For those who have finished or are nearing the end of a Klono taper:

[[Ry...]]

Which was worse: the beginning of your taper or the end of it? I'm still in the midst of my first drop and I'm telling myself that if this is it, I can handle it. It sucks, but I can handle it. But I have this (possibly irrational) fear that every subsequent drop is going to be worse and worse until I can't deal. I want to deal. I'm down .125 every 2 weeks or so from my original 1mg of Klono. I refuse to microtaper or anything. I refuse to reinstate if I hit a rough patch. Dropping .125 off of anything isn't gonna kill me, and I'm not at risk for losing my job (awesome boss who deserves Boss Medals), my relationship (Bf gets medals too), I have no kids, I literally have Nothing To Lose but my own confidence that I can do this.

 

But I have one or two bad days during which I scare the crap out of myself and tell myself that every cut is going to be more drastic until I'm like that dude from from Trainspotting hallucinating babies on the ceiling. (I exaggerate a lot. It's a thing.)

 

Rambling.

 

Short version: Did most of you guys find it easier or harder as the drops continued?

[[er...]]

Hey, real quickly - the beginning (went from 3.5mg to 1.0) was a nightmare - middle of taper was a nightmare - last .1875 to zero wasn't so terrible - I did that in a month.. Jumping was scary, but not too terrible.. I think, overall, I had a worse time in my taper than I have since my jump.  Clonazepam is really bad shit!

[[Ge...]]

I'm down to 0.375mg from 8mg total, still not nearing the end per se. To me, it doesn't feel any different cutting 0.125mg from 0.5mg than it did cutting the same amount from 1mg. It actually doesn't feel nearly as bad as the initial cuts did (if you factor out my pre-benzo psychological issues that are resurfacing).

 

The beginning of any taper where you've hit tolerance seems to me like it would be the biggest shock to the system, and therefore the most difficult physiologically. Your body gets used to taking x amount for an extended period of time and is then slightly deprived suddenly. Because of this, logically, I'd think the beginning is the hardest in most cases (DEFINITELY not all cases). If you're suffering from bad anxiety however, this might not be the case.

 

The beginning can also set up a belief about how hard the process will be. If you feel good mentally and have no anxiety about tapering after the first few cuts, the rest of your taper might be easier than if you had a horrific first few cuts and dread continuing.

 

In my opinion/experience, the end of the taper can be much much more difficult psychologically. At that point you can see how little you're taking, and any significant cut is a large portion of what's left being taken away. Even if the amount is minuscule, it can seem like a huge deal and freak me/others out. It sounds like your mindset about it is great though and doesn't seem like you'll have any issues with that.

[[am...]]

For me, the beginning was really bad, then once I reached around the .050g (klonipin), it was bad but manageable with proper nutrition / exercise. From 0.40 down to the end, now that was the worst by far.  The headaches and withdrawls had me feeling like up dosing, but i never did. I jumped after 10 days of 0.20g as a final dose. I've been off 48 hours now and I'm hoping and praying for some relief soon from the ongoing withdrawls. I wish you the best of luck!!

[[Tr...]]

Ryuuka,

 

For me the beginning, and now towards the end have been the hardest.  Currently at .06mg twice a day. My doses do little to give me any relief. 

 

I'm drained from this process, so are my family and friends. 

 

Your experience maybe different.  There is no defined process in this journey.

 

TRY

[[ny...]]

I'm at .35 nearing end of K taper.  The first cuts, going from 1mg to .88 then .75 were the worst of the symptoms.  Since I've gotten below .5 everything is better, only get Tinnitus now, used to get anxiety, headaches, sweats, etc.  I think the last part will be the hardest since I am trying to move as quickly as I can tolerate having been on only 4 to 5 months including taper.  Everyone is different, but it seems people get better on lower dosages, good luck!

[[Ry...]]

I'm at .35 nearing end of K taper.  The first cuts, going from 1mg to .88 then .75 were the worst of the symptoms.  Since I've gotten below .5 everything is better, only get Tinnitus now, used to get anxiety, headaches, sweats, etc.  I think the last part will be the hardest since I am trying to move as quickly as I can tolerate having been on only 4 to 5 months including taper.  Everyone is different, but it seems people get better on lower dosages, good luck!

 

That's what I was hoping for. I'm gonna go down to .75 in 6 days if I feel stable enough. How did you know when you were stable enough to drop?

 

Everyone else: thanks for the input. It's good to see an array of experiences. Helps me to remember that we don't all fall into the same category and my mileage my vary.

[[Ry...]]

For me, the beginning was really bad, then once I reached around the .050g (klonipin), it was bad but manageable with proper nutrition / exercise. From 0.40 down to the end, now that was the worst by far.  The headaches and withdrawls had me feeling like up dosing, but i never did. I jumped after 10 days of 0.20g as a final dose. I've been off 48 hours now and I'm hoping and praying for some relief soon from the ongoing withdrawls. I wish you the best of luck!!

 

Yeah, I'm gonna jump around .125. Not gonna hold it for more than 2-3 weeks beforehand because at that point, I'll just be drawing it out for no reason imo. I hope you feel better soon! I laugh when I hear people say that their doctors think it's nbd to come off of this stuff. Even my psych who is really awesome kind of made it seem like I'd have no symptoms. Nothing to cry home about yet, but there are definitely things I could do without.

[[be...]]

For me, the lower got better. When I finished I felt great!

[[Ry...]]

For me, the lower got better. When I finished I felt great!

 

That's what I want! (lol that's what everyone wants) but I'm sticking to a .125 reduction no matter what like if I do it and it sucks, I'm just gonna hold. I'm not gonna do percentages of percentages. My next reduction is down to .75 from .825 and I'm just gonna barrel, man. If it gets tooo bad I may consider slowing it down but I'm not gonna microtaper or do the liquid thing. I think prolonging it is bad for me when I have a medically safe taper on hand.

[[sa...]]

Everyone is different of course, but I felt better as I went down.

[[be...]]

For me, the lower got better. When I finished I felt great!

 

That's what I want! (lol that's what everyone wants) but I'm sticking to a .125 reduction no matter what like if I do it and it sucks, I'm just gonna hold. I'm not gonna do percentages of percentages. My next reduction is down to .75 from .825 and I'm just gonna barrel, man. If it gets tooo bad I may consider slowing it down but I'm not gonna microtaper or do the liquid thing. I think prolonging it is bad for me when I have a medically safe taper on hand.

 

Go With It!!! You'll be fine.