Facial appearance improved, then again look sickly....

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My first cold turkey over three years ago I saw a staedy improvement in my appearance.  I just got through saying to myself earlier this week, "Great, Im lookin a lot better."

 

I am having more pain this time and it is getting worse at 70 days.  Alos looking horrible again.

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I honestly feel like the way we look at our self in the mirror I is indicative of the mood we are in. I look at myself in the mirror, and I felt like shit lately, I'm always like oh I look so horrible. Then when I'm around other people they say "oh you look so much better, you used to look tired before". Now I was on Xanax and pain killers close to fifteen years and I want to say "So I looked tired for 15 years and you never mentioned it" and now I look so much better. I was fifteen years younger when I started.

 

What I'm trying to get at is that we self judge and it is difficult for us to judge our own looks when we look in the mirror. I see this horrible expression and dark circles under our eyes. And does what people tell us really what we should listen to. It is two people how we perceive our self and how others perceive us.

 

What I'm saying is try not to beat yourself when you look in the mirror and don't put too much stock in what other people say. You are no longer using benzos the only way you can look is better. I hope that helps.