[in...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 so all my so called friends, barely any left think I crave this crap, said I should take some vitamins and be done in 5 day off, ru blanking kidding me, they dont even get it..................ugh Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ch...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 No, they don't and they won't... it's easier to accept that and move on. You can talk til you're blue in the face and they won't get it, I wouldn't waste my time. Just as we don't understand what someone with cancer goes through, no one else understands this except those who've been through it, especially since it's not really a medically validated condition yet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Er...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 especially since it's not really a medically validated condition yet. I don't understand how that is even possible! if Alcoholism can be medically classified, how can the post-acute withdrawals not be classified?? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ch...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 especially since it's not really a medically validated condition yet. I don't understand how that is even possible! if Alcoholism can be medically classified, how can the post-acute withdrawals not be classified?? People are working on it, July 11th is Benzodiazepine Awareness Day. But the majority of medical professionals either don't 'get it' or don't want to admit it since they are a large part of the problem by prescribing long beyond the two week recommended limit for benzodiazepines and z-drugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 6, 2016 Author Share Posted July 6, 2016 yes, they depressed me more, they were like we want the old (my name) back, i was like it going to take time, there like no it should not. hugs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 No one can possibly understand this unless they've been through it. No point in trying to explain. Impossible. I told my son awhile back to imagine the worst hangover he's ever had, multiply the pain by 100, and accept the fact that he will feel like that for weeks, months or potentially more. With of course the odd day off where he has the feeling of just a simple bad hangover! Functional but still miserable. End result. He got mad and called me a drama queen. He's since read about it and has at least not been critical lately but it's a prime example of you have to feel it to "get it". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 6, 2016 Author Share Posted July 6, 2016 No one can possibly understand this unless they've been through it. No point in trying to explain. Impossible. I told my son awhile back to imagine the worst hangover he's ever had, multiply the pain by 100, and accept the fact that he will feel like that for weeks, months or potentially more. With of course the odd day off where he has the feeling of just a simple bad hangover! Functional but still miserable. End result. He got mad and called me a drama queen. He's since read about it and has at least not been critical lately but it's a prime example of you have to feel it to "get it". hugs...........im at end of rope thanks for helping me hang on Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 Hugs back. Just keep hanging on. Don't let others upset you. Not worth it. B :smitten: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 6, 2016 Author Share Posted July 6, 2016 im trying, i have 4 yr old twins driving me bat %^&* insane, while going thru this living hell.......thanks for being there, omg ty.....please i need support Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Am...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 [ Oh wow and I thought my 5 yr old gave me trouble. I'm here if you want to talk. quote author=ineedpeace link=topic=160388.msg2142691#msg2142691 date=1467843866] im trying, i have 4 yr old twins driving me bat %^&* insane, while going thru this living hell.......thanks for being there, omg ty.....please i need support Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 6, 2016 Author Share Posted July 6, 2016 [ Oh wow and I thought my 5 yr old gave me trouble. I'm here if you want to talk. quote author=ineedpeace link=topic=160388.msg2142691#msg2142691 date=1467843866] im trying, i have 4 yr old twins driving me bat %^&* insane, while going thru this living hell.......thanks for being there, omg ty.....please i need support hugs amber, will do tomorrow, have to take my eve dose, clean the horrible house, and put kids in bed, now I worry my son has Autism, hes not right, they have enuff needs like all doc visits etc.......im freaking out over here.........ill take your chat and anyone else offer of support and help........i had bad bad thoughts this week, 5 panic attacks, ok have to run........ty for being there.......really it means everything right now..........to me INP Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 I thought our pup was trouble and if the grandkids come over I too find it rough even though I love them to pieces. I was on K and A too...together. Know where your coming from. It's really hard but try to hang in there. When they go to sleep watch them sleep. A child sleeping to me is so so precious. Enjoy them then. During the day...yikes. You can do this. Tomorrow a new day and frankly my day's been a nightmare too. Don't like to wish time away but wishing this day would end. Hopefully sleep will come easy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted July 6, 2016 Share Posted July 6, 2016 We're here for you even if we get tied up and don't post right away. Stay strong. B Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 hugs..............i love u all Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted July 7, 2016 Share Posted July 7, 2016 Nobody gets it but us. Best to move on and forget them and their so called great ideas. Most pdoc's don't even know what to do, so why should they? I have lost friends because of this. I don't even talk to anyone about benzos, except for two good friends who are anti med and this