Still suffering everyday. Need reinsurance it will go away

[[Da...]]

Hi Everyone,

 

I hope someone responds this time last time nobody responded and I felt worse after the post then I did before.

 

I got detoxed suddenly in rehab over for days and released after 10 days. That was November 2015 released the day after thanksgiving. I was told it should take 2-3 weeks and then I will be fine. That was really the biggest lie I ever heard. My GP who prescribed me Xanax for 15 years, and increased the dosage from 1mg-2mg-3mg told me he would not prescribe anything else to me not even blood pressure meds which he had prescribed me for years.

 

After rehab in January I broke up from a 15 year relationship with my GF. She said I acted like a stranger and I felt like she was a stranger to me. I felt no connection to her anymore and she kept insisting that I was "Just depressed" and "I could no longer possibly be detoxing". She wanted to have sex all the time like we did when I was taking pills but I no longer had that desire. She was like an octopus with hands all over me all the time.

 

Not only did I have not connection to my GF I also feel the is no connection to myself. I have been a stranger to myself ever since I stopped taking pills. I don't know who the person I was on pills or the person before I started taking pills. I don't know what I like to eat or what kind of movies I like watching. The person on drugs had lots of connections with family and friends, the person I am now know longer is connected to anyone. I know these are depersonalization and derealization. Did anyone else have this symptom and how long did it take you to feel in touch with yourself again?

 

So sorry I am making this a long rambling story. Here is where I am today. No connection to family and friends, filled up to the top with anxiety and grief, depressed, isolating, fatigued, just to name a few symptoms. I feel like I am def going crazy and there is no end in sight if it ever ends, which I am not sure it will.  Can anyone tell me if you had the same symptoms, especially when it came to relationships with family and friends. If these feelings passed how long did it take. Please let me know. I would greatly appreciate any words of kindness.

 

 

 

 

[[Da...]]

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[[Sp...]]

Most of my symptoms (some of which you have) faded around the 10 month mark. I did a very slow taper though, and jumped off a very low dose. I just have the sexual problems remaining. Have you had libido problems?

[[Da...]]

Hi Spruce, thanks for responding.

 

I never actually got the option to taper, maybe that would have made my symptoms not so severe, I will never know. I have never had libido problems before this detox but I noticed when I started I no longer have the burning desire to have sex. I found myself and my girlfriend were no longer on the same page really quickly. It hurt to breakup especially in this condition but I believed and still do that I was gng to be driven to reinstate.

 

Def there has been a change and I don't have the desire like I did back when I was taking benzos and opiates.