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11 month purgatory


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The whole WD thing is really getting to me now , was seeing improvements into month 10 but got to the end with nasty head symptoms - cogfog/dr/dp. And i mean really bad. Now it feels like ive taken a step back .

 

Feels like im stagnant, mild head symptoms, mildly depressed and fatigued /no interest in anything. I guess you could say its a wave but my waves have only been 3-4 days. This has been going on over 2 weeks now. WTF is going on? I was doing so well.  :(

 

I really need some encouragement right now thanks buddies

 

 

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The whole WD thing is really getting to me now , was seeing improvements into month 10 but got to the end with nasty head symptoms - cogfog/dr/dp. And i mean really bad. Now it feels like ive taken a step back .

 

Feels like im stagnant, mild head symptoms, mildly depressed and fatigued /no interest in anything. I guess you could say its a wave but my waves have only been 3-4 days. This has been going on over 2 weeks now. WTF is going on? I was doing so well.  :(

 

I really need some encouragement right now thanks buddies

 

Hello my ole friend Lockie!! :smitten:

 

I'm so sorry you are still struggling hun! I too have had one heck of a struggling day today!! Ugh! Will be soooo thankful when you  (we) are healed. Hopefully this is the last bump on the hill before your complete healing!! Please stay strong! BIG :hug:

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Same exact thing here bro. I was having "lessenings" which I was calling windows every other week, now they have gone totally away and everything got worse or is changing, but not in a good way and it's been going on for weeks. I'm trying just to hold on but I'm really out of strength. To have thought I had reached an area of promise and reliability and be thrown back into hell like this is scary and driving me insane.
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Absolutely understand.  I'm not as far along as you are but I just used the exact same word the other day - feels like I'm just in purgatory.  I'm not as bad as I was the first couple of months but this is just feeling like I'm stuck.

 

I also thought I was getting a bit better, had days here and there that weren't perfect but I could see the light and felt a little happiness.  The last few days (and today is the worst) have been steps backward.  Anxiety, some depression and apathy, and my burning/searing pain is back, and my head is being squeezed tight.  It's been pretty unbearable today and my teeth have started hurting so much.  Wtf is right.

 

I always remember reading about how these things get worse and it's a sign that most likely things then get better.  I've kind of found that's true but the whole cycle of that wears you down.  I know we're going in the right direction.  I'm not feeling happy or optimistic at the moment but I really believe we are on the right track.  Truly.  I'm thinking we're going to be turning this corner soon.  And it will all end one day. 

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Thanks for the support guys. I was sure my brain was finally cooked. The head symptoms were horrendous but i bounced back and even went to work the last 2 days for a few hours.

 

I seem to be getting more strength back too (when not in a wave)

 

Keep strong people we will be ok one day

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Hi sorry you're feeling crappy!

 

I feel like a similar thing happened to me in month 17 and continued into 18.... DP/DR increased and cog fog is really heavy, a lot more then usual... I kind of feel like it might be what your brain does just before some intense healing though.

 

I'm super worried that it won't clear up for my exams next week and I will have to do my exam feeling like a potato!

 

BUT from other posts I have read, it does seem that fog and dp gets really heavy towards the end before everything shifts to healing...

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So sorry Lockie that you still have some ugly symptoms, but sooo happy that you were able to get to work for a few hours.  This is a very tough road we travel...but we will get thru this.  I am still suffering and trying real hard to keep going.....it is exhausting and depressing to say the least.  Every day seems like groundhog day.

 

Wishing you continued healing...sending healing hugs and thoughts..... :hug::smitten:

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