forum here. It's akin to my friend who told me just to take a few drinks and I'll be fine, right after I finished my alcohol rehab.... You are far from alone with this. Betsy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 having interdose w/d, holding still..........will drop the increase of 1.8ml pulls from 100ml DMLT to 1.6 as this is the last 1mg of ativan down from 6 mg dailly plus the 2mgK im still on, $%^& doctors, $%^&* family for making me have the nervous breakdown, I have NO family left as the last 2 (everyone else is dead) threw me under a bus in a lawsuit where i almost died in a restaurant from, lost the lawsuit due to them, and they were not even there, that killed me, that's when I started taking these god awful peices of %^&* poop, then im supposed to tackle 2mg of K!!!!!!!!? omg, will this torture never end.....hugs then find out today my bf family did not invite me to her b-day party this weekend, wth Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 I thought our pup was trouble and if the grandkids come over I too find it rough even though I love them to pieces. I was on K and A too...together. Know where your coming from. It's really hard but try to hang in there. When they go to sleep watch them sleep. A child sleeping to me is so so precious. Enjoy them then. During the day...yikes. You can do this. Tomorrow a new day and frankly my day's been a nightmare too. Don't like to wish time away but wishing this day would end. Hopefully sleep will come easy. thanks barb, benzogirl, Amber etc.....everyone, i really need all of you..........please write when u can, even if its just a hey there.........im just a bad mess, having bad thoughts again, not cool, not cool...........i understand days of nightmares, BenzoBarb, im sorry we are all going through this, but we have each other and for that, im still alive. INP Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 [ Oh wow and I thought my 5 yr old gave me trouble. I'm here if you want to talk. quote author=ineedpeace link=topic=160388.msg2142691#msg2142691 date=1467843866] im trying, i have 4 yr old twins driving me bat %^&* insane, while going thru this living hell.......thanks for being there, omg ty.....please i need support can I PM you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[az...] Posted July 7, 2016 Share Posted July 7, 2016 I like your avatar... Great thread. Love the photo and great username. Love you too. We all have many battles to fight together in this war. "Unless it touches their flesh," as my best friend says. Yes indeed. Unless it touches one's own blanking flesh. Michele Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ch...] Posted July 7, 2016 Share Posted July 7, 2016 [ Oh wow and I thought my 5 yr old gave me trouble. I'm here if you want to talk. quote author=ineedpeace link=topic=160388.msg2142691#msg2142691 date=1467843866] im trying, i have 4 yr old twins driving me bat %^&* insane, while going thru this living hell.......thanks for being there, omg ty.....please i need support hugs amber, will do tomorrow, have to take my eve dose, clean the horrible house, and put kids in bed, now I worry my son has Autism, hes not right, they have enuff needs like all doc visits etc.......im freaking out over here.........ill take your chat and anyone else offer of support and help........i had bad bad thoughts this week, 5 panic attacks, ok have to run........ty for being there.......really it means everything right now..........to me INP I'm sorry, it's so very hard to deal with kids during this. I was a K/1 teacher for 35 years and cannot imagine being able to deal with one kid during this process, much less twins. If you're in a legal cannabis state, there are tons of articles about success parents are having with autistic kids on CBD oil. I can give you some links if you want to follow up. It can make an enormous difference for kids with autism. Hang in there, ineedpeace. We are all here for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 thanks C and A, i wrote a huge note and deleted it as im having a huge panic attack again, im 51...... ok freaking out again........but thanks for being there, don't know if he has it, but hes acting weird......... i have them with speech therapy, OT, vision, etc....surgeries galore.......its way too much for my brain to handle thanks for the shout out, but i feel dizzy, my panic attacks setting in bad, plus when they say they hate me and get off, it hurts, im dp/dr.....im trying but its so damn hard, i want out.............. imp Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 hang on to me today.........pleaseeeeeeee omg..........this panic attacks bad............real bad ...........lets not talk about the kids, its freaking me out more, i only have you guys left, I cant even think straight now............help me........... :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( omg...............this is so uncool........... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[az...] Posted July 7, 2016 Share Posted July 7, 2016 I'm here Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[in...] Posted July 7, 2016 Author Share Posted July 7, 2016 thank YOU Azalea, i have go now, I be back later, love you for being there, im losing it today thanks for reaching out your hand to me right now..........omg.....really............ty.......... i have to remember to breathe......... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[az...] Posted July 7, 2016 Share Posted July 7, 2016 What is something we can focus on that is lovely and true and right, ...anything that brings peace Something simple, about life. Anything at all that is a distraction. I just ate a great sandwich, I don't know what restaurant it was. Mom had saved half. There are cooked veggies. I have the heater on and I'm sitting in front of it, feeling warm air. I love warmth, I love the warmth of the sun when it's not too hot but it just feels so good. I like watching Seinfeld, I love comedy. I'm grateful we can talk, I'm anxious too... I know we can find positives together. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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