Faint/Weak breathing

[[do...]]

Hi Buddies,

 

Almost every night, as I'm falling asleep, I'll notice that I'm barely breathing and I'm jolted awake with my mind going "BREATHE DUMMY!" If I take anything sedating, it's much much worse and guaranteed to happen. But, if I sit up... it doesn't happen. Only when I am laying down and falling asleep.

 

WTF? I'm suffering all day, everyday. Is it too much to ask for a minute of f#$king peace while falling asleep? I am just SO tired of being alive. Everyday, everyday, everyday. It never ends.

 

What is going on? I just want to sleep... 

 

Is this how people OD on opioids in their sleep? Their breathing just becomes so weak that they die?

[[Da...]]

I am addicted to both benzos and opiods and if I took too many opiates it put me to sleep. I never jumped awake like you are describing. I know that if I kept taking everything I was bound to OD. I would never know how many I had taken or if I took them 5 minutes or 4 hours earlier. So I would take more.

 

My life is a living hell now but when I try to fall asleep it takes a while. I know how you feel I am frustrated with the process myself. It sux man. I was on the right path and then I just messed up. Now I am on the wrong path. I hope you feel better soon.

[[do...]]

Thanks Davis

 

It's the one symptom that truly scares me and turns me white with fear. It feels like I'm dying and my brain feels like it lacks oxygen.

 

I took half a Benadryl and it made it worse. Anything sedating does. I just straight up stop breathing... I'll never understand how that's possible.

[[Da...]]

It sounds like a terrifying issue. I def would not want to experience that. I probably would never be able to sleep if that was happening to me.

[[do...]]

Yup.

 

This is how I imagine dying would be. I scares me so bad.

 

I've been bed-ridden for the last 3 months of my taper and the full 8 months after. I can barely feed myself. I can't get out anywhere to get what I need. So, I'm lying here for almost a year, and then my breathing becomes so faint I feel like I am passing out.

 

That's essentially how I think dying happens. Your body gets weak and fails. Your breathe weakens until it stops. That's it. You're dead.