Mornings Becoming Less Toxic. . . . . . But

[[wo...]]

As the horrific toxic feeling has left I still linger for several hours with doubt, depression and other feelings of malaise.  I know its only been about 75 days.  But I am still blown away how I can fell this lousy.  I struggle to walk sometimes in the morning to get going.

 

I know many will caution me about adderall, but even that does little to stimulate or motivate me.  I have taken it maybe twelve time since ct and it was working great.  I only use it when i absolutely need to get something important done.  I am very aware of how addictions start.

 

Anyhow I am baffled how this continues to unravel.......

[[Am...]]

I'm almost 60 days out....mornings are the worst. I have really bad anxiety and can't stop thinking about everything that needs to be done. I hope this gets better eventually. UGH  :-\

[[fe...]]

I was very active while on benzos. I'm 12 mos free now. It really does get better. I'm fatigued sometimes. If I take something to help me sleep, like nyquil, I usually feel worse.

[[Da...]]

Some people need Adderall to feel normal and concentrate. I have a prescription for it but I only take it as prescribed if I take it at all. My concentration is so bad on anything now so it helps me to concentrate better. As long as you don't take high dosages all the time I don't think it messes me up. It does help me get things done when that is necessary.