Scary symptoms---again

[[an...]]

I'm about to hit 7 months and I'm just so shocked I can feel this bad this far putt.

 

I could really use some reassurance or a kind person to tell me to just go to the doctor. (I'd rather die first)

 

My anxiety levels are back to month 3 levels.

 

Sounds are making me nauseous.

 

I have a small muscle tic in my face al day that won't stop twitching.

 

My whole body feels numb but I can't tell if I'm dissociated from it or it its really

Numb.

 

I feel really raw like a raw nerve again.

 

No buffer to the outside world.

 

 

I believe I have a stomach virus as I've had diarrhea for 5 days now but it seems to be getting better. I had mucous come out a few days ago but it's slowing down. Can a virus kick up bad symptoms like this?

 

I've lost 5 pounds in 5 days. Trying so hard to eat. Can losing weight cause fat cells to release old meds stored there?

 

Feel off balance when I walk or move like I will just collapse.

 

Air hunger

 

Head and eye pressure.

 

Thoughts that I'm about to have a seizure or that all this anxiety / cortisol is giving me neurotoxicity and I will die any minute or lost control of my body and lose my mind.

 

Please help.

 

I always try to stay positive but today is not my day!!! This is like day 5 of this but the symptoms change every few hours. Anxiety is ever present.

 

Edited to add that I feel afraid to move. Also, I have a LOT of stress right now so don't think for one minute you're gonna feel like me at 7 months.

 

Maybe my blood sugar is off? Maybe I have an infection? Should

I go to doctor? I hate them. But I feel terrible.

 

I'm 37 and healthy other than this crap!

[[...]]

I can feel your pain.

Be strong.

If it is infection related, it will passs as infection goes away.

 

It just thr worst feeling that when you feel likr you are finally being healed, you get hit by worst symptom.

[[an...]]

Yes I was feeling so good and then this happened

[[Be...]]

Maybe you got the flu? I caught the flu a week ago and it felt like my symptoms where back into acute. I was feeling really good until it happened too. I thought I was going to go insane and die the whole time. You just have to buckle down and tough it out till it passes. If it's been five days I think you will start feeling better tommorow or the next day.

 

Drink lots of water and isolate in a stress free envirement until this passes . The less stress the better.

 

I know your strong enough to make it through this. When things are at their worst it Usaully means ,you will be feeling really good afterwards so you have that to look forward to.

 

Feel better soon friend

[[Da...]]

Hi ang1111, I'm so sorry to see that you feel this way. I am 8 months out now and I have a lot of symptoms still. I see people on the site say after six months they feel a lot better and sometimes I wish they just go away. I'm still miserable. You know when I was in acute I convinced myself I had medical issues and started seeing one doctor after the other and had tons of tests that all lead to nothing. Sometimes I regret that but other times I'm glad I did it because at that time I needed to have peace of mind. Maybe you need that same peace of mind I did, and if you see the doctor even just to ensure everything is alright you should do it. Go in knowing you maybe fine. I don't know this is hard for me and it sounds like for you too.

 

A lot of the symptoms you have passed for me. I'm not sure exactly when I have not kept a journal. I hope you get better really soon.

[[Be...]]

Hi ang1111, I'm so sorry to see that you feel this way. I am 8 months out now and I have a lot of symptoms still. I see people on the site say after six months they feel a lot better and sometimes I wish they just go away. I'm still miserable. You know when I was in acute I convinced myself I had medical issues and started seeing one doctor after the other and had tons of tests that all lead to nothing. Sometimes I regret that but other times I'm glad I did it because at that time I needed to have peace of mind. Maybe you need that same peace of mind I did, and if you see the doctor even just to ensure everything is alright you should do it. Go in knowing you maybe fine. I don't know this is hard for me and it sounds like for you too.

 

A lot of the symptoms you have passed for me. I'm not sure exactly when I have not kept a journal. I hope you get better really soon.

 

That is really insightful advice Davis 

 

I to went to the doctors during acute and had a bunch of tests run. I did get a lot of peace of mind knowing I wasn't dying or having any other medical issues going on. Then you know , you can get a handle on what's going on with you ,at least mentally until the psychical symptoms pass.

[[an...]]

You guys made me feel so much better!!!

[[Er...]]

I'm so sorry you are in a bad place Ang.  I'm right there with you today!!  My anxiety is through the roof.  I got a lot of tics/twitches throughout my body and the face is no exception.  It is likely a benzo related symptom for you.  I don't think the losing weight will release enough meds to do anything to you but being sick can be tough on the CNS which is already fragile so my guess is that the sickness is causing you to be in this wave while your CNS is still trying to heal.  Hang in there! 

[[bl...]]

Hello ang1111!

I'm so sorry you are struggling hun!

