A message of HOPE!

[[il...]]

Hi, BBs!

 

I hope you're all well. For as much as I used to post sxs, I believe it's as important to post milestones and celebrations. I'm not saying I'm healed by any means, but this is getting so much easier!

 

My tinnitus and hyperacusis seem to be almost gone. Same with my brain zaps. I have only a couple just upon waking up. Before, they reduced in severity and duration, and even minimized down to just upon waking up, but now they're barely there.

 

One of my sxs, PSSD, is all gone.

 

Distracting - it's gotten so easy I contimplated going to Philly for the day next week. Am I going? Ha! No. Too much can happen. But, I *thought* about it in an exciting way. Before, it wouldn't have even been anything close to an option. I went to a local lake yesterday and even socialized with relative ease. I had a short 1-hour spout of the fear-filled and panting-for-breath anxiety last night. Before, they were 2-3 hours and I had two every day. I wake up with mild anxiety, but none of the panting for breath.

 

Could it get worse again? Of course. But, for the first time, I'm experiencing a window where I can finally sit back and smile (I almost cried tears of joy today) regarding how much easier it is getting. Is it *easy* yet? Not *quite*. But, it does seem night and day! I am grateful to hopefully be following the "schedule" of my original mentor. He ensured me that he, along with his mentor who was on these poisonous pills for 30 years, just continually got better and better and better and better and better and better, with dips obviously, over the course of 11 months. (6 of a taper and 5 months of no-benzo healing afterwards)

 

I have more mental clarity than before. (Although still not 100%) Often people say that they turn into better versions of their old selves. Not quite there, but for the past few days, I've certainly been the happiest I've been in 5.5 months!

 

Hang on, guys! Onward and upward! Life *does* get better!

 

Never again

[[on...]]

I am so happy for you ILLnever- you deserve to finally have a window after all of your struggles and suffering!  I hope  that you continue to have happy days ahead!! I hope someday I will be posting my happy ending too.

[[il...]]

I am so happy for you ILLnever- you deserve to finally have a window after all of your struggles and suffering!  I hope  that you continue to have happy days ahead!! I hope someday I will be posting my happy ending too.

 

Don't hope. *Know*. It's inevitable. But, I know how scary it is. It's a really good window am I couldn't be more grateful. They say it just keeps getting better and better, so, I'm thrilled thinking how good it will be when it's actually over! The simple fact that I haven't been debilitated the past few days has been a Godsend. Keep going, my friend! You'll get there!

[[wh...]]

:hug:YAY !  Cheering you on ! 

[[il...]]

:hug:YAY !  Cheering you on ! 

 

😀 And I you, my dear! And I you!

[[il...]]

This is not a success story, just a celebration! My apologies! I thought I was posting in celebrations when writing this!!

[[...]]

I love it. Life is coming back to you.

 

I donT think it will get worse at all.

 

You are deffinTely on track to be yourself.

[[wh...]]

This is not a success story, just a celebration! My apologies! I thought I was posting in celebrations when writing this!!

You are a success !! 

[[be...]]

This is not a success story, just a celebration! My apologies! I thought I was posting in celebrations when writing this!!

 

You have even reason to celebrate! You are that much closer to being healed. :smitten:

[[il...]]

This is not a success story, just a celebration! My apologies! I thought I was posting in celebrations when writing this!!

 

You have even reason to celebrate! You are that much closer to being healed. :smitten:

 

Thanks, BRC! The second half of yesterday wasn't anything to write home about but today, after the first few hours, has been amazing again! Glory to God!!

[[Sa...]]

Awesome news!! I hope things keep improving for you and you won't have to post here anymore.

[[il...]]

Awesome news!! I hope things keep improving for you and you won't have to post here anymore.

 

I had what I now consider a "light" flare up yesterday but honestly? If there isn't anything anymore that's not manageable. I was with family all day today swimming, and then went to a friend's house for an hour. Still a touch fragile, but it's lifting. Thank the Lord!!

[[il...]]

I'm not creating a new thread for this, simply adding on to this one --

 

For almost a solid week (last Monday to today, so far), this has taken a turn I couldn't even imagine! Am I healed? No. Are sxs still here? Yes. BUT, perhaps this is the magical 6-month mark so many others talk about? Perhaps it's just a wave? Who knows, and who cares. I'm not overanalyzing. However, this has become SO much easier. I socialize relatively easy. I'm happy. "The pit" flares up to what feels like what normal nervousness felt like and very briefly, and not often at all. I grilled out, swam and socialized all day yesterday.

 

It it "easy" yet? Not *quite*, but it *feels* sooo much easier. I'd argue 95% at times. Definitely on its way out of being "debilitating."

 

God bless you all! Keep fighting! The end of this nightmare isn't as far away as you may think!

[[Be...]]

You are a success! Congrats! I'm also very happy that you are almkst free from very sticky tinnitudsanf hyperacusis symptoms. I'm also a c/t case and have very very bad tinnitus. Can I ask if you describe your T? Was it tonal or like mine hissing, sizzling and electrical storm?

