knows. The eft is a good distraction though it has a grounding effect on me which is really good because my dr/dp has been insane lately. Helps me stay more planted in reality .