I need reassurance this isn't something else

[[Af...]]

Hey everybody, the first time I CT quit I had symptoms that left me housebound. Manic episodes where I would pace the house, terrible chest pain, trouble breathing,feeling of my insides burning,tremors,couldn't control my adrenaline I would take a shower or go outside and my heart would race like I was in danger, my ears would be full and oozing, throwing up. I'm a little over 2 months from my last CT and am left with completely different symptoms. I just feel like I'm going to die. It's been a year on and off of this horror. I have terrible headaches especially in the morning. My head feels full. The chest pain hasn't gone away completely but it's 80 percent better. I feel very weak in the morning. I'm having trouble emptying my bladder. I wake up a few times during the night to pee. I was having side pain near my kidneys but it went away. I wake up around 5am with my heart racing. Just a whole body feeling of unwellness. It's really soul sucking. Just scared it's something else and docs can't find it. I've had a complete heart work up. Had a kidney ultrasound. Tons of blood work for various things etc. Just don't know what else to do or where to go.

[[Da...]]

I think what you are going through is normal. I have had almost all the symptoms you are describing. I have been off for six months and I still feel like I am going to die. I also believe in my head that it is something else. I lost a good friend to a brain tumor a few days ago and since I have been wondering if I have a brain tumor, I doubt it. I think it is all just normal BS caused by withdrawal.

[[Af...]]

I think what you are going through is normal. I have had almost all the symptoms you are describing. I have been off for six months and I still feel like I am going to die. I also believe in my head that it is something else. I lost a good friend to a brain tumor a few days ago and since I have been wondering if I have a brain tumor, I doubt it. I think it is all just normal BS caused by withdrawal.

Thanks for the reply Davis1, I'm just so emotionally and physically tired. My funds are depleted due to all the doctors visits and loss of time at work. I'm analyzing everything having to do with my body. A lot of my most terrible symptoms have disappeared only to be replaced by others. Myself, I am obsessed with heart disease/heart failure and I seem to have a lot of the symptoms. I've had every cardiac test besides the cath. They won't give it to me because my other tests are good and I'm only 35. I just don't know what to do. I've been waiting it out but time seems to be moving so slowww.

[[Af...]]

Davis1, Sorry for the loss of your friend and your suffering

[[Ni...]]

Everything you're describing is typical in c/t withdraw. Time is the healer, don't waste your time or money on doctors and stay away from benzos!  Things will improve  as time passes believe me I've been there and know exactly what you're experiencing.  You're going to be okay.  Live as healthy as you can to expedite the healing, and be easy on

yourself. 

[[Af...]]

Thank You Niners, I appreciate everyone's replys. Makes me feel like I'm not so alone. I won't ever go near benzos ever again. The suffering is horrible. I'm trying to keep motivated. Plus nobody i know (friends,family) understands what I'm going through. It's nice to have all of you to talk to

[[no...]]

Yea, really sounds like a lot of common withdrawal symptoms. Like was said, time is the healer. There are certain physical symptoms like blood pressure, temp, and pupil dilation that you can stay aware of, but chances are, if it feels like benzo withdrawal, it probably is. You did say some things were getting better, which is great. And the way I see it, the chances of you having a serious illness other than benzo withdrawal are the same as any other individual for getting that illness. In my experience exercise, even mild, can improve mood and lower anxiety, although I have heard of rebound effects so be careful. Plus it will make you tired, and sleep is probably the most important thing to heal. I found that when I started practicing better sleeping hygene, like not laying in bed during the day, having a routine etc. my sleep drastically improved, and so did other things that improved my quality of life. Once you start seeing improvement, it can spur you to do things that will increase improvement even more. Like a snowball effect. Keep moving forward, and know that you will heal. Never doubt that.

[[Af...]]

Yea, really sounds like a lot of common withdrawal symptoms. Like was said, time is the healer. There are certain physical symptoms like blood pressure, temp, and pupil dilation that you can stay aware of, but chances are, if it feels like benzo withdrawal, it probably is. You did say some things were getting better, which is great. And the way I see it, the chances of you having a serious illness other than benzo withdrawal are the same as any other individual for getting that illness. In my experience exercise, even mild, can improve mood and lower anxiety, although I have heard of rebound effects so be careful. Plus it will make you tired, and sleep is probably the most important thing to heal. I found that when I started practicing better sleeping hygene, like not laying in bed during the day, having a routine etc. my sleep drastically improved, and so did other things that improved my quality of life. Once you start seeing improvement, it can spur you to do things that will increase improvement even more. Like a snowball effect. Keep moving forward, and know that you will heal. Never doubt that.

Something you said really struck me. A month into starting benzos and my BP medicine I got extreme vertigo. Couldn't walk and my pupils wouldn't dilate. My doctor prescribed me a vertigo medicine that helped me but it lasted for 2 days. It was scary. What significance is the pupil dilation? Has me worried now it was something else. Today I layed around all day and my symptoms were horrible. I notice when I go to work I feel better.

[[Af...]]

I also had constant sinus problems and some ear leakage

[[Af...]]

Ughhh I think I did permanent damage to myself

[[Da...]]

I know how other problems start stacking up and it just makes things worse. I had the vertigo you are describing. I got out of rehab in November and I kept getting dissy, almost blacking out, and falling down. I fell in the kitchen and busted my head on the tile floor, I fell down in the bathroom same thing, I fell down the steps, and I fell and busted my head on the corner of my glass top table and needed 16 stiches. I was bleeding like hell, the doc asked me what happened and I told him, he said that benzo withdrawal could not have caused that and I must be having panic attacks. That shows you how little doctors know about what we are going through.

 

My own GP prescribed me Xanax non stop for 15 years. It is just a crazy world where you get hooked, then you feel crappy for 6 months. I am isolated in my house now just praying my symptoms go away soon.

[[Af...]]

Thanks Davis1, that kinda makes me feel better. The first time I CT I was housebound. I couldn't get off my couch and I was too afraid too. My wife almost left me. So I know how you feel. This time, I am able to work. So I'm thankful for that. I just wish these remaining symptoms would go away. These headaches are getting to me

[[Da...]]

Hi AfraidOfNight, we all think that I think that too. I am seeing a psychiatrist who is an addiction specialist and is also a X-Heroine addict himself. He told me everyone has the same feeling. Like I believed the cognitive problems I have are permanent and he says brain fog is a normal symptom. I hope he's right. I feel kind of despondent and depressed but it helps me to see other peoples posts and make posts myself about the serious problems I having, it helps. So stay strong and remember at least my doctor says it will all pass,