I want you to know that everything you mentioned is very common withdrawal and recovery sxs! I know it is tough as nails and debilitating as heck!! These crazy sxs but that is all they are IS crazy sxs! It WILL lessen and eventually go away. ..for good! When I was in my 7th month I was still deep in the trenches. I have been where you are sweetheart, I PROMISE it will get better...much better! Be gentle with yourself and find whatever you can to distract your mind from your sxs. Easier said then done...I know but anything at all will help! I'm very proud of you!!!

 

Lots of love. ... please stay strong hun! BIG

[[an...]]

Love you guys. Thank you!!

 

[[bl...]]

Love you guys. Thank you!!

 

 

You're very welcome hun! BIG

[[an...]]

All of you gave such good advice. Every single one. I'm so lucky to have you guys on this journey.

 

I'm back in bed after getting rid of some stress. I feel a little relief and calmer after reading your responses again.

 

Thank you so very much!

 

I agree about the 6 month mark too. I was feeling so much better after than and then this. It's so individual.

[[...]]

Ang, did you say you've been under some extra stress recently?  Any correlation there? 

I talk about this a lot, was actually just discussing it with someone again today.  In my mind, it plays such a huge part.  Think back when you were healthy, the physiological/emotional response, e.g. sleepless nights, stomach issues, anxiousness, and on and on.  Now imagine the impact stress will have on a still very frail nervous system, how amplified it is.  I know for me, for instance, my startle response goes through the roof, ridiculous.

 

Hang in, okay, you're doing so well overall.  Hope this nasty patch passes soon for you. 

[[il...]]

I'm about to hit 7 months and I'm just so shocked I can feel this bad this far putt.

 

I could really use some reassurance or a kind person to tell me to just go to the doctor. (I'd rather die first)

 

My anxiety levels are back to month 3 levels.

 

Sounds are making me nauseous.

 

I have a small muscle tic in my face al day that won't stop twitching.

 

My whole body feels numb but I can't tell if I'm dissociated from it or it its really

Numb.

 

I feel really raw like a raw nerve again.

 

No buffer to the outside world.

 

 

I believe I have a stomach virus as I've had diarrhea for 5 days now but it seems to be getting better. I had mucous come out a few days ago but it's slowing down. Can a virus kick up bad symptoms like this?

 

I've lost 5 pounds in 5 days. Trying so hard to eat. Can losing weight cause fat cells to release old meds stored there?

 

Feel off balance when I walk or move like I will just collapse.

 

Air hunger

 

Head and eye pressure.

 

Thoughts that I'm about to have a seizure or that all this anxiety / cortisol is giving me neurotoxicity and I will die any minute or lost control of my body and lose my mind.

 

Please help.

 

I always try to stay positive but today is not my day!!! This is like day 5 of this but the symptoms change every few hours. Anxiety is ever present.

 

Edited to add that I feel afraid to move. Also, I have a LOT of stress right now so don't think for one minute you're gonna feel like me at 7 months.

 

Maybe my blood sugar is off? Maybe I have an infection? Should

I go to doctor? I hate them. But I feel terrible.

 

I'm 37 and healthy other than this crap!

 

Ang,

 

I'm saddened to read this. It sounds like the added stress and infection are causing your flare up. Stress can do it to any of us, regardless how well or healed we feel. Or, if you havent had a "significant set back" yet, maybe this is your time (like month 4 for me). Click on this link to see a chart I found a while ago.

 

https://www.google.com/search?q=benzo+healing+table&biw=568&bih=232&prmd=sivn&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiy6d-ctanOAhVBOMAKHQU-CWUQ_AUICCgC#tbm=isch&q=benzo+healing+timeline&imgrc=4SoS0_zbVXhbWM%3A

 

Point is, either way, there's a reason and you WILL feel better! You're in my prayers!!!!! Keep fighting, soldier!

[[an...]]

Nice chart!

 

Right on time at 7 months.

 

And just like that---- 2 hours ago---- everything died down. Insane. I hope it stays away. My appetite came back and I just ate a ton to catch up. 

 

Yes abcd that makes sense to me. This is my last week in college for the summer- super cramped short 8-week semester. I kicked my sister out 2 weeks ago, I helped a benzo warrior that was near death's door by suicide.

 

Then I worked out in the heat- Strongman workout.

 

But.... I can't even say this is stress. Or a stomach bug. It could JUST be a wave.

 

I've been pushing myself to see where the limits are so none of the above is unusual for the last 2 months or so.

 

Who knows.

 

All I know is I am healing and I'm gonna hang onto dear life to that!

 

I'll go look for your other post.

[[...]]

Sorry, Ang, I should've mentioned it was off-BB chat  I hope I didn't send you on a wild goose chase.  Very glad to hear it all died down for you, and hoping maybe you'll have a little more time to relax and unwind now.

 

All I know is I am healing and I'm gonna hang onto dear life to that!

 

And Amen to that!