reinstated old dose of klonopin and still feeling awful.

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Hello everyone.  I'm writing this feeling incredibly depressed and discouraged.  I reinstated the klonopin at the old dose of .5 mgs on Thursday after a five day rapid tapering of 50 percent.  I thought that I would have experienced a significant amount of relief but I continue to suffer from crushing depression.  I need to be reassured that what I'm experiencing is still withdrawal even though I reinstated a few days ago.  This depression is robbing me of my life.  I cringe at the thought of doing anything that i normally enjoy doing. I do force myself to walk even though it's incredibly hard. I have thoughts of not being here anymore but i know i would never hurt myself.  I just want the awful pain to go away.  Any feedback and reassurance is greatly appreciated. 

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I, too, had crushing depression while on benzodiazepines. It was a result of reaching tolerance, although I did not know that at the time. I did not know that my Ativan was the culprit. It was so awful that the last three months I was bedridden. I could not smile and I could not laugh. It was debilitating. I never thought I was going to get better. I ended up doing a CT withdrawal and the depression that haunted me for over a year was simply gone. It of course if was traded for some pretty horrific symptoms because I got off the wrong way, but the depression that I thought would never leave was gone. In my opinion it is withdrawal, and unfortunately it is not that uncommon. If you have reached tolerance up dosing usually does little. I think this depression will be significantly reduced when you are done with your taper. The recommended reduction rate is no more than 10 percent every two weeks. If you feel you may ever act on your thoughts please reach out for help.  Here are some numbers even if you just want to talk to someone. Suicide, Self-harm Resources

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Hi Chris, I detoxed last November and I am still struggling with depression. I def get that you have suicide ideation, I have it too. The thing is my nephew killed himself in april 2015. He had a lot of problems with drugs (meth) and I wish to god I would reached out to him or he would have come to me to ask for help. Everyone in my family feels that way too. So I have experienced the devastating effect it has had on me and my family.

 

Knowing the pain now I could never put my family through that so I know I was never do it, but it is bizarre how the problem slip into my mind. The anxiety and depression for me are debilitating. I just push forward one day at a time. I try to look forward to the future but I know how difficult that is.