[[il...]]

You are a success! Congrats! I'm also very happy that you are almkst free from very sticky tinnitudsanf hyperacusis symptoms. I'm also a c/t case and have very very bad tinnitus. Can I ask if you describe your T? Was it tonal or like mine hissing, sizzling and electrical storm?

 

Beste! I hope you're well. Happy to hear from you! It's not easy yet, but it really does get easier and easier every few weeks. I'm at a friend's house now. I still have healing to do, but it's not impossible anymore!

 

My T started as a hiss, so loudly. It woke me up in the middle of the night. Then after a month it turned into a siren, then another month it was a buzzing, then finally back to hissing. I still have it but I can only notice it at night. The hyperacusis came back once but it was barely anything.

 

Glory to God!!!

[[an...]]

So happy for you! No more 2 hour panics??? That's so great!!! YOU GIVE ME HOPE. I've been slammed the last couple of weeks in and out of waves. Can't wait to see next month get easier!

 

Happy Healing!

[[il...]]

So happy for you! No more 2 hour panics??? That's so great!!! YOU GIVE ME HOPE. I've been slammed the last couple of weeks in and out of waves. Can't wait to see next month get easier!

 

Happy Healing!

 

Oh, Ang! That stinks! But you're strong, I know. You'll truck through it. I promise it does get better!

I remember you sharing about an old friend you ran into and they said they felt significantly better at 6 but it took a full year to "heal"? At a party or something? That's what my mentor says, too. And when you shared that, that gave ME hope. Keep going, my friend!

 

I'll be praying for you!

[[an...]]

Yep thats what they said!

 

Onward!

[Guest [We...]]

That's awesome, you're very lucky.

 

I had a crappy breakdown last Thursday and been experiencing a wave (at least I think it's a wave) since. :/

[[Be...]]

You are a success! Congrats! I'm also very happy that you are almkst free from very sticky tinnitudsanf hyperacusis symptoms. I'm also a c/t case and have very very bad tinnitus. Can I ask if you describe your T? Was it tonal or like mine hissing, sizzling and electrical storm?

 

Beste! I hope you're well. Happy to hear from you! It's not easy yet, but it really does get easier and easier every few weeks. I'm at a friend's house now. I still have healing to do, but it's not impossible anymore!

 

My T started as a hiss, so loudly. It woke me up in the middle of the night. Then after a month it turned into a siren, then another month it was a buzzing, then finally back to hissing. I still have it but I can only notice it at night. The hyperacusis came back once but it was barely anything.

 

Glory to God!!!

 

This is exactly what happened to me too. I hope the complete healing is on its way for you!

 

Much love

[[il...]]

That's awesome, you're very lucky.

 

I had a crappy breakdown last Thursday and been experiencing a wave (at least I think it's a wave) since. :/

 

Youll get here. 2 months is early. I realized about a month ago I never really believed I would heal, and that I was just talking myself into it. But the progress made over the last month has been truly amazing. I'm not sitting here saying I'm healed yet, but there are so many more days than not, that I feel almost 100% functional. Hang tight!

[Guest [We...]]

Youll get here. 2 months is early. I realized about a month ago I never really believed I would heal, and that I was just talking myself into it. But the progress made over the last month has been truly amazing. I'm not sitting here saying I'm healed yet, but there are so many more days than not, that I feel almost 100% functional. Hang tight!

 

Yes, 2 months is still early indeed, however, one the other hand I can't really believe that I have been suffering for that time already.

 

Did you do anything specific to improve your situation (i.e. certain form of exercise or diet) or did it improve on its own?

[[il...]]

Youll get here. 2 months is early. I realized about a month ago I never really believed I would heal, and that I was just talking myself into it. But the progress made over the last month has been truly amazing. I'm not sitting here saying I'm healed yet, but there are so many more days than not, that I feel almost 100% functional. Hang tight!

 

Yes, 2 months is still early indeed, however, one the other hand I can't really believe that I have been suffering for that time already.

 

Did you do anything specific to improve your situation (i.e. certain form of exercise or diet) or did it improve on its own?

 

I exercise when I can for its regenerative benefits, and I can exercise more than ever now. I try to stick to a healthy diet of clean protein, nuts/seeds/grains, vegetables and fruit for obvious reasons. I believe both help, but at the end of the day, time is really the only thing.

 

Something else I did was list all of my sxs and categorize them under "constant", "intermittent", and "gone". That really helped gage my progress. It also helped motivate me as I move items from constant to intermittent and from intermittent to gone!

[[Ar...]]

Wonderful to hear that you are healing.  Keep going, you are almost to the finish line.  Wishing you the best.  Thank you for sharing and giving hope to all of us still suffering. 

[[il...]]

Wonderful to hear that you are healing.  Keep going, you are almost to the finish line.  Wishing you the best.  Thank you for sharing and giving hope to all of us still suffering. 

 

Thanks, Arkansas! It's not clear sealing yet but I definitely turned a corner. I'm going to the movie theaters in an hour! God bless! Keep going!