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95 days clean and still struggling hard


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Your reasons for joining BenzoBuddies

- I have been dealing withdrawl on my own for the past 90 some days but I am struggling now and I really need help.


The type of benzodiazepine (or z-drug) you take or have taken;

- Xanax/Kpin


For how long you have been taking benzodiazepines;

-One and a half years


Your present dose

- none


The size (dose) of the individual pills you use;

- I was taking 2-6MG a day before I quit


If you have started or finished your taper;

- done with taper 95 days ago


And anything else you feel would be useful for those wishing to reply to your introduction.


I just need help please

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Hello whythis :hug: Welcome to benzobuddies


I am happy that you found us,  you will receive much help and support here.  I am sorry you’re having a rough time of it.  Withdrawal is awful and symptoms can take quite some time to settle down, they will go eventually.  The Ashton Manual is a very good resource about benzo withdrawal. It also gives you information about the recovery process.


I will leave a link to the manual here : Professor Ashtons Manual


Congratulations on being benzo free. Please feel free to ask questions, we have many supportive and kind members here who will support you and give sound advice. Feel free to check out the forum and post to any of our dedicated threads.


I am unsure if you tapered or stopped abruptly and so I will leave a couple of links!


Here is a link to our Post withdrawal recovery support.


If you stopped abruptly, then you can connect with others here who are in the same situation: Cold Turkey Detox & Rapid Withdrawal Board


If you would be so kind as to add a signature (history of meds/doses etc) it will help members give you relevant advice this link will show you how to  ”Create a signature”


Welcome aboard It will get better





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  • 3 weeks later...
Today is day 113 and I am struggling hard....all I want is one night of relief....i don't know what to do......i've been to the ER four times in the last six weeks because I keep thinking that I am having a heart attack or a stroke......I'm so fucking scared and I just want to feel normal again......my mind feels like it will never be the same I am constantly cloudy and my memory is week...I am begging anyone to please give me some advice....I fucking hate this so much I just want to be myself again.
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Hi why this.


Did you do a direct taper or cross over?  What kinda support do you have at home right now?  Do you have a dr you go to for support?  Why did you start on benzos and why did you come off?


Sorry for so many questions just wanting to know some background so maybe we or I can offer support.



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Just to let you know. You will get better. I went to the ER twice in one week for the same reasons . My anxiety was so severe I thought I was going to go mad. My doctor prescribed hydroxyzine which helped me get to a better place.


5 months later I am still tapering , but feeling much better. That hell will pass. It is not permanent and the fear is from the drugs.

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