HOLLOW feeling!!!!

[[Ta...]]

Just jumping onto have a chat.

The other day a discussion was started on "How do people feel about socializing".

I find it very hard at the moment as I don't feel like the person I used to be. I feel very hollow inside and I just don't feel like draining my energy on it.  I gather I feel this way because the CNS needs its space to heal.  I definitely love my own space and feel overwhelmed if to much pressure is added. 

When I'm talking to people sometimes I actually feel like a fake. (I have a secret that they don't know about)  Really hard to feel normal when all my goodness has disappeared.

At the moment I'm getting around doing the things I have to do to keep myself and the family going but as soon as anything is mentioned about social gatherings I put my guard up.  I never used to be like that.

I hope that this is just a phase of withdrawl and I'm back enjoying people's company soon.

It's a very lonely feeling and a very lonely journey.

Love and happy days to everyone.

Tallow

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[[Da...]]

Hi Tallow Love, I feel totally the same way as you. I broke up with my 12 year live in GF in January (less than 2 months in) and for the first time I can remember I'm all alone in life. It has been extremely painful and isolating. Now I avoid talking to anyone. The worst thing to me is talking to anybody on the phone. It just feels ackward. It is a difficult time for sure but you are definitely not the only person who feels this way, a lot of us do. People say it is going to get better so I'm keeping the faith.

[[Ta...]]

Yes Davis1 we do have to keep the faith.

It's a really hard feeling to explain to anyone.

It must be so hard for you not having your GF around after 12 years.  I hope your feeling proud doing it alone.  I'm very proud of you.  Some people just don't understand the horrendous journey we're going through.  It may have been to much for your GF.

We all have to keep strong for each other and as soon as we see some light we have to pass that on so the faith, hope, belief and strength can rejuvenate others. 

I'm just about to head off and do some jobs up the street.  I have to push myself today as I could easily get back into bed.  I'm even thinking I hope I don't run into anyone I know. The CNS is in overdrive today and I have to work along side it and not fight it.

Better days are coming Davis.

Thanks for being a supportive friend.

Tallow

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[[ld...]]

Yup

      I know this feeling. I believe I am healing more now as this feeling comes and goes now. I believe it is just part of withdrawal. We just have to hang on! In time it will get better!

 

           

 

                                  ldm27

 

                                           

[[Ta...]]

Thanks Idm27 for the hope.

I'm glad yours is starting to ease up a bit.

Comments like yours helps so much.

Tallow

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[[we...]]

Hi Tallow.I have never faked it till you make it quite so much in my whole life.For the girl who likes to be real,well I do what i have to out in social places but i don't make much eye contact,and I am full of excuses why some things i just cannot attend.It is so lonely,just know you are not alone,and I hear you!!!!!!!!!wen

[[Ta...]]

Thanks Wen.

I just wish it was so different for us.

Surely life has to get easier.

love

Tallow

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(How long were you on Benzos all up Wen.  From what  I read on your post it didn't seem long)  These tablets are just cruel!!! 

[[Ma...]]

Hi Tallow,

do you have a good feeling for your body? i think so. And then its no problem with socializing, your system will tell you when its time. Mine is telling me. thats why I am going to travel even with a bracket due to my pain. 

Look inside yourself and try not to hide in the comfort zone - and you will know when its time to go out and socialize.

As long as you feel hollow you have to fill up strength, thats logical. I remember years that I did not have any social connections but that was completely right, any contact would have taken force from me. When my dog is sick, she separates from us and we let her because we know she takes her time and will join us when she knows that will help her. Animals

 

I hope you will be better soon

[[we...]]

Hi Tallow this is my second time around.I was on them 10 years ago for a short while too.I believe seroquel is a big demon for me.I have been on antidepressants for years.So we must keep going some how some way!!!wen

[[Lo...]]

Hi mate. This definitely a stage of WD , i actually forgot how hard it was for me just to have a simple conversation with someone until i read this post. My social anxiety has now totally disappeared and can talk to people no problem. Even in a wave.

 

I was so far gone at 6 months i was sure i was permanently damaged but my cognative function is now nearly back to 100% and i just have physical symptoms - muscle fatigue and soreness is really all thats left.

 

Hang in there buddie , it does get better slowly

[[Ja...]]

I totally know how you are feeling.  When I first went through withdrawal, I cancelled so many social activities.  I told people the truth as to why and I bet they thought I was being all dramatic because none of them knew about withdrawal from these drugs.  I can't really blame them.  Just look at how far we have come though!